Thursday, July 31

loving you; | 7/31/2008 05:46:00 PM

Why do I get affected so easily.

For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace.

- Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.

Somehow there's still this sorrow, I try not to think about it. I've tried. People around me are behaving like * and I can no longer do things as freely as I want. I live each day, each min each hour in fear. For I won't know what's gonna happen. One moment you're happily eating with your friends, the next someone storms towards you and you turn into a helpless child, running away for your own life. I seek help from the closest, and help arrives.

Will things change? I really hope so. I just can't wait for sem exams to be over. I need to live in peace, I need to feel happy. Not only with you, but with every other thing and person.

I seek happiness in you and my dog.
I know that there are times I often neglect him but still, he's always there for me.
I love LOST (:
I love you.
For those who helped me go through this scary week, thank you.

): | 7/31/2008 12:02:00 PM

We all face disappointment don't we?

There was this girl who brought home her "masterpiece", thinking about sharing the joy of making it with her parents. She waits for them at the living room and once she heard them, she rushed to the door and asked her mother to try her "masterpiece". Guess what? Her mother said, "it's disgusting, blabla" Said everything except any encouragement.
She asked her dad to try it. He said," It's damn lousy. Disgusting" There there, double attack. She was upset, but told her mum, "Oh I have another one in sch!" and her mum said," It's not nice" without even seeing / tasting it. Sighhh. Then she emo-ed, when to her room, feeling like a useless child. She cries, and received a call. She tried more. Then her mum came to scold her. She almost slapped her.

Sigh. what a disappointing life yea?

Anyway, so much things happened the past few days I can say I haven been living in peace. In fact I live in fear. I don't even dare to go out alone ): And the house connection is down. Sucks like shit. Exams are round the corner and there's still so many things that's not done. Ohwell, i'm hungry. byebye

SPFCC Noodle trip on sat. Craving for it already. LOL

Sunday, July 27

Udder's icecream | 7/27/2008 10:51:00 PM

So today was supposed to be a fun day until some * had to spoil it. Ignoring that part. Let's talk about today.

So I reached home like in the morning after camping at airport through the end to finish my assignment. Which I didnt :S Slept at 7+, woke up at 130pm and SHITTY i was late for the food trip. LOL. sorry people. heheh. But I guess the ice cream there wasn't really up to my standard. Got sick of the taste like after sometime. But the games was fun! Hahaha. Roamed around united square and velocity and after that, marina square. Shook someone off cos I was too pissed off and off we went to merlion when CS and Jinyong got hooked onto my puzzle bubble. Lol. Short walk to LPS then home sweet home.

Hey guys, so sorry about the scene today. Totally disgusted with someone's behaviour. Can't believe he's that....

I want to put all these to an end. It's making me sick.

Thursday, July 24

(: | 7/24/2008 11:14:00 PM

And so I started using my P1i. Like finally. Lol.

Red cliff with brother the other day and his gf. Before that we had dinner at Fin's Cafe / Restaurant. Whatever you call it cos I cant remember. Lol. Had this super cute soft shell crab spag. DAMN NICE. with my extra extra cheese :D heheh.

Yesterday was quite a fulfilling day. Despite the fact that I was so late for school that my brother had to send me there. Hehe :D Hta gave us a spot quiz and sheeeeshhh. First time we actually have such hard core ----ing taking place. Haven done that for so so long. Lol. And I did my FIRST chem eng tutorial question. LOL. and got it wrong =X Nothing to be proud of but.. hehe :D Lunch at fc4 and yay it was sorta a reunion cos xixiang joined us! Haven had lunch together for so long cos of the sickening timetable. lol. IFPD presentation preparation then off to cityhall :D Chocolate fondue at Suntec. WA NICE NICE NICE. I like the waffleeeee. And I was too silly to actually mistook the green apple as cucumber -.-

IFPD presentation today. OMG LA. Ron Trav and I were like super high before our presentation. Lol. I still like our DODO SONG =D comeon dance with me. LOL. okay cannot be too high anymore :p

FCC ice cream trip on sunday. Yay :D

okay, I should watch my diet. Too much cheese and chocolates :S

aye, imu

Tuesday, July 22

z | 7/22/2008 09:45:00 PM

Busy busy busy.
Spent the week celebrating birthday, going out for movies, dinner etc.

Was just thinking about the past today. There was more fun, more laughter. I miss those times, so so much. I hate what's happening around me now, hate what I have to go through each and everyday. Ohwell, I miss the past.

Ok, I guess I should just face reality. Life sucks.

I walked the path we walked that night. And it made me think of you.
Thought of how you were there then.

I love my friend, I trust her. | 7/22/2008 01:51:00 AM

I trust her for she is my FRIEND. It doesnt matter what she said before. It doesnt matter what happened. She told me about it, and nope I didnt flare up, nor feel even the slightest bit of anger. We understand that it was a rough period she was going through, thus the behaviour, mindset, whatsoever. It can be the worst stuffs ever but hey, she is still my friend and we don't bear grudges. We're not petty people. I love her.. WE love her. So just shoo.

Sunday, July 20

happy birthday dear! | 7/20/2008 12:08:00 AM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Come on be honoured. hahaha (:
Anyway it was some sort of countdown then the actual fun today. LOL.
Things didnt go as planned but nevermind, still fun (:
Hopefully you enjoyed your birthday!
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Okay so I spent the last few days / weeks slacking like there's no more exams. And I've been traveling to places! Lol.
Oh and we made our pudding again yesterday and WEEE! -I loved the curry one- (with my "mother" accent, HAHAHA) Okay so we're gonna concentrate on that. Are we? LOL.

and so i've been spending more time with c so it makes cass a happier person. LOL
<3

dover to bukit timah to amk to town to suntec to east coast to HOME.
Woah sounds as if I'm traveling around the whole of sg.
ohwell (:

Thursday, July 17

DA BAO BU PING | 7/17/2008 11:42:00 AM

GAH i'm feeling so tired. Talking to someone is so boring. Makes me feel so tired. GAHHH. Hello Travis. And he said hi. -- said hi too (Hahah not funny travis)

Okay im so bored.

And I'm getting so @$#^%& because some people don't know how to get their facts right and start spreading rumors like nobody's business. SMACK YOU LA ANYHOW. I hate people who start spreading rumors that's not true. AT ALL.

Whatever it is, I have something to tell my darling:
DEAREST you know we all love you (: Don't get affected by these stuffs okay?
We'll be with you no matter what happens (:
CHEERUP!

Travis, "ps, our lesson is only 1 hour today, YAY"

movie mania | 7/17/2008 12:57:00 AM

These few days have been kinda tiring.. But stuffs that have been happening made me happy happy.

Met my mum yesterday and off we went to bugis to get my new hp! WOO Sony P1i :D Gosh I had to wait like 2 hours just to get my phone ): but I guess it was worth it! ((: But till now I can't bear to use it cos Dad still haven get me my screen protector ):

Today felt kinda slack. Stupid talk was boring I fell asleep like 2 mins after it started then I sneaked out and went else where to do my assignment. hehe. Left sch to slack after that, returned home super tired (but happy) ((:

Tml tml tml. another slack day.
I think I should stop eating nachos so often. Its making me so freaking fat ):

Day by day, you're making me miss you more and more.
I just can't get enough of you.
yet, there's still the insecurity.
why.

Tuesday, July 15

ohwell.. | 7/15/2008 12:51:00 AM

Time after time.

Damn that song have been stuck in my head for the whole day today. LOL. Tigger hurry send me!!! LOL.

My room's all dark now, my tv's on and I'm trying to rush the stupid last CEP report. Sheesh I have no idea how to do ): K i'm kinda scared ): Heard something freaky last night. TWICE somemore. Sheesh okay I should stop freaking myself out ):

There's something on my mind, I don't know what to do. I'm not sure...
But I guess I'll just stay this way (:

Sunday, July 13

10 promises to my dog | 7/13/2008 11:29:00 PM

Supposed to get my new phone today but didnt ): But it's okay, getting it either on tues or wed! :D Anyway we caught 10 promises to my dog. Damn it's so so soooo nice. I promise to treat Lost nicer :D

It's a fulfilling day today, so i'm happy (:

The following is a song from the movie. very nice! :D
Time after time

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
and think of you
caught up in circles confusion--
is nothing new
Flashback--warm nights--
almost left behind
suitcases of memories,
time after--

sometimes you picture me--
I'm walking too far ahead
you're calling to me, I can't hear
what you've said--
Then you say--go slow--
I fall behind--
the second hand unwinds

chorus:
if you're lost you can look--and you will find me
time after time
if you fall I will catch you--I'll be waiting
time after time

after my picture fades and darkness has
turned to gray
watching through windows--you're wondering
if I'm OK
secrets stolen from deep inside
the drum beats out of time--

chorus:
if you're lost...

you said go slow--
I fall behind
the second hand unwinds--

chorus:
if you're lost...
...time after time
time after time
time after time
time after time

& I'm missing you already (:

Saturday, July 12

ECP | 7/12/2008 11:57:00 PM

Xixiang, Travis and I (((:
we're a happy bunch

BEWARE! lots of pictures!
So it was flea market at Ecp and I missed out all the fun at sentosa ): How irritating. But PD promised a trip down when we're free so yay. LOL. Swimming again tml morning :D

k i'm so random.

So the past week was spent on puddings, puddings and more puddings. And on friday we had a trespasser from ic who came to help us! LOL. Oh and I found some pictures in my received files so I thought I should just post it too(:

trespasser!

2B24 wee! and sorry gawin I was blocking you! hehe :D

First Official Food Outing (:
*PS: Someone told me he went but I didnt realise it till I saw this picture! HAHAHA

Okay and all of a sudden, i'm starting to feel so down, so :S
how I wish that special someone can be here by my side now ):

tml will be a better day (:

(: | 7/12/2008 12:20:00 AM

XIXIANG, WE LOVE YOU. No matter what happened / happens (:

Everyone will have their bad days or times. And it's during such times when they would want to be left alone. We understand, we forgive, we don't bear grudges.
Some people anyhow, so don't care them. We're still here for you (:

Anyway, past week been quite an eventful week I guess. Movies, outings, puddings. Fun fun (: Next week will be another busy week so BOO. Hopefully all will go well.. And I'm sorry C for making you wait so long the other day! LOL. Oh and it was TM today for that Jap fair. haha. Nothing much, just alot of people..

YAY yingquan's replacing my spoilt earpiece next week. LOL

Love knows no limits. Indeed.
Oh and Sam finally sent me the pictures we took before he left for NY!
*note: Pictures not in order.

Monday, July 7

(: | 7/07/2008 09:24:00 PM

These few days have been greattttt (:

Somehow or another, I was super high during Food Chem's lecture today cos the ideas of my pudding was coming :D And I feel bad for sleeping during ChemEng, too boring -.-

Watched 21 with C yesterday. Haha not bad la quite nice (: Then we roamed around and had quite some weird discoveries. We saw GOOFY (inside joke) LOL. Played let's go jungle! Wee been so so sooooo long since I last played it. LOL. Okay we had fun! Hmm it was 678 yesterday. So cool (:

We lose some, gain some. I guess I can say that I'm contented with life the way it is now, although it sucks having to lose some... It's okay, I guess we'll be back, we'll be alright after time (: I've faith! Surprises somehow make my day. Hehe. And I'm going to change my opinions I used to have on some, for the better of course (:

you, made my day.

We found xiao xin's favourite snack and it's indeed nice! :D

Saturday, July 5

sian | 7/05/2008 12:39:00 AM

I'm getting so tired.
What's wrong. What's wrong. What's wrong. What's wrong. What's wrong.

Sometimes I wished someone really understands..

Anyway, went for MOE ExCel Fest to help out at SP's booth with zach and gawin. Haha saw quite a few familiar teachers. Boring yet fun. Tiring, more tiring as compared to the IT Show. LOL.
Yay we got 6 cca points, and all the money coupons. LOL.
Gawin bought his jeans after that and I found my topshop skirt!
I want my skirt ):

I'm craving for beehoon.

Thursday, July 3

<3 | 7/03/2008 09:08:00 PM

*Note: very random post. LOL

And so my favourite yiying came over to SP yesterday :D And she sort of witness how we made the fish pudding. And thanks for helping us wash up. Hehehe. That nehneh was so late! Made me wait so long can ))): But nvm I forgive you cos you waited for me to finish too! :D After which we went to bugis with A! 2 besties out with me, so nice :D

Fell asleep in front of my laptop last night and I woke up at 2+ and was kept awake till 4+ zzz then my maid woke me up so early la. 6+ in the morning! ))): went to SP for mac breakfast then for IFDP which was so slack. Lol. OH OUR FISH PUDDING'S TEXTURE DAMN NICE NOW! happy happy happpppy.

Last CEP practical today. happy! last IFPD jasmine leong lecture today. happy! But IPFD's sensory evaluation coming soon. shitzzxz. Oh god I'm supposed to meet jiayi and cheeri today. I'm so sorry babes I was too tired =(

Okay and i owe the quiz loanshark quizzes. Here's the first one (:
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~~Remove 1 qn from below and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 qns. Tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of the post.~~ Too lazy, I'll just tag 1 or 2. LOL

1)Have you given your first kiss away? -yea

2)Where is the place that you want to go the most?- Dreamland

3)If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be? - I would want peace in life.

5)Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?- Yupp I saw it before!

6)Who/What are you afraid of losing now?- for me to know, you to find out(:

7)If you win $1 million, what would you do?-donate some, spend some, give my parents some, save some.

8)If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?- We'll see about that

9)What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?-rich, goodlooking, owns a Merc SLK. Hahaha just kidding. He has to be faithful, thoughtful, not so sensitive.

10)What type of person do you hate the most?- those stingy and lazy ppl who just sit and do nothing.

11)What is your ambition?- I've lots of them

12)If you have 3 days left to live, what would you do?- do something that will leave a strong impression so no one will forget me yay :D

13)What do you think is the most important thing in life?- emotions

14)Are you shopaholic?- can be :D

15)If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?- not for you to k now.

16)What do you do at home?-Sleep eat play

17)Any weird habits or quirks?- for you to find out.

18)What would you do if not taking this quiz?-shopping online.

19)What were you doing yesterday?-falling asleep with my laptop on zzz

20)Are you willing to give up anything for a loved one.-depends.

Hehe You're tagged!
XI XIANG! <3
Siewgeok, Ivy, Jiayi, Yiying

Tuesday, July 1

full of surprises | 7/01/2008 09:16:00 PM

Smiles don't last forever. That explains why I'm blogging to push that silly photo of mine down. Anyway alot of things happened over the past week. It happened too fast. Sun was cycling with J and it's the most relaxing cycle I've ever had. Well, good to destress.

Monday was a horrible day. Overslept, didnt understand Qaas, failed Chem eng, passed Milk (surprisingly), bumped into the fcc group, gossips (prolly the only best thing yesterday LOL) , horrible scene, spoilt mood, bad day.

I wasnt late for love relations today, I'm surprised cos the past few times I left house at 8 when it starts at 8. LOL. went for math tutorial and gawin zach and I were wondering why we're the earliest. It turns out that it was mathcad, not tutorial. LOL. how dumb, but then again. Our lecturer got it wrong too. hahha. So funny. To think gawin and I were thinking of some excuses cos we didnt bring/do our tutorial =X Got back our Math and Meat today. Results not to my expectations but at least I passed (:

Ron gave us a dick chocolate today. Haha, I'm waiting for gawin to send me the picture. Very nice I swear. But it's too smallll. =X I want more dick chocolate. LOL. And the fish pudding today sucks. I hate ginger. We tried to fry the pudding thanks to ron. Gosh thank goodness I've temporarily lost my sense of taste, else I'll be dying after the first bite. I think the egg made it nicer. hahaha.

Yiying coming tml. WOO. i'm going to get donuts from fc6 :D

I decided not to emo anymore. Gawin said * is strong. So I am and I will be. What's past is past. I will forget about it. Prolly wont let history repeat.

Last kiss, last hug, last word, last.
Take care peepal.

As expected, everything's going downhill.