Tuesday, February 28

im not a twit | 2/28/2006 10:38:00 PM

BOOHOOHOO. i feel so insulted can. =(( a twitjust joined jayliew's class. and omg. jo and ghis thinks that she's my twin. OMG. no no no!! i dno't have a twin. even if i do, i don't want her to be my twin. and guess what her name is. shanna long. oh my. why got my name. and ahlong's name! TSK. at first i heard as shan long. haha. gosh lah. her make up is like so so so thick. eeww. grossified! then jo and ghis keep making fun of me. =(( taoyan!

apparently jiahan broke up with her gf liao. ORHH. so sad. she sat separately today. but his gf, or rather, ex gf helped me just now. haha. but the answer still wrong. but nvm. lols.she's nice. =))

the weather's so hot and i'm so freaking tired. played so much bball today. ahah.and i'm so proud of myself. =D

pe played match. against lois's group. olala. my team won. thanks to me! haha. i love my lay up today. lols. so cool can. HAHA. =DDDDD
so funny. double happiness.

i feel pretty today! HAHA. and so, took pics after tuition. although long today never come. =(

OH YA OH YA. omg lah. had to present my photo to the class. den so malu can. ghis and jo keep asking NONSENSE. and i don't have a bf now lah. tsk. mdm li asked me if i have a bf den everyone was like ya ya. OOH MY. everyone thinks im attached and jo or isit asnira said that i'm a boy magnet.. how lame. RAHH.

k lah. ending here. tata.

Monday, February 27

500th` | 2/27/2006 08:35:00 PM

wee. this is my 500th post since i started blogging like.. years ago? lols. started this blog because of him. so yea.

anyway, had the final roll off today. so sucky lah please. average only 145.5. =(( some longkangs here and there. so stupid lah. highest only 161. =( how pathetic. bowled a 158 117 161 146.
and since adam's gona take the top two highest, my average of the 8 games will be 149.smthh. yupps. hopefully i get into the playing team. i have had enough of cheering already. RAHH. =((

i'm watching campus superstar now. oh my lah. yvonne got the second lowest. hopefully she stays. =)) and oh my. i cant stand teresa. saw her at pocket few weeks ago in the lift. den amelia keep looking at her. and when she left the lift, she was grinning lah. OMG. who she thinks she is. she isnt THAT PRETTY. OH MY. nvm. typical kc. RAH. whatever.

i want clara OUT. =)) and gosh lah. dunman high copied tkgs. look at their doll! OH MY. only change uniform and erm. REMOVE the nose? lols. hmphff.

i don't know why but i'm in a bad mood today. =((

i realised i'm easily irritated. hais.

and yesterday, i realise how much someone meant to me in my life.

i promised puny.
he helped me alot too. whenever i was feeling down. =)) my MUMMY. =D

wee. have to thank ahwin. lols. helped me with amath yesterday. THANKS GENIUS. lols. so bhb.

Sunday, February 26

love` | 2/26/2006 12:49:00 PM

someone asked me if i missed being in love. my answer. yes i do. i miss it so much. but the feeling to fall in love and get into a relationship has died in me. like what i told ahwin some time ago, my heart is probably numb already. its too tired to go love another. someone else asked me why i've never talked about my breakups. well, it's too painful to remind myself of them.
somehow, i've been thinking of my past relationships. when did i ever truly love? well, the first one is duh. loved him wholeheartedly. i believe many of you know how much. and i'll never forget the way it ended. so cruelly. the one that broke my heart the most. made me go crazy.
after that. i tried to love again. but ended up being heart broken. and it happened so many times that i completely give up already. like a guy? remind as friends. i don't want to risk getting so upset over such things already. its so tiring and painful.
the feeling to love and to be loved lingers in me. and yet i don't dare to. my life is getting so boring. its like a daily routine kind of thing. go school, training. then tuition. Saturdays, sleep in.
some of my friends are actually shocked that i can actually stay single for so long. so unlike of me yea. well, it's probably time to get serious and not fool around anymore.
i'm really grateful to have such great friends around me. all *maybe not all but most* so supportive and encouraging. i really don't know what to do without you guys.
esp yiying. <3>most of the time immature side of her. the one who supported me and was there with me all the time *except for the time we had the cold war* when times are down. and when i had difficulty in many things. i love you darling. *muacks*

and ahwin korkor. haha. the one who accompanied me and tried to cheer me up. haha.
and some others lahh. its great to have you guys ard. =D
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rahh. i must have been thinking too much again. seeing too many couples walking down orchard road. sucks la. i want to be in love.. =((

haha. i had so much fun last night disturbing ahwin korkor. lols. depriving him of his sleep. =)) and he's so nice to let me disturb me. though i know next week i'm gonna get it. haha. =pPp lalala.
i want to deprived ahwin of his sleep. haha. and make his muscles ache and have ulcers. not forgetting to let me lose concentration. lols. im so mean. =p but i like it. heeh. gay ahwin rocks my life. =D

alright. i crapped too much already. haha. i shall continue tonight. or tml. lols. tata!

and there's rolloff again tml at tamp safra. wish me luck! =))

Saturday, February 25

sianz` | 2/25/2006 07:58:00 PM

i had so much in mind yesterday and i wanted to blog. but the stupid blogger just couldn't work. rahh. i think i'm so tired these few days.. i just lie on my bed and the next sec, i'm already asleep. and this actually caused me to not off the lights and not taking out my contacts. haha. i think my body needs so much rest that i can just sleep through the whole of saturday. i slept around 12+ and woke up ard 12. then, i fell asleep at 5+. and woke up at 7+. rahh. im such a pig! lols.

well, had a long day yesterday i think. as usual, had lessons in sch. i passed chem pract! but i failed the overall. if only i had 3 more marks, which i lost to careless mistakes. that's super irritating. i've been getting very careless. seriously very very very careless. imagine losing 11 marks for your emath ca due to carelessness when you need 4 more marks to pass. and the chem ca also. careless. ahh. someone please kill me for being so careless. =(

had amath lecture after school yesterday. i thought it would be like super boring. but both ying and me found things to entertain ourselves. or maybe its just me. lols. yiying vandalised the hall's floor. haha. and i was just. slacking i guess. syaf said i spoke like a kampong girl cause i was speaking in malay. haha. and i keep saying the wrong thing. i wanted to say cinta but ended up saying cantik. haha. was super funny. i wanted to say. yiying cinta cassandra. but ended up saying yiying cantik cassandra. lols. completely different meaning lah. lols. and then i said a lot of rubbish in malay. lols. i guess i was just being too bored. =D

after the lecture went training. had our second roll-off. and i left my handphones in elis's car. oh my. i couldn't concentrate during roll-off. lols. and some idiot said he wanted to come but didn't. boohoo. you broke my heart. but nvm. i'm nice. you're forgiven. haha.

well, i played terribly of course. 159 145 128 i was so irritated by that stupid b*tch and keep talking to me. and i'm not talking about andrea. the one who bowled with me. OMG lah. and i almost lost to her in the last game. she bowled a 118. and she was leading me all the way until the last frame. and i didn't realise it until elis told me. lols. can imagine how crazy i was lah. so desperate to get strikes just to win her. and i'm not winning her just because of myself. i'm winning her for my darling sister. =))

my average for the 7 games dropped to 149. =(( sheesh lah. have to do better on monday. and i swear that i'm not bowling in the same lane as her again. so distracting can!

after training, had tuition at night. gosh lah. i was so sleepy. and i kept talking and obviously i got caught. lols. and i had to read this stupid passage that i had been reading to amanda and claire for the whole time. jinx. and he told me to take note of my pizza. haha. *inside joke*
and we were so bored. claire and i started looking at that monkey again. lols.

then i reached home ard 10+ i think. tried doing some hw but i was too tired and i fell asleep. haha.

today is horrible. woke up so late and i slept so long. but at least i packed my stuffs and the com table area looks neater now. =)) but i still tons of hw to be done. sheesh lah. =(

2 tuitions tomorrow. i wanna skip! but lammy is going to teach about the human reproductive system. so interesting. how can skip! haha.

and before i forget.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AZYAN! my fellow 2.5. =))

k lah` shall end here. tata`

just one day and you've been on my mind. tell me how to stop missing you. <3

Wednesday, February 22

failing everything` | 2/22/2006 06:19:00 PM

im happy. and sad. =)=( haha.

the reason why i'm HAPPY. haha.
i passed biology!! =)) and i mean OVERALL =D
not very good but still... i PASSED. haha.

after school.. went to videoshop eat lunch with ghis jolene jiayi and steffi. and we talked crap. haha. and jo assure ghis that smth wont happen. haha. it WONT. =D

plus. it's not you-know-who tt steffi is talking about. haha. its just the look alike. HAHA. yupps. =D
and till now, yiying still cant tell the difference. lols. dumb.
i have dumb friends. lols,.=p

i think i'm happy today. but then again. i'm sad. lols. i'm so lame. oh my.

i passed bio overall but i failed the rest of my subjects. WOW. congrats to me man. i'm so pro. =D i wonder how im'm going to get my 6 points. sheesh lah.=((

i'm so tired today. and i'm going to get diabetes SOON. imagine eating sweets everyday to wake yourself up.. and not allowed to drink coffee cos that stupid xiaoxin will get angry. haha.

i've been so sleepy the past few days. =(( i must try to sleep earlier. and more. i don't want to have eyebags. =D

Monday, February 20

| 2/20/2006 09:55:00 PM

i promised amelia a post about her. haha. and how much i love her. lols. here i am amelia. HAHA.
JUST FOR YOU
well well. we had our bowling roll off today. haha. and ame and me were in the same lane. lucky her!! lols.
first game was okay. 170. HAHA. so happy can. den second game got pulled down to 154. rahhrahh. how irritating. third and fourth game was horrible. 141 and 146. i was having 0 for first throws lah! OMG lah. and its not only once. its like.. A FEW! omg lah. i had.

X 08 X 07 X

rahh. horrible horrible. and i got 141 for tt game. imagine if i didn't get 0. =(( i'll get higher can. BOOHOOHOO.

den the third game. amelia kept pulling up her shorts.. for good luck? LOLS. high shorts high game. haha. so stupid. *oops* lols.

and the fourth game was horrible.. and luckily i had amelia's luck hah. then i manage to get a 14. =))

I LOVE YOU AMELIA.
lols

i bowled so badly today lah. BOOHOOHOO. nvm. i still have 2 more tries on fri and next mon. kim seng and tamp safra. =)) wee. must get average of 160!! =D

lessons were okay today. except for chinese and history. tan k k was scolding us lah. lols. used almost the whole period. lols. den history was so horrible. so boring.. and i almost fell asleep. rahh.

shit man. my mum keep nagging. must be pms-ing again. HAIZ.

one of my hamster died! =(( haiz..

Saturday, February 18

dinnerr | 2/18/2006 11:39:00 PM

hmms.. didn't want to blog today de. but since i'm bored. and there's smth to talk about. so i blog lor. haha.

i was sort of studying the whole day lah. den i fell asleep. haha. was suppose to meet my family at bugis at 7 for dinner. but i woke up only at 6.50. haha. if albert didn't call me. i think i'll be so freaking late. lols.

dinner was great. i'm so full now. haha. and i spotted twits at bugis. btw im not talking about myself. =)) i was at the toilet. den 2 twits came in. omg lah. they're horrible. haha. not to insult them. but.. nvm. haha.

den went to kino with my bro. WEE. i bought books. =D jane green's and the wang zi bian qing wa book. wanted to buy the ashin book for ghis but she didn't answer her phone. call her hse. cant get thru. haha. so. TOO BAD LORR GHIS. =p

and we took pics! =))

my dad

my aunt and grandma

dad and mum

korkor and me.=))

mummy likes this pic.
=D

daddy and mummy

all of us`

k lah.. that's all. bye`

pocky` | 2/18/2006 12:37:00 AM

im in a good mood today. =))
everything was so fun, so nice, so peacful.
i think i'm too high liao. haha. =D
sry for that. i cant control my emotions well. haha.

whenever i stare into the mirror,
i see not a reflection of myself but you
you're always so near yet so far
always by my side

nothing seems important anymore
nothing make sense anymore
the world has faded to a dull colour
with you as a shining centre

your wish is my command
i will fulfil it whatever happens
against my friends and everything
for you are the most important..

credits to MY FRIEND. she wrote this lah. so cool can! lols. and it seems so true for me. esp the you're so near yet so far part. haha. =D

anyway. sch's fun today. amaths was so slack. chem was a toal rubbish. i failed chem!chinese was so slack. recess was fun. ss was fun too! haha. den bio was soso lah. after sch had chem remedial.

den had lunch with amelia and STEFATS! haha. after tt took a l0o0o0o0nnnnnggggg journey to kim seng with them..

training was fun. the lanes are like so easy to bowl can! bowled a 158 and 161. HAHA. if only tournament's there. how cool can it be? lols.

after training practically everyone rushed to get their FREE clean and polish thingy for there ball. aiyo. so many people lah. wait til nxt week. haha.

after training waited for the SPECIAL arrival of some stupid big bully. rahh. lols. bowled a game. wee. won kat. haha. den kat's dad drove me home. den i slacked a while and went for tuition.

tuition was like how fun just now. =)) we're like laughing at the twins and this so UNCOOL yet ACT cool guy. haha. laugh till my stomach pain. haha.

omg lah. i just relaise that ghis took so many pics of herself. almost every pic is HER. HER and more HER. lols. oh. and kat and i took pics today. with stef and sheryl.. haha.

me and stef after gym on wed

ghis bani asnira and me.
16.02.06

ghis and me. acting as twits again

TODAY'S PICTURES!

i love acting gay. =D

STEFAT!

kat and me

sheryl STEFAT me. =))

where's sheryl?!?!

kat and me SEPIA version

kat and me B & W version

kat and me NORMAL version

k lah. that's all for today. im so freaking tired...

Thursday, February 16

dfsfds | 2/16/2006 07:16:00 PM

BOO. im home. im FINALLY home. hah.
i'm so tired lah please. rahh. lessons today were like study lessons. ~~SIAN~~boring can. =( i must speak/type proper enlish. cannot use too much singlish. haha.

first lesson was emath. so so lah. mrs taufiq let us do our own things during the last 10-15 mins. haha. but then we were so noisy..
den was history. BIG ang. so so lah. i like the kids in that postcard. haha. so cute can! =D
den english. small ang. got back the compo which we wrote like, beginning of the year. sheesh man. he took so long to mark our compo. lols. did quite badly. =(( MUST MUST MUST improve my english.
den recess. when to get our food den we went to play bball. haha. so cool can. my team WON 14 - 6. =D we rock. haah.

den was lit. lit was super slack lah. lols. i like lit periods. =D
chem was horrible. i was falling asleep lah!! RAHH.
bio was so so. just keep copying answers from the board and talking crap. haha.

after sch went studio cafe for lunch. den went for tuition.
i reach my tutor's house at 3.20. and i stayed there till 6+. so long lah. i was so tired and hot. lols. but i finish 2 exercises of the amath. haha. im so proud of myself. =D

reach home. played with lost awhile.. den here i am. haha.
---------------
im so pissed with you.
you idiot.
crapping up lies to fool me.
mayb you meant no harm.
but what's your prob?
scolding me vulgarites and asking me to shut up and f*ck off?
like HELLO.
who was the one who started it first?
you bastard.
loser
loner
so deprived of sex isit.
so masturbate everyday with your fantasy of whichever gal in class
your so gross.
i regret even knowing you.
to think that you were even that close to me once.
EEWW
just LET ME GO.
let these painful memories fade away.
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yes yes. i was SO PISSED off by some idiot.
spoil my day can. but still. my frens were there to cheer me up. =D
aiya. hack. im not gonna bother about tt matter liao. affect me so greatly just now. if it's true i'll probably be jumping for joy but why lie to me?
i hate liars.

anyway. ghis took pics with my cam AGAIN.lols. i'll upload it later. =))

Wednesday, February 15

<3 | 2/15/2006 10:48:00 PM

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!

haha. yes i know. its a late greetings to all. haha. i diin blog yesterday. i was feeling kinda down. so yea. but it was so fun in school!! =D

i stepped into class and saw stuffs on my tables. by the 2nd period. i could no longer put anyone thing on my table. haha. i love you guys. those who gave me the presents. haha.

after sch went to studio cafe to eat with ghis and jolene. and we took pics of our presents! HAHA. so cool lah please. =D

after that jolene came to my house and slacked. then we went for tuition. tuition wasnt that serious. abit slacker. haha.

well, today i was so tired lah please. could hardly keep myself awake. and i wasnt in a very good mood. but now im feeling so HIGH!! lols. suppose to have remedial after sch. but ang wasnt in the classroom. so the 4 of us simply SLACKED. haha. ghis was playing with my cam lah. now so many of her pics. TSK! later my cam spoil ar. haha. ying was using the com and jo was doing don't know what. i was just erm, walking ard. haha.
after that went for gym. OMG lah. im so guai. haha. completely slacked lah please. lols. i only went for like 1/2 hour. haha. after that went for tuition. i was so tired that i was falling asleep on the bus. HAHA.

den during tuition someone told me a piece of good news and i was left distracted for the whole of tuition. apparently the guy sitting opp me was kinda scared cos i keep smiling. haha.

after tuition went home and walked LOST abit. haha.

yadayada. im too lazy to blog le. haha

ASNIRA! you might be getting your sunflower. =))
haha. CHEERS!

ame and me. i din highlight my hair!

ghis me mc. during fire drill!

ghis and me

i'll put the other pics another day. im so tired!!

if only you're here to share my joy. =D

Monday, February 13

its tml` | 2/13/2006 06:30:00 PM

wee. im back from training. jolene pierced her naval! sheesh. why so many people pierce? so cool meh? suffer the pain just to get a hole on ur belly button. lols. esp ying ar! haha.

school was soso lah. time passed quite quickly. and we had sex ed. not really about sex. but about stress. the more she says, the more stress i get. =( been thinking about what i'm doing. is it right or wrong? but then again. i can't control my feelings what. and i wish i could.

got kinda depressed and i almost cried. =( but seriously lah. without those good friends of mine around me.. i guess i would have collapsed already. thanks guys! =)) love you guys so much. haha

i passed amaths!! for the first time in my whole life. haha. and i passed chinese and history SEQ too. heng ar! but then, to pass my overall amaths, its IMPOSSIBLE lah. cos even if i get full marks for my next spring test, which is in week 9, i'll still be short of 5 marks. =((
chinese i don't know. i failed compo. first time in my life i fail chinese. how shit can this get? =(
history i think i'm going to fail SBQ. and when i got my the SEQ marks. im was so so so disappointed. =( 7/12. what shit lah. its only a C5.

having emath ca tml. and english compo. emath MUST get A1 this time. disappointed myself the other time lah. BOOHOO.

im getting so disappointed by what i'm getting. this is like so shit. how to get into VJ like that? =(

bio formative must get full marks. chem SPA also full marks.
sheesh lah. i need so many full marks. RAHH. this is crap.

anyway. after school amelia and i rushed all the way to katong mall dump our bowling bags there then went to parkway meet the rest. jolene went to pierce her naval and ALOT of people followed. let's see.
sheena reeta min ying ghis sy mars ger ms ame and me. 11 PEOPLE! crazy. haha.

after tt sheena reeta ame ms ghis and i went to pastamania for lunch. yummy! i just realise that they have baked rice. haha. i shall try it the next time i go there. =D

ame bought the turtle earings from 77th street. and im still looking for the earring that looks like a zip. =( regret not buying it last time. BOOHOOHOO. nvm. i'll continue looking for it. =D

tomorrow is valentines day!! time to SPREAD THE LOVE haha. if only a miracle happens. i'll be like so damn happy. but then, its a miracle. miracles don't always happen do they? =(

i seriously hope i don't forget the get anyone their gifts. haha. i think i'll go to school looking like some santa claus. lols. with so many presents.

i want your love for valentine.
i know i can get it
IN MY DREAMS.

Sunday, February 12

sdf | 2/12/2006 06:46:00 PM

sheesh. the second time im blogging today. and i have a feeling i'll blog again tonight. haha. im crazy. =))

im having a headache now lah. how sickening. =((
tuition at mrs lee's hse was boring. i was falling asleep lah. but lucky she diin catch me. lols.
den reach home. another tuition. my head was hurting like mad. =((

wee. i can cancel stuffs out of my wishlist liao. =D yiying told me what she bought me. HAHA. i love you!!! =D

i have to sleep early tonight. if not i'll be depending on coffee again tml. which is BAD. =))

alrights. tata. dinner time!! haha

im so high
so happy
i want to share my joy with you.
=D

tutiion | 2/12/2006 12:30:00 PM

wee. im back from tuition. today was super funny. lam was teaching us the chapter on human reproductive system. super funny lah.
and he was telling us about sex and stuffs.
and how to get pregnant more easily if the guy has low sperm count and don't want them to die halfway throught the "race".
HAHA

after tuition. jeremy came to meet me. give me valentine prezzie! oh my. so cute can. lols. how sweet of him. thanks =)) and i took a pic of it. hah. i'll upload tonight.. if i have the time. =))

so sianz lah. i've 2 tuitions later. and im so sleepy. i need coffee. =((
i cant wait for valentine. and give away all the presents. except for one lah. im contemplating on whether to give a not. and its for xiaoxin! HAHA.
i need to start saving again. one day and 100+ gone. =((

there has been something bothering me. but i don't know what to do about it. sucks man. =((

| 2/12/2006 12:54:00 AM

wow. guess what. its my second time blogging in a few hours. im like so lame. but im depressed lah. not exactly depressed though. just. upset, disappointed. i think. i am sad. i am.=((

there's this urge to tell you its you. but i can't.
there's this urge to tell you i miss you. but i cant
i sorta hinted
but apparently you din get the point.
but then again.
i tink you did
it's okay
friends we shall be.
good friendship we shall remain.
till the day you realise its you.
and its me in you

found this thingy about roses

ROSES & COLORS
Rose Color Meaning
Amaranth Red - Long Standing Desire
Cardinal Red - Sublime Desire
Carmine Red - Deceitful Desire
Firey Red - Flames of Passion
Black roses - Death, Hatred, Farewell. Mostlyused at funerals.
Orange and Coral roses - Desire
Lavender/Purple roses - Sublime Desire
Peach/Pale colored roses - Deceitful Desire
Pink Roses - Flames of Passion
Light Pink Roses - Death, Hatred, Farewell.Mostlyused at funerals.
Orange & Yellow Roses - Enthusiasm, Desire,Passionate thoughts.
Yellow Roses - Joy, Friendship.
White Roses - Reverence, Humility.

ROSES & NUMBERS
Roses Number Meaning
1 Rose - Simplicity Simplicity
2 Roses - Gratitude
2 Roses Joined Togethim - Engagement;ComingMarriage
12 Roses - Ultimate declaration of love
25 Roses - Congratulations
50 Roses - Unconditional Love
1 Rose in Full Bloom - I Love You; Engagement
Full Blown Rose Placed Over Two Buds -Secrecy
Half-blown Rose - Timid love
Thornless Roses - Love At First Sight;Ingratitude;Early attachment
Rose Leaf -Symbol of Hope
Rose Thorn - Danger
Rose in a tuft of grass - Everything to begained bygood company

you're i don't know who.
the one i've been talking about.
the one WE have been talking about.

Saturday, February 11

shopping! | 2/11/2006 09:46:00 PM

YO. I'm back. with a big hole in my pocket. lols. i have exceeded my valentine prezzies budget lah. but its okay. once a year. haha. i keep having a feeling that i forgot some people. thats why i bought like. 30 roses? lols. yes lah. i'm crazy. but i don't wanna leave anyone out. =))

im so tired. been out since 1+ till 9. legs ache like shit. and we went ard the sg. haha.

met at parkway at 1+. and OMG lah. RACHEAL went to pierce her belly button. haha. not pain right ying? haha. stayed at parkway till ard 2+. den left for IKEA. lols. ikea was boring to the max lah. its like. i've got nothing to get from there. so yea. *yawns* after that took a bus to great world. the ride was so long. by the time we reach great world. was ard 5+ liao. sheesh. and ying left halfway through the ride to great world. and on the bus. sheena min and jo were like telling us ghost stories. ahah. kinda fun. =)) den reach great world. bought some stuffs. den we went to orchard liao. after orchard. it was the time i start spending so much money. and it wasnt until i wanted to buy the topshop polo tee when i realise i spent so much money already. lols. how lame.

den ghis was the last one to leave. left ard 7. den waited awhile more den my mum came. after tt continue shopping awhile more and we left for tamp. haha. regret not smsing xiaoxin earlier man. who knows i might get a free car ride. HAHA.

went to tm get ying's LEGO. and some other stuffs. haha.
and tada! im home. im so tired. my legs are aching. and YES! i finally bought the roxy seashell slippers. =)))

i like seashells. =))))
esp those BIG BIG ones. lols.

baked rice | 2/11/2006 11:24:00 AM

YO! after blogging and sleeping for 10 hours, i feel so much better. =)) haha. i think i just needed the sleep. and a "listening ear".

yiying called me at 10+. and she woke me up. rahh. evil. cant get back to sleep. lols.
and i'm cooking baked rice for lunch. =)) YUMMY.
i tink xiaoxin is jealous. =))
baked rice baked rice. =D

my hands are freezing lah.
went to take out the ingredients.. lols. and i got cut by a prawn. RAHH.
im not dumb. just careless. =))

after lunch we're going shopping! for valentine gifts. haha. with a few more ppl. =))
alrights. BYE!

Friday, February 10

o level | 2/10/2006 10:43:00 PM

well. o level results out today. saw alot of our seniors. i miss them so much. why can't life return to the time when we still had so much time for so much fun?
it is scary. getting the results. i din take lah. but i was in the hall with them. put myself in their shoes and i almost cried. i know i'm mad. but there's this fear of disappoinment in me. haiz.
will i get what i want?
it's scary.
there are times when we just cant get what we want.

i think i'm getting so freaking stressed up. not enough sleep cos i need to catch up on alot of stuffs. i need coffee. i drank so much yesterday. and 1 bottle of gold roast today. yummy. i know its not good to drink too much coffee. but i can't help it lah. haiz.

im STRESSED. =((

this feeling i'm having now. it's like a boulder being dropped from out of no where. and it landed on me. haiz

i slept like 2+ almost 3 last night. den woke up at 5. den i went back to sleep. alarm rang at 5.45. den i woke up again. wanted to give xiaoxin a wake up call. in the end. i think i fell asleep again. haha. and after that i keep waking up and i realise that it was like. 6+ already. den called xiaoxin. LOL. no one picked up. so i hack ar. hung up and went to sleep again. lols.

after tt went to sch then met ying. went to put my bowling baggie den bought coffee. without it, i don't know how i was going to survive the day man. lols. and bought some sweets. yummy

school was soso lah. i was so worried for chem. and yes. it sucked. mcq was okay for me. but section B was so so haihao lah. lols. i think it was okay lar. but not confident of passing it. =((

as long as mcq can get full marks. i happy liao. cause thats like. 1/4 of the marks le. den the other 10 marks. tyco tyco. i think should be able to pass. =((

after school. kat azyan hilary stef sarah and me went for training. so pathetic lah. out of the whole sec 4s, only the 6 of us went for training. quite slack lah. we were 1 hour late. den reach there had 5 mins for practising den play game.

super tired lah. and it rained like shit. =(

RAHH. ending off`

Thursday, February 9

bad | 2/09/2006 03:27:00 PM

Today is a bad day. Seriously. Say I’m pmsing. Say im having a mood swing or whatever crap. I don’t care. Like what is wrong with you guys lah? That time ask ard. So many people say they want to change. And so I went to get the petition and whatever shit done. And I wasted so much time on it. And that its done. No one wants to sign it. Like. WHAT THE F*CK? Don’t want den say from the start lah. Walau.

I din want to blog today. I wanted to just concentrate and study. But these freaking things are just making me like so bloody mad. WHATEVER.

RAHH. Fine. Say im petty. Getting angry over these kinda things. I don wana care anymore.

No more petitions or whatever shit. Im just gona tear it into pieces. Den burn it.

my life sucks right now. nmore bad things are coming my way. no good stuffs at all. HAIZ. let's hope valentine wont be this bad.
Im planning to study till 2-3 tonight. So I NEED coffee to keep me awake. And I’m gona meet yiying every morning outside den we’ll get coffee to help us stay awake throughout the whole BORING lessons that we have everyday

Alrights. Need to study. BYE.

someone lend me a shoulder to cry on

Wednesday, February 8

.... | 2/08/2006 02:47:00 PM

boo. oh my. i'm actually home so early today. haha. why? cause i pon gym. my whole body is aching lah. hmms. not whole lah. my arms. i think i did too much push ups during pe yesterday. haha.

i'm so happy these two days. =)) cos...
1) jos said i slim down
2) mc say i slim down(my stomach) too. haha
3) i had tuition yesterday!
4) valentine's day coming SOON!!! haha

okay. i'm lame. i know. i just feel that things ard me seem to be getting better. HAHA. im happy. lalala.

i got back the amath CA1. oh my. i failed. but then again. its not surprising. when did i even pass amaths? HAHA. highest was 21.5/40 so pathetic. but not bad compared to my score. lols. apparently alot of people got single digit. people whom i don't expect. yeas`
jolene gt higher den me. im jealous. haha. jk. only 0.5 higher. i jiayou can liao. =))

the petition is done. but i just realise a few mistakes and ms wanted to add smth. so, have to edit again. hopefully i can get everyone to sign by this week? then pass it to the principal on fri. and monday. TADA. new teacher. lols. that'll be like. HOW COOL . =D

played bball during recess. sheesh lah. 6 mths never play and i'm starting to suck at it. haha. but then again. since when did i rock at it? lols.

history ca was horrible. i think i'm going to fail. =(( i cant fail history. no way man. RAHH.
i have to get at least B3 for chem this fri. if i disappoint myself again. i'm so gona cry. =((
and i'm so gona mug for bio formative. full marks! HAHA. i know its possible for me to get it. =D that's if i work hard.

valentine coming soon. YAY.
why am i even so happy about it?
haha. im LAME. =D

i'm so happy today.
<33

xiaoxin!! i'll get you what i owe you. haha. and those white hair of urs. i'll PLUCK IT. lols. don't worry. =D

Tuesday, February 7

tuesday` | 2/07/2006 04:29:00 PM

BOO
haha. its so freaking hot lah. RAHH. i'm feeling kinda weird today. i don't know why. abit not stable.. =((

had amath ca. quite easy lah. i managed to finish all questions. but i still have the feeling that i'll fail leii. =((

blablablabalanblabalbalba

im so bored now.
where's xiaoxin eh?
i still have tuition later
AHHH

jliew gona scold me liao. haven finish his hw.
i gotta to buck up. =))
and i need to study for chem.
esp QA.
cant fail this you know!
RAHH
ohman.
why am i typing like jolene?
lols.

k lah.. i think i'll go take a shower.. rest. den go for tuition liaos.
SIANZ

Monday, February 6

long day~ | 2/06/2006 06:38:00 PM

sheesh. i just reach home. and i'm so tired. i can just fall asleep lah. RAHH. must tahan. training was super slack. played a lil trick on azyan. GOTCHA!! so fun. den played game. 155. haihao lah. if roll off bowl like that. i'll be HAPPY.haha. sianz lah. this fri not going to kim seng. cause no one will be free. stupid. we're sec 4 liao. don't know how to take care of ourselves mehh? =(( i wanna go kim seng.. =))

anyways. got back bio. so fast lah. haha. i thought i'd fail. completely didn't study lah. haha. but i passed! YAY. just pass only lah. so stupid. lols. and there's a bio formative test soon. that one MUST get full marks. if not ar. very disappointing.. =(
and i passed emath too. =)) im disappointed lah. i was aiming for full marks. =(( so stupid. RAHH.
chinese ca was so difficult ma. i don't understand lah. so just anyhow write. sheesh lah. my chinks getting worse!! someone help me....
gt back amath p & c spring test. OH MY. i failed lah. i need 2 more marks to pass. =((
tml got amath CA.. must jiayou. i have to pass man. and wed there's hist SBQ CA. rahh. den fri there's chem. how how. chem i haven start studying. =((

aiya. hack liao. just chiong. i believe i can do it. hah.

CAs for the week
--------------------
tuesday - amath
wednesday- hist sbq
friday - chem

and my aim is to pass them all. with flying colours

i came across these on friendster. and i think its kinda true. and meaningful..

When a guy calls u, he wants to be with you
When a guy is quiet,He's listening to you...
When a guy is not arguing,He realizes he's wrong
When a guy says, "I'm fine," after a fewminutes,he means it
When a guy stares at you,he thinks you're the most beautiful thing in the world
When you're laying your head on a guy's chest
he has the world
When a guy calls you everyday he is in love
When a (good) guy say he loves you,he means it
When a guy says he can't live without youhe's with you till your done
When a guy says, "I miss you,"he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else

When a girl is quiet,millions of things are running through hermind.
When a girl is not arguing,she is thinking deeply.
When a girl looks at you with eyes full ofquestions,she is wondering how long you will bearound.
When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a fewseconds,she is not at all fine.
When a girl stares at you,she is wondering why you are so wonderful.
When a girl lays on your chest,she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a girl calls you everyday,she is seeking for your attention.
When a girl wants to see you everyday,she wants to be pampered.
When a girl says, "I'll love you forever,"she means it.
When a girl says that she can't live withoutyou,she has made up her mind that you are herfuture.
When a girl says, "I miss you,"no one in this world can miss you

and another one.

When a girl cries it doesnt mean she's weak..
If a girl cries in front of u..it means that she couldnt take it anymore.

If u take her hand, she would stay with u for the rest of ur life;
If u let her go, she couldnt go back to being herself anymore.

A girl wont cry easily, except in front of the person whom she loves the most, she becomes weak.
A girl wont cry easily, only when she loves u the most, she puts down her ego.

Guys, if a girl cries because of u, please hold her hands firmly, cos she's the one who is willing to stay with u 4 for the rest of ur life.

Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of u, please dont give her up, maybe bcoz of ur decision, u ruin her life.

When she cries in front of u, and because of u, Look into her eyes,Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's feeling?
Think.
Which other girl have cried with pure sincerity,n front of u, AND bcoz of u?
She cries not because she is weak,
She cries not bcoz she wants sympathy or pity,
She cries,Because crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain, hurt n agony have bcome too big a burden to be kept inside.
Guys,
Think about it,If a girl cries her heart out to u,
And all because of u,
Its time to look back on wat u have done,
Only u will know the answer to it.
Do consider it,
Coz one day,
It may b too late for regrets,
It may b too late to say "im sorry"...
don always think u are right all e times,think carefully,everyone has a responsible for everything tat they did,she may did wrong but who makes her do wrong

a girl always need protection
a girl always need care
a girl always need someone beside her to comfort her when she's sad
a girl always need support when she's downall e needs are came frm e guy tat she loves not e frens tat always beside her.

guys .
think again.don't lose a girl tat u love e most in ur life just because of what you have done.

Sunday, February 5

on a lighter mode | 2/05/2006 05:21:00 PM

LALA. i think im much better now. i don't know if i still have tuition tonight. but who cares. LOLS.

i realise i've been blogging alot of weird stuffs. and at weird timings. HAHA. i shall limit myself to ONE post a day or less. =))

topshop gt offer! suppose to go but nahh. decided to be a good girl.. and stay at home. study! lols. i've lots of studying to catch up. cos i've been wasting to much time.

rahh

you look scarier to me now.
i see you i scared
HAHA
i miss your huggs darling.
let's closen the distance`

just smth` | 2/05/2006 12:45:00 PM

i don't know why i'm blogging actually. i feel like there's so much that i want to say. but i just can't use words to describe? someone tell me what's wrong? everything is so bad now. do this wrong, do that also wrong. what you want me to do? hais.

my world is in a mess now. let's hope something good will happen one of these days. probably just passing one of my paper will cheer me up. things are so so so so so bad. tell me something bad and i'll start thinking too much. tell me something sad and i'll start crying. hug me and i'll think of the past den start crying. its bad. really bad.

i don't want to carry on my life like that. it's horrible. i'm serious. hais. and i've been getting so fed up over small stuffs now.

what is wrong with me?
ying! lend me ur finger~ lols
someone~ lend me ur shoulder. =(

Saturday, February 4

crump! | 2/04/2006 10:07:00 PM

oh yay oh yay. i finally bought my crumpler. =))) xiaoxin V.2 accompanied me to get it. HAHA. thanks! =)

orchard was so packed with people lah. cos of the chingay. den there was fire crackers i think. sound like bomb lei! so scary. lols. super loud lah. lols.

afterr that went for dinner. yummy. i love black pepper beef. haha. =))

den we wen

t home afterr tt.

and went i reach home. i started taking pics again! LOLS.

i love crumpy! =D

crumpy and me=))

<33

tuition | 2/04/2006 12:17:00 PM

i just got back from tuition. i just came out of my tutor's hse then jolene called me. talk halfway. it started to rain. and i had to WALK home. AH. so i started running. then i was so tired. stopped awhile and bus 32 just went past me! OH MY i missed the bus. =( then the rain started to get heavier. but according to jolene. the rain stopped at her side. and guess where she was? less then 1km from me. RAH. irritating. she wanted me to keep her amath tb for her. so, being a nice person like i've always been, i took a taxi to the mrt to meet her. haha. so cheap lah. only 2.90. lols. den we walked to the station and saw mc. talked awhile, saw amanda. LOL. 4/6 gathering sia. nahh. it's probably just fate that we meet. =)) the sixers are sisters
haha. sry. im just trying to be lame. im so happy!! i'm goin to get my ORANGE crumpler tonight! =))))))))))
yay yay

and my parents want me go watch i not stupid with them. =S
i then don't want ar. later cry again. lols.
i've had enough of crying.

and oh ya. did i say that
I'M NOT GOING TO CARE ANYMORE.
yea. i don't care liaos. i'm getting so affected by this shit.
i've had enough.
u want time. i give you all the time you want.
dont worry, i'm not angry
do u even care?

TATA.

Friday, February 3

sianz` | 2/03/2006 10:04:00 PM

RAHH. finally the day has ended. it seemed so long yet so short. so short yet so long. AH. crap. i've having a stomachpain now lah. guess it's from ying. rahh. transmiting her disease to us. lols.

i got up this morning feeling so fed up. cried lah please. and i went to sch with that black face. someone stop me from crying man. im like going to be a crybaby liaos. =S

im getting my crumpler! YAY YAY YAY. =)) i'll get a orange one. den i'l get a blue one. HAHA. =)))

bio ca was okay lah. i din study. and i was like shit shit shit. used amaths and bio period to study. lols. hope i can pass. =((

training's at pocket on mon again. RAHH. when are we going to kim seng?

im gona bathe now if not i'll stink like shit. lols. tata`

Thursday, February 2

sheesh` | 2/02/2006 06:23:00 PM

alright. let's settle it once and for all can? i don't want to continue this cold war already. it's horrible. don't tell me. our friendship can only last for a year. cos i believe it can last for a lifetime. what happened to us? was it just a misunderstanding or what? i know what i did/said might have cause this happen. and a thousand apologies might not win your forgiveness. so let's just pray that everything will be alright soon. its probably just fated. so yea. CHEERS.

i'm like so so so tired. but there's a freaking bio ca tml. so i have to STUDY. it seems so long since i last studied lah. haha. everytime i open my book. i fall asleep. how stupid.

i've been rather affected these few days. and sorry ying. HAHA. for biting your finger. =p next time i not happy i'll go bite ur fingerS. lols. <3 ya! muacks.
and thanks for those who stood by me. =) i think i'm alright. don't worry.

oh ya. i went to check out the crumpler bag at TM. i'm so tempted to buy lah. RAHH. but i don't know what colour leii. blue like not bad. orange is nice. red is a no no. mayb i shall go paragon and check out that crumpler shop. =)) YAY

12 more days to Valentine's Day! olala.

aiyo. i happy also no use. lols. no date mah. cause i'm stuck at tuition. RAHH. if only ahlong still same class. IF ONLY. =(

i want to hear him sing.

i want to study! someone give me the motivation to. =(

Wednesday, February 1

rah` | 2/01/2006 07:58:00 PM

i read ying's blog and i realise that her thinking became more matured. in some way lah. serious. that actually made me think deep into my heart. and i thought of some many things. things that are worth, considering.
its time for me to change. i feel like i've been leading a aimless life. and it really sucks. i wish i'm still in sec 3. at least i don't have to worry about the Os. hais.
recently, someone said i changed alot from last year. maybe? i feel it too. i'm trying to change. in fact, i've changed alot since young. aiya. i don't know lah.
and today. i've come to a decision. its abt long though. haiz. i don't know. i've been thinking alot recently. too much i think.
RAH. i don't know lah. there's like a million things going through my mind now. sucks so much. AHH. someone just stab me will you? hais.

someone, tell me that the feeling i have is wrong. hais. tell me that its not the truth. many people keep telling me. but i refuse to believe. how can that even be possible?

maybe what one of my frenz said was right. i have that feeling but i just don't know. now its seems so true. tell me its ALL WRONG. tell me i'm just imagining things. it CANNOT BE TRUE.haiz.

i don't know why but without you, i feel lost.
i can't stop missing you.
not true.
i'm imagining things.
let it be LONG instead of you