Monday, January 28

i love shopping! | 1/28/2008 08:40:00 PM

Too much walking caused me blisters ):
Anyway been shopping the past few days. LOL. and i met lots of people too!

finally got my esprit polo tee, jeans and dress. LOL. probably not for cny since mum said " NO JEANS" ): ohwell. that simply means that i need to do more shopping LOL!

I'm so glad i'm spending my holidays well :D
Cass is a happy girl!

Taking orders from Delias and David&Goliath!
Order from SpreeFashion (:

Sunday, January 27

(: | 1/27/2008 12:14:00 PM

yiying makes me happy (:

yiying says (12:12 PM):
haha
i love you lah
Cass BYE YEAR 1 (: says (12:12 PM):
YAY:D
i love yiying too

hehe

Saturday, January 26

I'm sorry. | 1/26/2008 07:45:00 PM

For all i did, I'm sorry..

I'm sorry for the way things were,
and the selfishness that you endured.
I'm sorry for the nights we lost,
and the deep pain it must have cost.
I'm sorry for the love you missed;
losing you helped me realize this.
I'm sorry I wasn't the girl you deserved,
this has been the hardest lesson learned.
I'm sorry I wasn't there to show,
the deepest love you'll ever know.
I'm sorry for the empty days,
and the stresses that you still yet pay.
I've never felt so much regret.
I'm sorry for the heart I broke,
that shattered with the words I spoke.
I'm sorry for the empty space,
that lay beside you in my place.
I'm sorry for the empty arms;
you fell into when times were hard.
I'm sorry for the days that passed,
Our love now will surely last.
I'm sorry it took so long to vow,
to love you forever here and now.
i want your forgiveness and nothing else.

so tired. | 1/26/2008 12:14:00 AM

EXAMS ARE OVER! and HOLIDAYS ARE HERE.
and yes, today marks the last day of us being YEAR 1.
sighh. Shant broad over it. YEAR 2 SHALL BE A GOOD ONE, i hope.

feeling quite happy although the last paper was like shittttt. RAH
anyway its over and its time to relax (:
Gonna work during the holidays. LOL need money mannnn.

ohwell, my blogshop. Yes another one. LOL
Please click here

Tuesday, January 22

(: | 1/22/2008 01:25:00 PM

I want to start everything all over again.

every single thing.

and be a happier person (:

sigh | 1/22/2008 12:54:00 AM

Weeks of humilation, insults and vulgarities.
All forgotten over messages which are not even considered honeyed-words
Am i so silly?

Its exam week spare me some peace please.

I really want to put an end to all these.
My mind is telling me different things.
I'm doing things that my mind isnt thinking about.

Gonna breakdown soon.
or rather, broke down already.
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I'm probably not up to your standard. i guess we expected too much.

please someone, tell me what to do..

Friday, January 18

and i thought of you. | 1/18/2008 10:13:00 PM

BYE AEE. finally we're done with that module. If only it's cppa. LOL.

It'a a real windy day today.
And what a day to fall sick ):

Exams exams exams.
Can't wait for it to end ):

Me to you.

这一刻突然觉得好熟悉
像昨天今天同时在放映
我这句语气原来好像你
不就是我们爱过的证据

差一点骗了自己骗了你
爱与被爱不一定成正比
我知道被疼是一种运气
但我无法完全交出自己

努力为你改变
却变不了预留的伏线
以为在你身边那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天已非常遥远
但闭上我双眼我还看得见

可惜不是你陪我到最后
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔
　
那一段我们曾心贴着心
我想我更有权利关心你
可能你已走进别人风景
多希望也有星光的投影
　
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能温暖我胸口

endless rain | 1/18/2008 12:21:00 AM

I want to cry so badly.
But i can't.
I'm too tired.

I guess we can't run away forever.
Everything that's happening, I brush it off with a smile on my face.
Deep down it hurts so badly. My heart bleeds.

Time and again, I tolerated.
There were times i really couldnt take it and cried.

No one understands my pain.
No one will.

Exam stress is piling up.
I want to run away from it. But i'm faced with another.
I'm clear of what I want.
But time and again I disappoint myself, disappoint people.
I don't expect to be forgiven nor will i forgive myself.

I'll bear the consequences.

Cass, what's wrong with you.

Thursday, January 17

feel the stress | 1/17/2008 10:28:00 PM

Im feeling so down I don't even know why I'm blogging.
Aee tml, APChem Monday, MIP Wednesday, CPPA Friday.
Everything is coming so soon the sudden amount of stress building up is killing me.
More problems are bothering me too.

I'm human
And humans make mistakes too.

Fears and problems haunted me

Tuesday, January 15

(: | 1/15/2008 08:44:00 PM

//EDITED

LOL! what an interesting day seriously. a few lines/words will sum it up.

bunch of ~~no-futures~~ guys
~~Bitch~~ Girl
G
Me

so pissed off.

by their childish acts :S

Sp students are more refined.
np produces hooligans and nofutures

I'm damn nice. Forgive.

Monday, January 14

exams ): | 1/14/2008 10:56:00 PM

Exams are coming and i'm still fooling around zzzz THIS IS BADDDD.
and i'm so disappointed with my reults ):

Ohwelll. Chocolate and donuts makes me high and i shall indulge in them. hehe.

Went to mum's shop after school and WAAA BK changed so much ): so much memories there with such great friends. I cried, studied, slept, quarrelled, laughed and everything there. Ohwell, at least Bk still remains at that same position (:

Can't wait for exams to be over! END OF YEAR 1 wooo.
iwanttoshopshopshop!
and yiying! come stay over soon! :D

Saturday, January 12

i hate this week so much | 1/12/2008 02:56:00 PM

THE WEEK ENDED!
finally man. Slept only like 4 hours or even lesser everynight because of apchem and mip. zzz I'm so glad its over. LOL and i'm even happier cos whatever i didnt study for mip didnt come out for the test. haha yay ((:

Week 17, supposed to be our nice peaceful studyweek but NNP. still need to go back for make up lessons. zzz. lucky all the practicals are over yay

I WANT THAT PAIR OF JEANS FROM RIVERISLAND.
And that pair of shorts from esprit.

Holidays please come quick. I want to work I wanna earn money!
:D

Life like bitter chocolate.
fuckyoufuckoffstopbotheringmeihateyou.

Monday, January 7

(: | 1/07/2008 09:59:00 PM

Call me silly.
I'm feeling kinda lost and don't know what to do.

I hate someone right now.
No not you, but YOU.

stayhappy | 1/07/2008 12:15:00 AM

And i promised not to emo anymore.
I hate this feeling.
GET LOST GET LOSTTTT.

I promised and i'll do it.
Cass will change.
I'LL BE HAPPIER!
and start loving 2008 (:

cass, guess its time to move on.

Sunday, January 6

new year, some changes, | 1/06/2008 12:13:00 AM

School started and its still as boring.
and i fell asleep during cppa. (see ngyl is still SO BORING)
I wasnt prepared for apchem and mip ):
Both tests next week. SO SCREWEDDDD. rahh

Its a new year, so expect a new template soon. ahha
(:

Friday, January 4

| 1/04/2008 12:17:00 AM

After one million failed attempts of logging in, I finally got it. MUAHAHA.

CASSANDRA IS MINE.CASSANDRA IS MINE.CASSANDRA IS MINE.CASSANDRA IS MINE.CASSANDRA IS MINE.CASSANDRA IS MINE.CASSANDRA IS MINE.CASSANDRA IS MINE.CASSANDRA IS MINE.CASSANDRA IS MINE.CASSANDRA IS MINE.CASSANDRA IS MINE.CASSANDRA IS MINE.CASSANDRA IS MINE.CASSANDRA IS MINE.CASSANDRA IS MINE.CASSANDRA IS MINE.CASSANDRA IS MINE.CASSANDRA IS MINE.CASSANDRA IS MINE.

I'm marking my territory yeah. Okay. I love you. In a totally normal kind of way. Though it sounds completely wrong. Don't be too upset alright. :) Miss you loads!

P.S. "Good dog dog"? Gosh..
P.S.2. By the way, this is yiying. You know the smart, mature 17 year old? Yeah. :)

Thursday, January 3

CHAN YIYING | 1/03/2008 11:45:00 PM

I LOVE YIYING CHAN! ((((:
and she made my day. when i was feeling so upset and all ((:
not forgetting those whom i was talking to. haha.
OH AND I FOUND PICTURES THAT MADE ME LAUGH ALOT ((:

yiying says (11:44 PM): haha don't cry lah i love you loads more than godwin you can consider dating me haha i'll make you happy that's gay :/

FYI, i didnt really cry. i "cried" cos...
yiying said: i hate you you're unhelpful and unencouraging i don't have a friend like you HMPH

haha i'm sorry yiying. But i really don't take history/lit/econs/geog/chinese now. hehehe :D

I LOVE YOU!

imisstk! | 1/03/2008 06:47:00 PM

I don't know why but i'm feeling kinda sad. Probably just school. So many projects and reports and tests. To add on to the pressure, final sem exams are coming in 2 weeks! sigh. I'm longing for 25 Jan to come soon soon soon.

11.10pm 25 Jan. The time when i'll be freeeeeee again.

On the way home today i saw a number of secondary school kids, most of them from a girls' school. Then i thought of tk, my friends, my life then. Sigh. i was never so emo. Well, i don't think so. Even if i was, those girls are always there for me.. sigh.
and i miss the uniform.

Am i sacrificing too much?
i feel so silly.

true friends never laugh at you.
i don't know if i should treat someone as my friend.

i need to start afresh.