Monday, July 25

250705` | 7/25/2005 08:10:00 PM

t0day IS the day. the actual day. haiz.

250703

had napfa 2.4 tis m0rningg. i alm0st died. but i ddin lahh.

den afterr schh had stupid chinky oral. i screwed up lahh. oh man. i diin h0w t0 read like s0 many w0rds..

den went h0me wit mc..

supp0sed t0 study BUT i fell asleep. hhaaz.

k lahh. i need t0 study study study. jtyy n0t online. AHH. hmphff. NVM. i STUDY.

2 years ag0 on tis faithful nite.. smth interestingg happened. and till n0w.. i w0nt ferget it.. haiz.. i SH0ULD be happy.

Sunday, July 24

depressed` | 7/24/2005 07:57:00 PM

im depressed! haiz.. am i still being reminded of the scar that was left behindd like.. a year ag0?

haiz

why must tis still happen t0 miie? afterr all.. it's hist0ry.. all is hist0ryy.. i juz wana start anew.. i d0n wana tinkk abt it anym0re..

I HATE HIIM.

AHHHHHHHH

fr0m t0day.. i am not g0ing t0 be disturbed by tis stupid incident.

Saturday, July 23

out wit ken3 | 7/23/2005 08:10:00 PM

ohh well~ t0dayy went out. den came h0me. was s0o0o0o0o0 tiredd! hhaaz.

den slept fr0m 4-7+. wit the sji b0okie in my arms~

hhaaz

well. n0w having a c0nver wit jac and jtyy. hhaaz. s0 funny~

alrightz.. endingg off here. buaiz`

Friday, July 22

day 2 | 7/22/2005 08:07:00 PM

Lalala. Had training t0day.. =D

Played a 161 game.. almost closed ALL frames can. Hmphff. Onli had 1 open frame.. but no strikes! Ahh.. IRRITATING.

Im damn b0redd. And sleepy..

–yawnz-

t0day’s day 2. =D

Thursday, July 21

happy? | 7/21/2005 09:11:00 PM

y0y0y0~ hhaaz. the past 2 days hadd been erm~ scary and.. i don0 h0w t0 describe. hhaaz. oh well . its all over t0day! =D

ohh well.

im hapiness-striken. hhaaz.

Tuesday, July 19

tired` | 7/19/2005 08:22:00 PM

i diin bl0g yest. cz MC wanted miie t0 studyy my hist. hhaaz. and i did.=d

den i studiied all the way til 1 am den fell asleep while chatting wit ken3. hhaaz. n0te its 3.

hhaaz

oh ya. yest went t0 parkway eat swensesn wit yuying yiying and charl0tte. hhaaz. den charl0tte went back t0 schh first. den the 3 of us walked t0 the library t0 find meishan jiayi and the twins.

den slackk there fer a while and i walked h0me wit yuyin.

wasnt a VERY l0ng walk th0ugh. hhaaz.

den when i reach home.

I SAW MY AIRC0N WIT WHITE PATCHES.

there was ice inside lahh.

damn c0ld can.. den i at nite cann0t on the airc0n.. cz the airc0n is having its ice age n0w. hhaaz.

den t0day still c0ld c0ld de.. tinkk im SICKK.

ahh

den t0day went parkway again. wit yiying. den saw shann0n wit her fren. and it s0 happens tt they were walking in fr0nt of us. and they went t0 pasta mania and we wanted t0 g0 there t0. hhaaz. den i t0ld yiying

me: ehh. later shann0n tinkk we stalking her

hhaaz.. den we ate our lunch and went walking ard pp.. den went h0me lia0.

reach h0me. and i saw the airc0n. still as icy. hhaaz. sianz.

Sunday, July 17

sianz` | 7/17/2005 10:42:00 PM

yest d0 the flagg day till n0w my hand aching siia. sheeshh.

s0me0ne t0ld miie im bec0me m0re lian. AH. h0w can tt be? im damn guaii can. hhaaz

anyway. i had a terrible nightmare last night. it was damm scaryy can.

i was w0ken by fright at 6+.. den w0ken up by my alarm cl0ckk at 6.30.. i was damn scaredd at tt time lahh. supp0se t0 meet yuyin but since it was raining. i c0ntinued sleeping. hhaaz. den the raindr0ps the s0und seemed s0 scary.. i juz kept my eyes shut..

s0 sadd till i can cry ar!

:(

den t0day wh0le day slackk. hhaaz.

and i tinkk im g0ing t0 get a feverr s0on. hhaaz. kept feeling c0ld plus im n0t feeling tt well tis few days..

k lahh. gtg le.. buaiz`

Saturday, July 16

COLIN!! | 7/16/2005 09:44:00 PM

I wanted t0 bl0g again yest but smth went wr0ng wit the server. Oh well. I shall bl0g abt yest t0day.

Hmmz. I was damn depressed lahh! Diin get t0 g0 t0 see the masters. Den cant see linny. b0wl! Ahh! N0t fair. I wana g0~

c0w n0es wh0 linny is. IM DAMN JEAL0US.
linny is her fren.

Ahh~

NVM.

Hmmx. Yest.. it seems like a wh0le d0zen ppl were t0king t0 miie. Sms~ 5 at a time lahh. Wa. My bill g0ing t0 expl0de lia0. den sms haf way den n0 batt. Hhaaz.

Den c0me online. D0no h0w many ppl t0k t0 miie. S0 busy can. Hhaaz.

t0day g0 d0 cip. damn fun. hhaaz

at first went tanjong pagar. den g0 bugis.

hhaaz. g0 bugis the temple dere. den n0 one wana d0nate. HMPHFF`.

den kat elis and miie st0p at one place. den we stand there. hhaaz.

everyone seem t0 d0nate t0 miie. hhaaz. and elis. POOR kat.

and it seems like kids like t0 d0nate t0 kat and men and w0man and guys like t0 d0nate t0 elis and miie. l0lx.

den i smile till my face numb can.

hhaaz

den we went t0 bugis. den gt tis gr0up of guys os0 d0ing s0me stuffs. den they ask us help dem. den we t0ld them t0 d0nate fer us den we help them. hhaaz. they chi kui..

hhaaz.. den one of the guy kinda cute. hhaaz. =D

den after den g0 h0me mp library. den waited fer my parents t0 c0me den we g0 her fren hse there lia0.

hhaa.

k lahh. my legs aching like mad. =D

//c0lin r0x.

Friday, July 15

colin` | 7/15/2005 08:48:00 PM

Ahh. im mad lia0. g0ing madd over lini. hhaaz. last time nrj os0 n0t liddat. ohh sheesh.

lalalala.

//crazy girl

Thursday, July 14

c0linniii` | 7/14/2005 11:07:00 PM

l0lx. linii~

linii ishh a b0wler fr0m **s hhaaz. OMG

i don0 why. but i like linii`

hhaaz. linii ishh his/her sh0rt f0rm.. cz i d0n wan u ppl out tt t0 n0e wh0 it is. hhaaz. cz i did smth damn maluatingg juz n0w. hahaz

went fer the c div t0urnament t0 supp0rt them. den i saw LINII!! OMG.

LINII w0n s0 many stuffs. hahaz. s0 happy~

den they were ann0ucing the masters and every0ne was quiet. den when i heard linii's name. OMG. i SREAMED. linii turned and l0ok at miie lahh. sheeshh. i was DAMN paiisehh lahh

den linii's and miie eyes met. hhaaz. :$

im g0ing crazy`

Wednesday, July 13

depresssed` changed p0siti0n` | 7/13/2005 10:13:00 PM

as i lay on bed last nite. u suddenly came int0 my mind. i started cryingg cz i miishh u. and i knew my l0ve fer u nvr died. i've been lyingg t0 myself. haiz.

wats wr0ng wit miie? im n0t supp0se t0 tinkk of hiim anym0re. haizz.

been feeling depressed t0day t0o. chinks less0n.. i was still quite okai. den duringg ss. i was damn sad can. i don0 why.. haiz.. den eng less0n. felt like crying. haiz. there was tis urge in miie t0 take smth fr0m my pencil b0x and.. u n0e. C U T

Missing someone is a terrible but at the same time,sweet feeling.
U will be sitting around wondering if u meant anything to him.
Thinking if he ever cares about u.
Rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it's him.
Looking out of the window hoping that he will surprise u by appearing downstairs.
Sitting in front of the television but thinking of him missing the final episode of your favourite show.
Laying on your bed, thinking of the last time u wen out together.
Thinking of how nice it will be to situnder the stars again, talking about everything, your dreams,plans, future.
Logging on to the internet hoping to see him online.
When u realise that he isn't online and did not return your page, u will start worrying if he is okay.
Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess.
It exposes u to loneliness.
It teaches u how to cope with being lonely and let u know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness.
Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.
U know that u really care and u indulgein the feeling of loving/caring for him.
But missing someone and not knowing if he is feeling the same is terrible.
U feel as if u are being left alone.
So if u miss someone, tell him and let them know.
At the same time, ask if they miss u.
Don't let the feeling of missing someone become jealousy or paranoid.
If u are the one being missed and u know it, let the other party know.
if u miss him too, tell him.
Don't let them wait.

haiz.

tll changed EVERY0NE's place. mayb left afew wh0 diin change place lah. n0w im sitting behind yiying. ha. and she t0ld miie her BIGGEST secret? hhaaz. yay. i r0ckk. =D

after schh went t0 pp wit yiying. saw j0s and sheng b4 leaving sch. den the 4 of us went t0 pp t0gether. went t0 y0shi t0 eat. i was damn tempted t0 w0rkk lahh. hhaaz. budden they like all old old aunties de. l0lx. i wana w0rkk in SAM'S PETS sh0p.. hhaaz.

den walked ard pp den left wit yiying t0 g0 t0 the library.

den we went t0 startbuckks. sit d0wn t0kk. hhaaz. den i did my t0ng ya0.

when i was C0NCETNRATING on it. tis guy outside l0ok at miie. den he kn0ck the glass. SCARE miie can. l0lx. and sh0cked yiying t0o. hhaaz.

den we diin b0ther hiim and juz did our own stuffs.

i juz reaised tt starbuckks is a nice place t0 study. hhaaz.

d0ing t0ng ya0 on fri. sheesh. i haben d0 the ppt yet. k lahh. gtg le. buaiz`

Tuesday, July 12

eng oral` | 7/12/2005 09:46:00 PM

had eng oral yest. g0shh. i was the last one lahh. den i waited fer 3 h0urs.. 3 h0urs leii~ wait like mad. hhaaz. can die siia. den i was damn sleepy. i tinkk i t0k damn little lahh. budden she nvr ask miie any questi0ns when i was t0kingg abt the pic. weird siia. den i was damn scared during the c0nver. sheeshh. hhaaz.

den yiying waited fer miie till i finish l0rr. h0w nice of her. hhaaz. den ghis mc yiying and miie went t0 eat chicken rice. actually ghis diin eat chicken rice. she ate chicken pie. hhaaz

den mc and miie t0ok bus g0 h0me. den gt tis gr0up of gay guys b0ard the bus. hhaaz. i cant c0ntrol myself s0 i ended up laughingg and laughingg n0n st0p. l0lx.

den we were like mad w0men. takingg pics. hhaaz.

t0day. had chem ca. suckks can. but i h0pe i can at least pass l0rr.

den after sch went pizza hut eat lunch wit mc. den she came my hse slackk. sing kara0ke all the way. hhaaz. damn funii. den aft she left. i c0ntinued singing. hhaaz. den fell asleep at 7.. w0ke up at 7.45+.. hhaaz`

k lahh. gtg lia0. C0M DAMN LAGG!!

//xia0zhu
[[ em0ti0nally unstable ]]

Saturday, July 9

haiz` | 7/09/2005 11:43:00 PM

where are u wen i need u m0st? haiz..

u said tt u'll be there fer miie.

lies.

is all lies

i once l0ved u.

den i regarded u as a br0

den u gave miie h0pe.

i believed in y0u.

n0w leiiz?

where are u?

i need u m0st and u're n0t here..

//teary nite`

j0shua` | 7/09/2005 10:32:00 PM

OMG

t0day.. can say ishh a nice day ba. hhaaz.

i b0ught <<>> oh my.. its damn nice can.. my bf acted in it. J0SHUA ANG. *muackz. l0ve ya!

hhaaz

he's damn cute in it can. :D

den b4 tt i dr0ve my dad's car AGAIN. :d

sheesh. i was damn happy juz n0w. and s0me0ne jus hav t0 c0me and sp0il it. tt h0peless pers0n.

yawnz`

Thursday, July 7

blue eye | 7/07/2005 08:51:00 PM

y0uu made miie l0ve y0uu. den u br0ke my heart. n0w i miss y0uu. yet u treat miie s0 c0ldly. y0uu hurt miie evn m0re. mayb u diin even l0ve miie AT ALL.

muz y0uu d0 tis t0 miie?

im n0t dumb. y0uu cant f0ol miie.

i miissh y0uu l0tz..

i hate y0u.

Wednesday, July 6

h0t` | 7/06/2005 08:10:00 PM

OMG.. t0day's a supa h0t day.. cant stand it. i've been sweatingg like the wh0le day?? sheeshh..

y0 h0 y0 h0
the frisky plank
y0u walks al0ng it s0
when it g0es d0wn and y0uu g0es d0wn
t0 davy j0nes bel0w!

hhaaz. shann0n sang tt duringg eng drama. damn funii. wee. IT'S OVER. s0 fun can. hhaaz. esp the fighting scene. l0lx.

sianz. i was dying during chem.. damn b0ringg can. but still.. hafta listen. i muz be guaii.. hhaaz.

den bi0. okaii okaii lahh. did experiment. hhaaz.. cheeri the ah s0h br0ke 3 test tubes. hhaaz. pr0fessi0nal huh?~ hahaz.

den after sch.. yiying wanted t0 g0 parkway again. im sickk of parkway sia. plus. i w0nt ferget wat happen there last weekk.. haiz..

s0 in the end. yiying went t0 caltex and b0ught jelly cz she was hungry. and i b0ught my milk t0 refreshh myself.. =D

den we went backk t0 sch t0 slackk.. den we saw meishan..

slackk till 1.45 ba.. den meishan and miie went h0me.. den when we reached st pats.. we were like laughing at tis guy wh0 was damn gay lahh. hhaaz. his schh backk was like a handbagg lahh. OMG. but i tinkk he was kinda cute. :D

den i went h0me. eat. i wanted t0 study after my lunch.. den in the end. i fell asleep. omg. i'll gr0w fat like that..

den i w0ke up at 6 by my br0 cz he wanted t0 watch tv.. btw. i was sleeping on the s0fa. hhaaz.

k lahh. i g0 bathe le~ damn stickyy. buaiz`

Tuesday, July 5

sianz` | 7/05/2005 09:08:00 PM

AHH. damn sianz can.

t0day's less0ns were b0ringg. plaiin b0ringg. -yawnz-

i was falling asleep duringg hist0ry.. -yawnz-

den after schhh. rehearsed eng. OMG. its still n0t tt g0od l0rr. damn sadd. tinkk we g0na sc0re damn bad. sheesh.

den mc yiying and miie t0ok taxi t0 century square. b0ughts initial D tickets.. den went t0 tm eat pasta mania. =D

den yiying t0ld miie the guys l0oking at us. MUZ BE L0OKING AT MIIE RITE??? hhaaz. s0 bhb.

den we wallked ard and went t0 watch the m0vie le.. =D

damn nice can. alth0ugh its like the sec0nd time im watchingg it.. hhaaz.

cried at the end of the sh0w can. ITS S0 DAMN NICE.

jay jay jay ahjay ah jay ch0u. hhaaz.

im reminded of y0uu. again. haiz. theres a sudden rushh in miie t0 run t0 y0uu and hugg y0uu...

Sunday, July 3

sianz sianz` | 7/03/2005 08:22:00 PM

ohh well.. t0day is juz like an0ther n0rmal day..

supp0se t0 meet yuyin. s0 i diin wana be late again and w0ke up at 6.30.. haaz. den i went t0 packk my r0om and stuffs.. and hu n0es.. it was abt 7.15 lia0.. i was like..

shit. im late.

den i quickly change and went t0 the meeting place and guess wat. she's n0t tere!! den she smsed miie say she g0 h0me lia0..

-_______-"'

den i went backk t0 sleep. hhaaz. den my mummy w0ke miie up den i f0ll0wed her t0 her sh0p. g0 her sh0p be guaii kiia. finishhed my hw. den slackk awhile. den when t0 buy my heels. hhaaz. after awhile.. went t0 bugis wit my mummy cz she wana g0 see the makan mania thingy. hhaaz.

reach bugis.. WA. al0t of ppl.. den i b0ught my stuffs.. *th0se tt i wanted t0 buy yest budden n0t en0ugh m0ney* hhaaz.

den waited fer my dad.. den g0 h0me le...

den the zilian miie t0ok pics of myself again..

and i even t0ok a pic of wat i w0re t0day! l0lx..

i have a dream...
a fantasy...

if.... | 7/03/2005 12:39:00 AM

went 0ut t0day. t0day's m0od quite okai le ba.. i tinkk.. untill..

blueeye came online. haiz. chatted wit hiim fer awhile. cried. den he went offline le.. den chatted wit johnny.(b0wling kaki) den der came t0 t0k t0 hiim. he t0ld miie smth that t0uched miie.. or mayb.. made miie tink of the past.. and i cried.. again.. haiz..

if that day really c0mes.. i'll be the happiest gal on the w0rld..

Friday, July 1

b0ring` | 7/01/2005 09:59:00 PM

t0day seemed like a b0ring day. mayb cz of the less0ns i had ba. hhaaz.

b4 recess.. the less0ns were quite okaii i tinkk. hmmx.. onli tt after eng.. which is the 1st peri0d. i t0t it was recess oredi.. hhaaz. lame..

lit was b0ringg. but im a guai one wh0 takes d0wn n0tes. hhaaz. s0 s0mem0re i manage t0 keep myself awake. den chem i was listening t0 liew. but my eyes were half opened. hhaaz. den a maths. i was trying real hard t0 c0ncentrate. but s0meh0w. i fell asleep. in fr0nt of ye0. hhaaz.

den supp0se t0 hab amths supplementry. budden its like al0t of pppl left.. s0, miie and yiying went t0 parkway. hhaaz.

and again. we met shuhui on the bus. l0lx.

den yiying and m0ii went t0 pastamania t0 eat.. YUMMY. den we went t0 giant t0 buy my buter. dumb miie. b0ught s0 early.

den we went walking ard.. and saw quite a num of tkgians. den i went t0 icelem0n tee b0ught a tee.. hhaaz.

den i b0ught my bsb cd and madagascar s0und trackk. den yiying b0ught huang yida's..

den walk walk.. den went t0 the pet sh0p l0ok at d0gs den we g0 h0me le.. hhaaz.

den j0s call miie ask miie g0 watch initial D with her and sheng. budden i cant make it . s0 din g0.

s0... i went h0me and made my cupcakes!! hhaaz. again. yes again.

k lahh. t0day diin take pic. tis is the one tt yuyin and miie made. i made the saem one t0day th0ugh.. l0lx..
k lahh. gtg le.. buaiz`