Friday, October 31

Looking forward to Fridays | 10/31/2008 05:47:00 PM

I got trapped ourside cos I forgot my house key. Work starts in 1 hour 10 mins and I don't know why I'm still here. I'm hungry..

Well been listening to lots lots lots of love songs, looking at lots lots lots of couples.
And the songs have kept me going. Emo-ed a little, thought of you, thought of the happy times, listen to nice songs, listened to our song. and tada. I'm out of emo world.

Sauna with xixiang today. Hmm I guess the sauna wasn't working very well but it still works. haha. Pictures will be up when I'm back!

It's halloween. Dang I wanna go out and celebrate. SP was having our e-learning week last year this time. How I know? Cos 1a24 had ptn but I didnt go and to me, the sixers are more important. haha. So yea (:

Oh talking abt sixers, I had a little surprise from the 4 Cs. Hhaah. Thanks babes (: Love love all of you (: You made my day when I saw the card. hahha.

Okay byebye =|

All I am, all I'll be
Everything in this world
All that I'll ever need
Is in your eyes
Shining at me
When you smile I can feel
All my passion unfolding
Your hand brushes mine
And a thousand sensations
Seduce me 'cause I

I do cherish you
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will love you still
>From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much
I do

Before I really go, CLICK HERE.
and vote for Cassandra lee. C is a Big C please. lol.
Don't ask me why i use that photo. Ask darrell. LOL.

I'm gonna psycho myself to get out of.........
ohwell.

Monday, October 27

(: | 10/27/2008 10:38:00 PM

Made some promises to myself (:
I'll look at life from a different view.
Do things in a different way.
Handle situations differently.

I'm 18!
Will grow out of those childish behaviour.
Yup yup
No more emoing (:

花海 | 10/27/2008 05:41:00 PM

Well, this song kinda reminded me of one of my friend..
Sad melody. Made me emo.
Well I wont forget the times we spent enjoying his previous album's song.

Jay Chou: 花海

静止了所有的花开
遥远了清晰了爱
情侣们爱却更喜欢
那时候我不懂这场爱

你喜欢站在那窗台
你好久都没再来
彩色的世界染上空白
是你流的泪晕开

不要你离开距离隔不开
思念变成海在窗外进不来
原谅说太快爱成了阻碍
手中的风筝放太快回不来

不要你离开泪已化不开
经历的阻碍我在等待重来
天空仍灿烂她爱着大海
情歌被打败爱已不存在

你喜欢站在那窗台
你好久都没再来
彩色的世界染上空白
是你流的泪晕开

不要你离开距离隔不开
思念变成海在窗外进不来
原谅说太快爱成了阻碍
手中的风筝放太快回不来

不要你离开泪已化不开
请你等重来我在等待重来
天空仍灿烂她爱着大海
情歌被打败爱已不存在

so what | 10/27/2008 03:46:00 PM

whats the use of making me happy on my birthday, and sad/upset after that.
If that was the case, I rather my birthday not come at all.

So what if I'm 18. SO WHAT.
It doesnt make your parents love you more,
it doesnt make your parents apprecipate what you do what,
it doesnt make your bf love you more,
it doesnt let anymore understand you more.

I'm prolly just gonna indulge myself in sch and work.
Why bother putting in so much effort in other stuffs when you're not gonna get anything much in return.

sucks.

Sunday, October 26

fucking sian | 10/26/2008 10:14:00 PM

Birthday's over and it's back to reality.

I'm $200 closer to my goal.
And I got a job
But I'm pretty disappointed with some people right now.
Where are you to share my unhappiness?
Where are you to share my joy?

When I'm unhappy you run away, you avoid me.
When I'm happy somehow or another, I get upset because of you again.

I remember telling someone that that someone is my support.
And when supports falls, that person falls as well.

Thai express for dinner and they gave me a bottle of red wine.
Happy but not happy.
I need at least $800.
zz

Like all ah lians do.

Complain from melb | 10/26/2008 01:56:00 PM

I just came out from the shower and WOW. got ppl complaining lo. Okay I know this is like the 4th post in 2 days but okay la for my fatty brother.

Carlin - Melbourne 宅男..stats,& psychopathology..average 4 hours a nite..goin mad soon... says (1:53 PM):
hey.
CASSANDRA- says (1:55 PM):
?
Carlin - Melbourne 宅男..stats & psychopathology..too much sleep is not gd for the body..4 hours is good enuf.. says (1:55 PM):
wah lau u say me bad in ur blog ar.. /box/box/box
CASSANDRA- says (1:55 PM):
hahah no laaa
Carlin - Melbourne 宅男..stats & psychopathology..too much sleep is not gd for the body..4 hours is good enuf.. says (1:56 PM):
who call u share ur birthday with so many events on the same day ar.. birthday with my best friend somemore..
CASSANDRA- says (1:56 PM):
lol
Carlin - Melbourne 宅男..stats & psychopathology..too much sleep is not gd for the body..4 hours is good enuf.. says (1:59 PM):
i am a psychologist.. i dont mess up ur heart..make u cry.. i only mess up ur brain..lol..
CASSANDRA- says (1:59 PM):
lol

See why he;s ranked 3rd now? LOL. Anyway I realised we have a even recent photo together. The day he left for melb (:

K la i know I look horrible there but nvm (:
For fatty C, cos we're the C's. (:

K i just hope gladwin doesnt see this so soon else he's going to msn / email me from melb as well complaining why he's number 2 not number 1. ahhaha.

Call from NY | 10/26/2008 01:04:00 PM

Samuel just called from NY to wish me happy birthday! OMG I was so surprised. Well, for the past 6 years, he always made an effort to wish me happy birthday, regardless of where he is and he never fails to make me cry. Seriously.

When I was sec 1 (13), he was in thailand for his poly attachment and obviously he wasnt in sg to celebrate my birthday. But he flew back specially on the 25th noon just to wish me happy birthday and to celebrate it with me. then, he flew off on the 26th morning back to bangkok.

In sec 2. He was having his shooting range or whatsoever and it was my birthday. he smsed me something like this.

Dear sister I'm sorry I wished you so late. I'm out having my _(inserts activity here)_ and it took me quite a while to get the reception to send you this. Happy birthday!

Well, I was still in school then and I cried ):

Sec 3 and 4, he was in sg so we celebrated together. I cant remember what he gave me in sec 3, but in sec 4 he gave me a billabong bag and waterbottle (: We had our birthday hitea in Amara hotel (:

Poly year 1, Mum forgot my birthday and I don't know where he went. Yet, he still smsed me to wish me happy birthday.

Poly year 2. My dearest brother is in NY for his uni attachment and silly me I was still thinking why even my 2 other brothers wished me already and not him ): But this morning at 10am he sent me a message on msn and wished me happy birthday (: then at 1+pm, he called and said, "Girl, call me back alrights." and I did.

First he wished me happy birthday, asked me how I spent my birthday and if I'm happy. He even asked if my bf brought me out. haha. and he said,

since you've reached the age of clubbin, when you go clubbing MUST MUST take cab home. Doesnt matter where when who what, spend the money and take a cab.

Eh he's encouraging me to go club. lol. Cool.
Then he started saying stuffs like how much he loves me and misses me, how devastated it would be if he were to lose his little sister one day. He said he wants to see me when he comes back cos he loves me and he needs me. Fuck. I cried and even right now when I'm typing I'm crying. Well, I guess he's the only brother who makes me cry so much on my birthday because of all the touchy touchy stuffs he says. Well, second in rank would be gladwin. HAHA. Carlin's also touchy touchy but prolly to his gf not me ): hahaha.

I'm so glad I've such loving brothers although I admit I do hate them sometimes for the stuffs they do to me. haha. I love GCS :) (lucky my eldest bro's initial is a A)
As for my parents, hahah my closer friends would know (:
Sometimes they just never fail.. to disappoint me. haha but it's okay (:

Samuel's birthday cum engagement cum farewell party.
And i dono where carlin went. ahha This was our last family photo since then (:
And so to make up for it....

Birthday post (: | 10/26/2008 12:01:00 AM

It's 12.01am. Birthday's officially over. Cass is 18. OMG IM 18. okay I'm not exactly very excited about it. Wasnt very excited.

So for the first 4 hours of my birthday, it was just emo-ing. Slept, woke up. and I guess I emo-ed somemore. Till like 1pm when i reached habourfront. Hahah my boy wore the top that I have toooo. Silly boy thought I would wear it today. hahah Well I almost did but I thought i'll look weird if I wore that today. hehehe. Lunched at marche, till like 4, 4+? then we went to daiso and pet safari with jinyong. hahah. I love dogs :D Then we went to Cathay for a M18 movie. Wasnt really a very good experience. hahahah. But nvm (: Roamed around then home sweet home (:

Darrell just told me something and I want to whack him. No correction. I want to kill him. LOL.
But thanks for that little "present" LOL.

My mum called and said she wanted to wait for me to cut my cake. I reached home and EVERYONE WAS ASLEEP. wtf man. Well, 18th birthday and what I got was disappointed from my parents. Quarrel with someone. But nah. I'm not going to think about it. haha.

CS I WANT MAGIC MAGIC MAGIC. Thank you for that lil croco that I wanted since the first time I saw it. And that nice nice green fossil wallet I wanted too. OH and, thanks for that lanyard that you didnt want and gave it to me. LOL. I would be happier if you bought a green one though. haha. BUT STILL I WANT TO GO WATCH MY MAGIC. lol don't forget your promises hor =P

18 things I did today
1) Emo
2) Celebrated my birthday with FisBis
3) Took the train to Habourfront
4) Lunch at Marche
5) Interviewed by journalist (READ WED'S CHINESE MORNING PAPER, POPCORN SECTION)
6) Went to daiso
7) Went to Pet Safari
8) Bus to Cathay
9) Bought my FIRST M18 movie tickets LOL
10) Ben&Jerry's with darling :D
11) Bought popcorns & Drink
12) Got a refund from them
13) Watched a movie in the Picturehouse
14) Walked to PS
15) Roamed around PS
16) Went to Dhoby Xchange
17) Trained home
18) Got the real present from darlingg :D

Okay I know it's very gay but nvm. LOL. i'm just trying to do stuffs so that I wont emo anymore. I really don't want to emo.

======= EDITED========
Okay I fell asleep after typing those so here I am, at 9.52am, trying to add in stuffs i wanted to blog last night. LOL.

Firstly, thanks to those who remembered. People want to see names, so I shall try to remember. And stop complaining lei. I old liao, memory not as good. HAHAHA. Here you go:
Cs
Kenny
Weirong
Huiling
Ivy
Glenda
Columbus
Alan
Joshua
Bern
Gladwin
Jiawin
Gaddafy
Sophia
Sherlene
Joey Ang
Joey Tan
Samuel W.
Jinyong
Carlin
Samuel Lee (ON 26TH Morning, but I cant you, once it's like 25th oct, 10pm there. haha)
and I really cant remember anymore. LOL. But ya, thankyou (:

And a big thank you to Travyyyy and Xixiang. hahah. You 2 just know how to make me feel so touchy touchy. LOL. Love you 2 :D And since travy is going for the SFMA thing on friday, XIXIANG LETS GO SAUNA. lol. huiling wanna come along? :D

And I just remember this funny conver cs and I had over at B&J yesterday. LOL. I think he was squeezing / looking at my calf muscle or something. then
he said : Wa pig muscle (i think so) Me: Wei wei don't anyhow touch. Expensive k Him: 1kg how much? Me: $8898 Him: Okay give me 2kg Me: Wait la. Still feeding the pig (I just pop a spoon of ice cream into my mouth) Him: Who's the pig? Me: (Another mouth of ice cream) ME LA. LOLLLL.

Okay lame. but i think it was quite funny. hehe. And so my mum woke me up at 8+am just to cut my cut. Well, no meaning already. Since it's already over. I was so pissed last night I told rini to go cut it for them since they want to eat it so much. ZZ. Ohwell..

I'm 18, I wanna go watch magic magic magic. Arena arena arena. LOL.
Oh and I MUST BLOG ABOUT THIS. I'm kinda pissed off cos I find people COPYING what i write / put on my blogshop. It's damn irritating I tell you. Please la, no originality? zz fucking hell. Let's see how long more I can actually tolerate. And there's this person who's actually copying me. SHE EVEN COPIED MY BLOGSHOP'S ADDRESS. just that hers has a fucking S after her fashions. I think it's spree-fashions. Fucking dumb i tell you. People nowadays have no freaking orginality. You see open open blogshop, got business, you also open. You do instocks, no business, then copy others open spree. Somemore open same spree. Eh fuck la. copycat. ZZ. Whack your damn nehneh then you know. GRR.

Anyway to calm myself down I went to read the first message on my hp inbox. Hahah it made me smile (:

Okay I know it's a super long post so here are the picturessss.
My BIRTHDAY CAKE ON 25TH OCT. lol. And yes I celebrated it myself =(

Now the birthday day on 26th. LOL.

(I was still sleepy so pardon me for the sitting position. ahha)

And that said I made a long long wish. haha

That cake was pretty hard. (CHEESECAKE LEII)

Well the fun part came only after my parents left cos rini and I used our hands to eat it. hahaha.

Nice I like.

Belated birthday girl (:

Rini point middle finger.

Snatch Snatch

Finger licking good :D

Darrell's present! Hahah thanks (:

That croco CS got me. Heheh even rini had fun playing it:D

Fossil leiii

YAY my fav. HAHA

Right so mum asked me to go down to her shop at 3pm later. She even asked me where I wanna go for dinner. LOL. I had a few choices in mind...
- Shokudo
- Fish & Co.
- Ramen Ten
- Pu Tien
- Thai Express
- I got no more idea. LOL

And my leg is swollen):
Okay i'm going to shop (blogshop). LOL

p.s: It's 11.08am now. LOL

Saturday, October 25

251008 is the worst day ever. | 10/25/2008 10:21:00 AM

in no particular order,

zhiyong
ron
godwin
xx
trav
benson
darrell
cheeri
jiayi
yongshearn
derrick
weiliang
siewgeok
mum
and i cant remember who else, i was too tired. LOL
But thank you to those who remembered (:

Well well, my mum didnt forget! that's a good thing. and she even bought me a cake. but this morning she called and told me to go cut myself. then i was like wtf. and i started crying ): Like that I rather she forget la. Cutting my own birthday cake is the worse thing to do. So I went to celebrated my own birthday myself. With fisbis. Great. I know there'll always be fisbis when i need it. I love fisbis (:

Fisbis is so useful, you can use it as a vulgarity. I hit something yesterday during pract and I almost scolded fucckk when i was like ffffffffffffffffffffffisbis. LOL. COOL LORS.

Like I told so many people, this birthday wont be very nice. haha. Expected it already cos even I forgot abt it. Yea 18th birthday, more impt. But it's not impt anymore when you're getting so disappointed and actually spent the whole night crying.

Im going to seek happiness in my fisbis. Goodbye.
Anyway, thanks for trying to cheer me up (:

weird lo. someone's name not there. ohwell.

Thursday, October 23

hm. | 10/23/2008 11:38:00 PM

Rini tried the newest version of our pudding. When I tried it, first mouth was, YUCKS. But after that, I was like mm this is nice. hahaha. Okay nvm. Anyway there's so much pudding in my house now. Anyone want to try? Come to Sims View for freebies. hahaha.

Anyway I feel so dumb now. I scalded my arm when I was taking out the pudding, then I cant remember what I did and there's a cut on my fourth finger now. RAH.
My back hurts..

Lol I don't know why I'm blogging again.
Ohwell..

(: | 10/23/2008 07:27:00 PM

Hmm after emoing for a few days, yesterday was finally emo free. Well until at night but nah shan't talk about it cos nothing happened. LOL. And I realised the nasi lemak stall in fc4 has nice chilli :D I like.

Today was kinda packed for me.
Woke up, prepared for the pudding. Waited for travy and ron to come. Did pudding till 12+. Went to school, 15mins late for lesson. LOL. After sch, lunched. Went to bugis find customer find supplier. Then went to shaw house to look for the bazaar organiser to discuss about the terms and some other stuffs about the contract (COOL LOR). After which, went to fareast and omggg I saw this pair of shoes it's so prettty. $19.90 :'( Cass no more shopping until I save like $1k.
And believe it or not (eh reminds me of Ripley's in genting hehe) , I did all these, including walking in the rain, even though I was having a fever, headache, and body aches ):

eh Food class 24, sentosa outing next week. Any takers? Since our genting trip's cancelled ):
Oh ya, we took quite alot of pictures during our tutorial yesterday since the foodies from 23 were late for class. haha. Huiling damn zai when it comes to taking group pics.
Mervyn took a picture of 8 ppl in genting, and huiling took 15 yesterday. hahah.

Jogging tml with xx! Sauna next week kkkk :D

A few no nos I set for myself LOL
No more:
Shopping till i save 1k
Eating roti prata (although it's damn nice)
Drinking soft drinks
Eating icecreams

And I shall cut down on:
Shopping LOL
Eating fastfood
Deepfried food (Gonna miss my fried tofu)

Lol okay I'm hungry and no one is home ): I shall go hunt for food.
Tata. I realised lost is so much luckier than me. He has food!

Tuesday, October 21

fucking hell | 10/21/2008 08:07:00 PM

~~Feeling damn fucking pek chek now. like wtf.~~
There goes my genting trip.
And I was still quite hopeful for the bangkok one.
THERE IT GOES.
fuck la

so freaking upset and someone had to irritate me

Someone just throw me in bangkok for just that few days.

control control control
I can get over with this

and more tears flow.
I cant control it.

No one really understands
You don't care, do you?

Rc told me something this morning. And I guess, it makes alot of sense.
Charles told me some stuffs too. And I guess it was pretty true.
We shall see.

Everything have been going bad for me. Seriously.
Please let me get through this.
Be it alone or with you.

And I just realised my parents didn't celebrate their wedding anniversary..
I wonder how they can live with each other for the past 20+ years..

It's such a crucial month.
I'm feeling it.

Monday, October 20

): | 10/20/2008 11:37:00 PM

Cass is not upset
Cass is not disappointed.
I'm happy I'm happy I'm happy.
And I'm not gonna cry.

Gah. I've been feeling a little little disappointed with stuffs recently. But ohwell. Guess I should look on the brighter side of life. But the brighter side isn't exactly very bright. Sigh..
Ohwell, I have this feeling this whole week is gonna suck like shit.
Somehow I'm already starting to hate birthdays, hate october.
ohwell.

Why do we have to face disappointments in life? I hate crying myself to sleep.
shitzxz what an emo post. zz

I don't know what went wrong. I can't stop crying I can't stop myself from having this kinda feeling. it hurts. alot. sigh.

Bury that sorrow. I AM HAPPY I AM HAPPY I AM HAPPY.
~~but I still feel like crying.. sigh~~

Sunday, October 19

i woke up so early ): | 10/19/2008 08:00:00 AM

It's 8:03am and I woke 2 hours ago. Shocking. Don't ask me why I woke up so early. lol I don't know. I guess it's cos my body's getting used to waking up at 6am everyday. LOL. And cs called me at 6+am, just reached home. TSK. Ohwell, anyway I figured out it's time to go calculate how much SpreeFashion's helping me with my allowance each month. Hhaha. Gonna take long and I'm kinda sick of it already =S

6 more days.. Ohwell.
The more I see that magic poster, the more I want to go ):
And I wanna get new shoes (I'm starting to hate my nike one) LOL
Kkkk, back to work.

Oh and ps ky and trav. I fell asleep last night. Hhaha
And I saw what ky did to the picture I sent him. LOL. funnny.

Oh ya, xx trav sg and I went bowling on friday since we had a 3 hour break. haha. Pictures :D

Oops my parents are awake. I better go back to sleep. LOL