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CASS IS SICK ):
Feeling so weak and each time the wind blows at me, my bones feel like it's gonna collapse anytime ): GAH. It's that kinda feeling when you're out in antartica without any clothes on. hahah.

Anyway I know I blogged in the afternoon but hahaa I'm bored tired and weak now so yea. Anyway went to pai nian again with ling. haha. play blackjack and yay. today's luck not bad (: Overall fun today la. But the walk home was pretty cold, lonely and dark. GAH. Don't like that feeling. Ohwelll ):

Freak I feel so weak noww ): Oh and I realised I didnt get to take a picture with ling yesterday. RAH. But we've got more juicy pictures. HAHA!

Jonathan tempted me to go club just now but nahh. I'm a good girl (: No more clubbing till jamie and I are back. Hahah. jamie, last night, jamie, hahaha! Oops too high =X

Anyway joeytan is going to kill me cos I pangseh him, AGAIN. hahah. Sorry la botak. Next time treat you and beeping to make up for it. ahha. But make sure you 2 book me before I leave!

I cant get you out of my head
Dont care what is written in your history
As long as youre here with me

29 more days and omg I wont be able to see you for 48 days ):

note to self: I need a new laptop bag. and I want that puma shoe!

Labels: iloveling :D

It's saturday! (: Over at ling's house right now. LOL.

Mambo was wed with the sg pris and jiamin. Hmm, nothing much i wanna talk about. haha. Thursday was slack. 1 hour lecture only. Then went to bukit timah for lunch and i watch trav ron zach and oliva play pool. Stoned there for a few hours then finally went home. LOL. Started on the food micro presentation but I fell asleep. Hahha then yea, supper at night.

So yesterday was yet again another slack day for school. Was practically sleeping during PI. haha. Waited 3 hours for a 25 min lecture and it was such a waste of time zz. After sch went home and the rest came over. LOL. I believe jiamin enjoyed her night alot yesterday (according to her fb message :D) So for the whole of yesterday my house was so noisy cos everyone was playing, ling ryan and glo busy with assignment and some of us eating. Well, I enjoyed my night as well. haha. Just that I'm having a headache now. zz.

Less than a month to nz. Sian. Oh and I asked mummy about the dalian china trip in front of part of the clique. She rejected me. Dang. I want and I don't want to go. Ohwell.. Want me to go, gotta convince my mum, if not, I think I'll just stay in sg and accompany benson and xx. haha.

Alrights. sleepy. byebye.

Boy I cant bear to leave.

Tired. Dead tired. With reports and presentations to prepare by tml. I predict another sleepless night. haha. Ohwelll.

Wasted my time in sch today cos it was only 1 hour zz. Went to bukit timah for lunch then stoned at some pool place while the rest played pool. hhaa. Stoned quite alot today. Felt as if my soul wasnt with me ): Anyway after that walked back to kap then bus to dover then trained home. Attempted to do the presentation slides but haha I fell asleep =X Went out for supper (or rather my dinner) cos I slept all the way till 9 i think and got too busy with work then didnt eat. zz LOL.

Anyway last night was a killer. Seriously. LOL.

Somehow, mummy reminded me that I've only 1 more month left in sg. sheesh. But the tickets arent paid for yet so hahaha. not paid = not confirmed! I'm having second thoughts already some how. Ohwell...

you just don't know how much i love you

Yupp and so for the past few days cassy was a super happy girl (: Supposed to catch a movie with ling but rahhhh. too late liao ): Ohwell ling promised to watch it with me again! :D So yupp, still happy. ahaha.

Shopping, clubbing, playing. 1 word. FUN. esp when it's with you (: Someone reminded me that exams are just round the corner and OMGGGG. 1st march is going to come soon soon ): Not happy about it okayyyy. RAH. I'll miss my ling. muchie muchie. dang.

LOL. for like 1 min I cant remember why I ended up at ling's place on sat afternoon. LOL. Shopping! When to suntec then bugis then back to ling's place. Then went to watch ling and friends play billard at some ulu ulu place. LOL. I was practically stoning and freezing there. LOL. Then took a superrrr long ride home and rushed out to meet pris and jiamin at vivo. Oops sorry I was late. ahaha. Saw ling and gang there as well. For a few secs my heart was beating so fast I don't know why. LOL. Then pris jm and I went to explore stjames. LOL. We were like praying that we'll be able to get in before 11pm. ahha and we did. And glo called me right after we just stepped in. lol. A min late dude. Went in, look around, nobody so we went out again. LOL. Went out to stone for a while then met glo and ryan. Hahahah. after some time ling, cheeyang, jin yong and all his other friends came liao. damn packed la. but yea I believe pris and jiamin enjoyed themselves ALOT. hahahaha. Halfway through I was like super sian already. LOL. But ya la. still stayed till the end. hahah. went to have macs then a one hour ride to ling's hse. Slept and ling sent me back in the evening. Thanks ling (:

Okay so reached home at ard 540pm and mum was like why so late when they were not even ready to move. Went to grandma's for reunion dinner and for the firsttttt time in my 18 (coming 19!) years, my uncle suggested playing blackjack. with money. LOLLL. After dinner went home then ling suggested going for a movie so yupp, came to pick me up. stoned at kpool for a short while while watching them play. Then when we went to check the tics. dang too late so cant watch ): In the end we just went for supper.. After supper ling sent me back. lol.

Steamboat on 30th!

lol i feel like a lesbian.

Labels: iloveling :D

Crappyshitzxzxz. Hungry cassy went down to her kitchen to find food. Opened her fridge and tada she saw this big box of cake so she opened it and OMG IT'S A 1KG CHEESECAKEEEEE. But nvm it's late at night and it's fattening so she'll save it for another time. then she saw her favourite cheesecubes (okay not exactly favourite..) ahaha there were like 2 different boxes so she took both out. 1 box full of plain cheesecubes. the other had like 3 different flavours -- Ham, plain and tomato.

She took a ham cube and HMM. nice.
then she tried the tomato cheese cube..
and..
OMFGGGGGGGGGGG. Taste like the super disgusting bloodymary like omg. wtff.
Rinsed my mouth and grrrrr the taste is still there omg. DAMN DAMN DISGUSTING. SHEESSSH.

idontlikebloodymary. grrr.

I'm going to bed >: (

Crap. imeem isnt playing any of my songs ): Sian. Gotta resort to youtube and haha spent hours listening to rin on the rox. nice nice I like (:

Ohwell school was slack today. 3 hours break was spent on waiting for ling, eating, chatting with ben and xx, playing wii. haha. had presentation for food pres then dismissed :D Spent the rest of the day/evening/night with ling at home. ahah. Then off to look at shoes. Dang I like that puma shoes ): If only they had some other colours... Ohwell. Shall go check out tml :D

Spree stuffs came. busy busy.
Byebye

and i enjoyed my day (:

Wednesdays. Hmm I love wednesdays (:
Out with ling and glo today. LOL. went to funan to have my laptop fixed. while the 2 of them went around pennisular plaza and shopping centre looking for their shoes. lol. But too bad, they didnt get any. After that, off to ling's house and I had to wait at the void deck while ling had a hair cut. LOL. don't ask me why void deck. hahaha. Was like half awake cos we fell asleep on the bus ride back. haha. damn tired.

Booked the important dates for tests and yay. All ready for the next challenge! hahha.
MAY MAY MAY.
MAY 2009 (:
Wa damn high. hehehhee.

I'm a happy girl today (:
And I shall remain this wayyyy.
Not gonna care what is happening, just gonna stay happy (:

And my world will resolve around school friends and most importantly, you.

Happy(: and EMO NO MORE :D
Okay so I emo-ed alot the past few days.
Made a little to myself as well as to ling.
Well I don't know, we'll let time prove it (:

A heavy burden off me today. or rather 2. BIA was horrible but the other was (((((: damn happy. So right now I'm one step closer.

Someone just reminded me that there's only 6 weeks left to ITP. And it sucks real bad cos I don't feel like leaving. Don't like the idea of leaving ling alone. I know it's damn bad la ): but who knows. perhaps abscene will make our hearts fonder and when I'm back we'll be closer! LOL. yupp. Look on the bright side of life (:

Oh crappy shit. My hair is growing way too fast. I feel like cutting it again. LOL. Addicted to short hair liaozzxz.

I feel as if I'm always screwing things up whenever we have stablised but rahh. I'll make changes and improve. Boy just let us be happy. ilu <3

looking through till I saw this pic and I thought both of us look slimmer there. LOL.
Ohwell, those times (:

nice one.
Guys, are just all the same.
I miss my tk days. Fcks I miss the girls man.
fcksfcksfcksfcksfcksfcksfcksfcksfcksfcksfcksfcksfcksfcks
i'm in a bad mood.

Told myself not to think about it and enjoy the remaining weeks. But I kinda broke down yesterday cos it's just too worrying.

Superstar, where you from, how's it going?
I know you, gotta clue what'cha doing
You can play brand new to all the other chicks out here
But I know what you are, what you are, baby

Look at you, getting more than just a re-up
Baby you, got all the puppets with their strings up
Faking like a good one, but I call 'em like I see 'em
I know what you are, what you are, baby

Womanizer, woman-womanizer, you're a womanizer,
Oh womanizer, oh you're a womanizer, baby
You you you are, you you you are
Womanizer, womanizer, womanizer (womanizer)

Guys are all the same arent they? When they do something wrong / do something they dont want you to know. Their reactions are the same. 4th time it's happening to me. I already know. I just pretend I don't. Very soon bits and pieces of my nightmare will come true.

Mum's right about my life. I'm glad I looked over the bright side of it. Or perhaps, I'm just letting fate do the work. I'll just do whatever I am supposed to do.

Do my part as a girlfriend,
Do my part as a friend,
Do my part as a daughter (maybe not so true for this la, thanks to some idiot)

Time to chiong my BIA. Haven touched it yet. Crappy shit. And my reports arent done. Congrats Cass, congrats.

Supper alcohol and late nights are taking a toll on me.
I feel fat.
But whatever. I'm trying not to care anymore.

Someone asked me to face it not avoid it. but its tough. But thanks anyway.
goodbye

Cass is pissed off. And upset ):
Sigh ohwell.
it's just fate and I've got no say.
even if I do whatever I say doesnt matter.

i dont feel like blogging anymore.

ever spared a thought for me?

Supposed to feel high and not cry.
Tears please stop flowing.
You're ruining the night.

I'm having a freaking headache and I don't know why.
Ling's not home! ):

Getting too high my chest is actually hurting ):
Somehow my life's suddenly so full of colours and excitement. hahaha

Dang if not for BIA's quiz....
Ohwell, we can leave that for next week (:

Anyway day's been. normal. Slept at 5 plus woke up 9. LOL. And since there was a message to convey to those who wanna join sp's food science. There's the "advertising".

Come to Sp's foodie! Go overseas for attachment, china for immersion, meet gay friends like gawin and lesbians like jamie! Get to snack around and eat chicken during practical! Steal icecream from the kitchen while doing your project. Come come come!

LOLLLLL . I'm damn guai lo. And I'm still sufferring from the effects of the high-ness from just now. Ohwell (:

Been so long since I heard your voice.
Been so long since I saw you.
I miss youuuu. LOL (:

I can't wait for weekends. Samuel wants me to go play tennis with him. dang.. Oh, did i mention I went shopping yesterday? :D $300 plus in 2 hours. Travis says my shopping rate is $150/hr. HAHA. Cool lor. Bought stuffs I never thought I would. But then again, it's a new year, I got a new haircut so gotta match ma :D

I dug out a super old tee from my cupboard this morning and my maid thought it was some new top I bought secretly. ahhaha. Ohwell. Can't blame her. I only wore it once, I think. Oh and I just looked into the mirror and I so wanna get some highlight. LOL. Ohwell. Cassy's happy todayyyy. Oh boy, I cant wait to see youu.

Cassy is waiting for huiling to send her her short hair picture cos she cant transfer hers over from her hp ):

what if 1 day, you were to leave? I wonder what's gonna happen to me.
=(

Rah, i'm not going to think about it. What happens there, happens there.
I shall follow my heart and let it trust you.

Anyway since ling wasnt free today so off home I went after a heavy brunch in school. $8.70 in Pizza hut for 2 bowls of chicken soup, baked rice, 2 drumlets and root beer. Full to the max. Met Sam aw at the convention centre so we stopped to talk to him about itp and the china thing. Ohwell. I'm like sitting on the wall now. I really don't know ): Bro don't think I should go lei. Ohwellll. Saw Jamie the loner at the mrt station STILL waiting for her friend. LOL. Reached home, talked to my bro, packed my room and fell asleep. Went out to shop after dinner. LOL. Spent like.. $300 today I think. Dang. But I've not bought anything for ny. just some new clothes which are a big nono for cny cos someone will start nagging if I were to wear black and so casually. ha. I must say, I spent quite alot on accessories too. LOL. Got tempted then keep seeing new ones then hmmm.

finally took pics of my new hair! But i cant upload cos laptop crashed and I'm too lazy to transfer to my desktop using the cable. haha.
okay byebye. School starts at 11 tml so YAY.

Tired....
Mummy asked me to go do cny shopping. But I've no $ and I've no time. LOL.
Plus I don't know what to buy. and where to start shopping.
I don't want clothes at the moment but she inists on buying at least 1. LOL.
Got my new year heels. I want a new bag. Something decent enough for my everyday use. ahhaa.

Cant think of what I'm lacking now. LOL. Prolly a new watch but I can just kope any from my mum's shop. But designs abit off ar. Saw this super nice one at fossil but rahh. I've been spending too much. Each time I use my card it's like more than $80 gone ):

Oh, I just remembered I need to get shorts. LOL. my shorts are getting wayyyy to loose. Not cos i lost weight but cos i don't know how my maid washes them, it just keep getting bigger. haha. Okay maybe more tops to satisfy my cupboard's growing appetite. Especially after I emptied 3/4 of my room yesterday. hahaa. I'll prolly pull someone to vivo with me one of these days. LOL.

I want bags and tops and shorts and watch and earrings and rings and my boy ):
Okay im going to sleep bye bye.

Feeling the upsetting part of today out, I can still say today's relatively good. Weather was cooling and I'm glad I brought the thick jacket my bro bought me. 1 hour plus late for gems cos i overslept and acutally some time thinking if i should go for it. haha. Lectures were boring, slept during envstA as usual. Reached home and cooked dinner. LOL.

People talking to me about relationship. I listened, I learnt.
Realising that some stuffs can be done and some not.
Learning to understand how to un-pettify myself
Understanding what's the true meaning of trust.

I know you'll ask me to hold on
And carry on like nothings wrong
But there is no more time for lies
Cause I see sunset in your eyes

Cass is satisfied with herself today. Cos...
- She cleaned up her room, threw away alot of stuffs.
- Didn't emo as much
- Feels great with her new hair cut (:

Ohwell, people said my hair's too short. haha. I still think it's a little long. But I don't think I've the guts to go cut it any shorter for now. Totally not used to it. Esp during pract when I don't have to tie my hair anymore. haha.

Was flipping through some stuffs. From pri school till few months back. I realised the change in people. Esp the one closest to me. Thinking about how he would come down whenever I'm feeling upset / not well. Talk to me, joke around with me. Sweet talks and stuffs. Now, I guess it'll be a miracle if that even happens. It's really so upsetting you know. I almost broke down into tears thinking about how you were months ago and now.

Things are goingg downhill. Maybe my nightmare is coming true soon. Maybe one day, just maybe, my lovely fairytale will come to end. I've been losing sleep thanks to it. gr.

back to spring cleaning.
Maybe I should change my mind.

aiya fcks la. The dust ard is making me cry.
and i feel so deprived. of love.

I may be stupid / silly, but I think what's going on, my sixth sense never fails me when it comes to relationships. So, don't try to fool me.


I'm feeling so giddy. Listening to love songs and crying to myself. I guess I'm just being over sensitive again. Maybe? yea maybe. I'm feeling. Confused. Maybe bits and pieces of the songs I've heard can tell me how I'm feeling..

but she wears short skirts
i wear t-shirts
she's cheer captain
and i'm on the bleachers
dreaming about the day
when you wake up and find
that what you're looking for
has been here the whole time
if you could see
that i'm the one
who understands you
been here all along
so why can't you
see you belong with me
you belong with me.

and you were wild and crazy
just so frustrating, intoxicating
complicated, got away by some mistake and now
i miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
and it's 2am and i'm cursing your name
I'm so in love that I acted insane
and that's the way I love you
breakin' down and coming undone
it's a roller coaster kinda rush
and I never knew I could feel that much
and that's the way I loved you oh, oh

And you got your secrets and I'm tired of being last to know-ow
And now you're asking me to listen cause its worked each time -- before

I dont know who Im gonna talk to now at school
But I know Im laughing on the car ride home with you
Dont know how long its gonna take to feel ok
But I know I had the best day with you today

I MISS MY HAIR. HOW ): And I realised I can tie it. after much effort. haha.

Out to celebrate ling's friend's bday. Full to the max cos we had buffet. Came home, thought about some stuffs after catching nyonya. BTW, NYONYA WAS SUCH A DISAPPOINTMENT. zzzzzz. ohwell, back to work.

And you got your secrets and I'm tired of being last to know-ow
And now you're asking me to listen cause its worked each time -- before

Why am I having this feeling again,
Cant we go back to a short while ago when we were so happy?

Happenings over the weekend. Lol.

So friday during our 3 hour break, Ronald, travis, weiliang, zach, huiling and i went over to tiong bahru for our porridge buffet. Somehow, don't know why, we started talking about our dialects. Hahah. Ronald's a HaChew. Tracy's a Cankien. LOL. And we found hair / thread in one of the dishes. disgusting. After lunch went back to school for sze's lecture. 1 hour, waste time. haha. but I think it was the effects of the porridge, feeling kinda high. Hahah. finished her lecture and tutorial then back home. So tired that I fell asleep all the way till 8. Then my maid woke me up. Dang. Prepared, had dinner then waited for tracy's sms. Hahah. Thought I couldnt make it at first cos my mum came home and kept talking (or rather nag?) haha.

Heck, then went to meet tracy for our post ny celebration? LOL. Supposed to go on ny's eve then changed to last fri then to this fri. lol. On the way to the purple line benson popped out behind us. LOL. Reached clarke quay and waited for jiamin, ron and pris. LOL. Total waiting time? 2 hours i think. went to rebel and wasted even more time waiting. GRRR. As it got later there were more people. Ohwell, this time it was, hmm more people different experiences. And they played a few of my favourite songsssssss :) Then ling called me like 10 times before I found my phone =X sorry ling. Then left rebel abt 3 plus to meet ling. Sorry made you wait so long again... But thanks for coming to fetch me la (:

Hanged around ling's place till like 3? then went for my haircut. LOL. Once again, my hairdresser was shocked. Esp when i said i wanna cut till shoulder length. haha. finished my haircut and did my hair treatment. After everything, when i was ready to leave i thought my hair wasnt short enough so... hahah made him cut shorter. Seriously up till now, I'm stil not used to my new hair cut. Regrets? Nope. New haircut = new me (: Forget every single bad thing that happened and i'll keep only the good and memorable ones. haha.

After my haircut and everything, went to meet mum and bro then we went to pick his gf then to sembawang to pay for their wedding rings. Dinner at astons! Saw charles. I think he loves SP so much eh? Still in the SP tee. hahaha. Went to carlin's gf house then back. Tired.... and I fell asleep immediately. haha

My hair still smells of the treatment's lotion. LOL. And my maid said my hair looks more brown now. VERY GOOD :D
drowning sorrows in cups and cups of alcohol

news came during food pres lecture today. food students gonna have an immersion programme. going to china (dalian) for the first term in year 3. that means if i'm going to nz then go dalianzxzxz, i wont be in sg for abt 4 months?!?!?! oh crap. I want and dont want to go.
I'll prolly lose everything (and that one and only thing) that's important to me if i'm going.

oh fcks. I hate this.
And tonight's not the night.
crappy shitzxz.
seeya =(

Hate it when this feeling comes.
I feel alone.

And my womanizer song isn't having much effect on me anymore ):
But ha, anothing song (:

Hey
Oh, Let me tell you no

Try'na decide Try'na decide
If I really wanna go out tonight
I never used to go out without ya
Not sure I remember how ta

Gonna be late Gonna be late
But, all my girls gon' have to wait 'cause
I dont know if I like my outfit
I tried everything in my closet

Nothin feels right when Im not with you
Sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choos
Takin them off 'cause I feel a fool
Try'na dress up when Im missin you

Imma step out of this lingerie
Curl up in a ball with something Hanes
In bed I lay

With nothing but your T-shirt on (x2)

Hey

Gotta be strong gotta be strong but Im
Really hurtin now that you're gone
I thought maybe I'd do some shopping
But I couldnt get past the door and

Now I dont know, now I dont know If Im
Ever really gonna let you go
And I couldnt even leave my apartment
I'm stripped down, torn up about it

Nothin feels right when Im not with you
Sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choos
Takin them off 'cause I feel a fool
Try'na dress up when Im missin' you

Im'a step out of this lingerie
Curl up in a ball with something Hanes
In bed I lay

With nothing but your T-shirt on (x4)

Im tryna decide, tryna decide,
If i really wanna go out tonight.
I couldnt even leave my apartment I'm stripped down, torn up about it

Nothing feels right when Im not with you
Sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choos
Taking them off 'cause I feel a fool
Try'na dress up when Im missin you

Imma step out of this lingerie
Curl up in a ball with something Hanes
In bed I lay

Nothing feels right when Im not with you
Sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choos
Taking them off 'cause I feel a fool
Try'na dress up when Im missin you

Imma step out of this lingerie
Curl up in a ball with something Hanes
In bed I lay

With nothing but your T-shirt on (x4)

nothing but your t-shirt on
ooh let me tell you no
nothing but your t-shirt on
ooh let me tell you no
nothing but your t-shirt on

I saw it. And my heart skipped a beat. Immediately, I felt like crying. But what can I do.
Cass, just resign to fate.
Fcks man.

Microbio pract this morning and AHHA I reached earlier than travy. hhaa. it was kinda slack cos the stuffs we had to do was just, transferring the bacteria, diluting etc. And the disgusting chocolate icecream. Then off to fc4 for brunch at 9.30AM! Funny thing was, I walked past ling today when i went to get drinks and I didnt realise it.. Only realise when i saw the backview. haha. Walked back to t2 for microbio lecture and I was almost falling asleep. Somehow, I think chicken's not that bad afterall. Compared to our Miss itswellaswell. haha. then kinda emo-ed plus food chem pract was horrid. Don't know why but I wasnt in any mood to talk much ): suddenly felt kinda troubled and demoralised. ohwelllll. Then travy let me listen to womanizer cos that song just kept playing in my head and yupps felt soooooooooooooo much better after that (: I think need upload need songs into my mp3 soon! Then I fell asleep during Env tutorial and I think ronald and gawin were like laughing at me grrr. LOL On the way home travy showed me the womanizer video from madtv.. I was like LOLL wt*
Ohwell.. Reached home and cooked dinner.

Class outing tml. Lunch at tiong and mmmm, rebel?
Today kinda sucks, but.. i guess there's still something for me to smile for..

I'm not sleepy I can't sleep. There's so much going through my mind now. I can finally understand why my mum's been complaining each time i on my desktop. The fan in the cpu is making so much noise I'm actually having a headache now.

As I scroll down my blog I realised my recent posts have been prettty boring, without pictures.
I need music. All my nice nice favourite music are all in my laptop. arge shit. My laptop. Someone please remind me to backup the stuffs inside before I bring it to the service center. Hopefully it still works after that. Else, HA macbook you're next. But then again. Where to find the money?

I was looking at my bank statement online and I realised the amount of money I spent on gifts and food. Hahah nvm, as long as the person who recieved it is happy (: And I realised I've not touched my allowance for this week. Good one Cass, keep up the good work. I need to save save save.

And there's still new year shopping to do. who wanna go shopping? Class intended to go bangkok. LOL. If only there's a confirmed trip to BKK like before CNY, that's the best. do the cheap cheap shopping there. Ohwell, I miss bangkok. Okay I just found a super cute photo of this dog in BKK.

and this song's stuck in my head.

Womanizer, woman-womanizer, you're a womanizer,
Oh womanizer, oh you're a womanizer, baby
You you you are, you you you are
Womanizer, womanizer, womanizer (womanizer)

Alrights, I'm going to try to sleep now.
Byebye.

you're the only thing I cant bear to let go.

I'm sleepy. Woke up early today but since my mood wasnt very good I took my own sweet time and yupp, late for pract today. Didnt really have the mood to talk today but i figured out, what for let it bother you so much? When the day comes, then face it. Right now, just enjoy whatever is coming. So yupp. I'm not going to worry, I'm not going to think too much about that matter. Stay happy that is. Simple and Happy.

Someone asked me to look into my reflection and ask me to see if I can recognise the person inside. Well, I said no. Indeed, I'm lost inside me.. Lost in the world where i try to be not me. I hate me and the me I'm trying to be. I don't know how long I can stay this way. But for the time being, I should just, shuddup.

Pract ended early today, and we got back food chem results. I must say, I'm proud of myself for this paper (: *pats my own shoulders* Slacked at fc2 while waiting for ling to be done with lunch. LOL. then went to bugis to get ling's hp casing then back homee. So tired I slept on the way home. haha.

Anyway we have plans to go overseas. Like during the weekends. Cool lors. but $$$.
Ohwelll, im sleepy i needa sleep. byebye.

Going to cut my hair soon..
And I made new resolutions.

The sun's so sunny. The usual puddle of water i see on the stairs leading to the mrt control station was dry. first time since so many months.
It's cold tonight.

Reality sucks, I wanna get out of reality.
I did some reflection.

the car will be just behind yours. enjoy the car ride and well, dont forget the one behind.
haha

goodbye.

Happy 6th darling (:
pray pray prayyy that tml will be a better day.


///EDIT
Wanted to blog about something else but i guess not. Ohwell.
OH and i just remembered. on the way to school i saw this lady carrying this super pretty chanel bag. dang. seriously the first ever super ex bag i set my eyes one. DAMN NICE LAAA. i also want ):

Today's not a good day.
Late for pract, late for the lectures after that. Ohwell..

Sometimes in life, we expect alot. So much so that we get disappointed too easily. Disappointments are, somehow, not something you can avoid I guess. Probably just not think about it? But it gets tough somehow.. Wished this wasnt happening to me. Wished it was something better.

Sometimes we agree to something, then when you think back, you realised how much you regret. And from there, you can only wish and pray that that agreement would never take place.
Ohwell, it's freaking me out quite a bit..

Home doesnt feel very homey now that I'm back here. I rather go to my "second home", away from troubles, away from noise, away from quarrels. With nothing except security, love, peace and fun. Too bad all good things have to come to an end.

I realised I'm spending the time i have online on facebook. Hmm, it's getting additive again. I've been bowling and bowling, on facebook of course. Speaking of which, I want to go bowling soon. Anyone? Ang? Glowing person? LOL. Carlin passed me his guard so my ball's damn pretty now. Went bowling with carlin the other day and bowled 9 games straight. Tiring looooo. But fun :D

it's my nightmare, your dream?
But still, I want you.
Don't leave me okay?

tml will be a great day (:
I believe wednesday will be one too!


So so, it's finally 2009. Happy New Year everyone (:
2008 have been... Hmm, good and bad I guess. Hopefully 2009 will be better..
But before that can happen, I need to get my desktop AND laptop fixed. Both of them died ): And I need to backup my data but apparently my bro ran out of hard disks already. Hahha. Imagine 2 desktops and 2 laptops down ): Who wants to sponsor me a new lappy? :D

So, on wed it was countdown day. But still there was school so it sucked real bad plus I woke up late so yuppp. Bad start. After school went home, slept till like - pm then rushed to meet ling. Hahah. Presented the present! thankfully not a very disappointed face I got there. So after that we went off to some superrrrr big house and stayed there till the next morning. Stoned, played, watched tv, drank, watched them play mahjong. LOL. Overall was fun la (:
Thanks for everything lovely!

2009.
Forget about the bad stuffs in 2008 and welcome all the good in this coming year. My new year resolutions?
- Get better grades (: My gpa have been too disappointing the last 2 sems. hahah
- Get a complete new haircut (or maybe a dye too, but... I guess that's not too possible..)
- Lose weight! Yupp I've been gaining weight since july! hahaha
- Forget some really bad stuffs. and move on.
- A better, changed me.

just let me be that girl.