Friday, June 27

:D | 6/27/2008 11:14:00 PM

YAY IT'S OVER. Finally over. I feel so much much muchhhh more relaxed now. Lol. But i'm feeling so sleepy cos I haven had a good sleep for 1 whole week ):

Ohwell, did QAAS after the paper today. OMG la we took so long to finish ): But it's done now! yay. Lunch at fc6 and I had my yummy pig organ soup. Weeee, love it love ittt :D Then off to vivo with A & B. Eh so cool. And i'm C! we're ABC! lol. okay sorry very lame. lalala.

Okay as promised, a happy photo (:
p.s: I'll do my tags the next post. Lol.

Thursday, June 26

sucks | 6/26/2008 04:10:00 PM

Finally, 5 down and 1 last paper tml. Then off to celebrate. Eh no correction.. Off to chiong QAS project then celebrate. Waste my time zzz.

Emo-ed while studying. Kinda hit me that things have changed, and there's nothing I can do about it. There was you, now there isn't. I told myself not to blog about you anymore. But I just cant help it. Pissed and disappointed, that's all I have to say. But I'm sorry for being selfish. I have to understand. Take care.

So much have changed since secondary school. I'm left to stand alone, to fend for myself, to entertain myself, to share the joy and woe all with myself. Good things never last, bad things last forever. Life have been terrible, I'm just not saying it out. Somehow everything have been going downhill for me since Feb. Sucks really, to slowly lose the people important to you.

I'm all on my own. Stop saying I still have friends, family, blabla. Oh whatever. It's all BULLSHIT. I'm getting so sick of these already. Stop saying such stuffs to make me "feel better", cos it ain't doing any good to me. I'm sick and tired of all the rubbish, sick and tired of wearing a mask each day.

We all make friends, but how many actually really cares, really bothers, really last? I'm still grateful I have that very 1 best friend since primary school. We may not be as close as before, but at least, we get to update each other once in a while, chat like there's no end. And I know, she'll be there when I need her <3
Somewhere there is someone that dreams of your smile, and finds in your presence that life is worthwhile, so when you are lonely remember it’s true, someone somewhere is thinking of you.
But I don't believe in such things anymore. I really don't.
Enough said. Good bye.

and I cry, silently.

Tuesday, June 24

everyday's passing SO slowly | 6/24/2008 10:52:00 PM

Great, done with QAAS and EM2. After tomorrow I think I'll feel more relaxed. After all, there's so much to memories for vitamins. Sheeeesh. And I'm feeling so sick, so tired, so weak. Felt like dying la. My whole rubbish bin is filled with tissuepapers, my nose is red, my head is exploding, my throat is STILL burning )):

Ohgod I'm having a terrible headache now. And I really can't wait for friday.
MSTs are driving me mad. They make me sick. Lol.

Okay byebye, gonna start planning for my activities after MST. Woo!

Monday, June 23

study study study | 6/23/2008 09:37:00 PM

OMG, someone force me to study )))): I've been shopping online like there's no tomorrow. shitxz.
okay, back to math, or rather time to start on math. Lol.

Smell ya later!

//EDIT

Oh god I'm so tired from cramping all the math formulas into my head ):
Throat hurts like nobody's business and my nose is running away ):
And all of a sudden I feel so isolated, as if I've not been keeping in touch with the outside world.
Weird huh, it's like the people you know these days arent really friends, they just.. come and go.
I wonder what true friends are. Somehow I feel myself getting lonely.
Ohwell, I hate poly. Or rather, I hate the people in poly. The guys the girls. Sheesh.
Yea and ALOY will say, "this sentence will cause alot of people to come after you" aiya heck. I'm just saying what I feel. EH okay let me correct what I just said. I hate certain groups of people in poly. Too C-----. I cant stand it. And I'm practically losing myself, it's like I'm becoming those kinda -------------- kids. Fuck man. Cass this can't be happening. I need to interact with people who are more -----------. LOL.

Okay time to sleep. So tired, so sick. And it's math paper tml.

Saturday, June 21

updates | 6/21/2008 11:38:00 PM

MSTs starting on monday and i'm seriously hating that idiot who asked for it. ALOY please teach your friend a good lesson. Thanks to him we're all suffering. WTF.

Reports are left undone, Assignments are piling up, stress building up, emotional breakdowns.
I was bloghopping, friendster surfing and I guess someone wants me out of ___ life. We've not been talking, you've been avoiding. I guess I should start lying to myself and get on with my life. I'm suspecting you're showing just a cover right now but nvm, just be happy.

You may not like it but I'm sick and tired of trying to get close to you. Do you know how hard it is to pluck up courage to even sms you? I miss you, and you'll be welcomed back anytime, I promise.

I can't believe it. I've been living in my own world. For god-knows how long. Ohwell, let me be. I think I'll be happier this way. - my mind's blank -

okay side track a little, I'm hitting my targeted weight oh yes I'm happy.

Sometimes I feel so useless I have no idea why I'm here on earth. I should be on the moon so that I can freeze or on the sun so that I can melt. Okay so random. I have absolutely no idea what i'm typing. GAH. must be all the studying.

Okay back to studying. Need a break? Click here!

Oh and I realised I haven been posting pictures except my previous entry, so here you go.

The next will be a happy one, I hope.

*YIYING!
I have so much to tell you and I don't know where to start. Time for you to be my pillar of support. I'm collapsing ):

Oh and I just remembered what some idiot told me some time back. Sheesh, get a life, stop stalking people, stop gossiping you FAG. I hate liars, backstabbers. Period.

(: | 6/21/2008 12:14:00 AM

Bloghopping, and I realised I've sucha sad life. Seriously. Well others are blogging about how great their day was, I'm here, blogging about how sucky it is. (Nah, today isn't that bad. I've had worst)
Anyway, whatever. I don't want to dwell on it. MSTs coming, like next week? And i'm not done studying. Sucks so bad but it's okay, I enjoyed myself during fcc camp so i wont say I wasted my time there. LOL.

Random pics. [ There's hardly any pictures of me inside, so sad! ): ]

Icebreakers

Comm!

Lunch time!

Paint used for their flags

Weisinn, "Talk to my hand"

Shawn, Xianting, Summer, Fiona, Shida

Samuel

Glo, Xianting, Rebbecca, Shawn

BBQ! Sam, LY, Justin, Me

Han Fei, Wilson

Hilda, Me, Alexia, Fiona, Sam, LY

Amanlina, Xavier, Cherilynn, Joanna

Jin Yong, Sam

Alexia, Weisinn, Me

LOL

Part of SPFCC (:

Small group went, but I'm such we were a happy bunch! 3 groups with Strawberry Cheesecake being the overall Champ (: Congrats guys! Stayed over cos the camp ended late and woah, scary, yet so cool experience. LOL.

Remember to be there for our next food outing! (:
<3

k i feel happier. LOL

Sunday, June 15

Interesting findings | 6/15/2008 11:55:00 PM

I was just randomly clicking on google links and I found this. Hmm, pretty interesting. Lol.
Reminds me of something =X

Ten Warning Signs of an Abusive Relationship

History of legal or discipline problems or has trouble keeping a job.
Blames you for his / her anger.
- There is a difference between a person having an occasional bad day, and a person consistently blaming someone else for their problems.
Serious drug or alcohol use or other addiction.
- Is the person addicted to drugs, alcohol, video games, or shopping? Do they self-medicate to try to get away from their problems? Do they try to avoid problems instead of dealing with them? If so, this person could be trouble.
History of violent behavior.
Threatens others regularly.
Insults you or calls you names.
Trouble controlling feelings like anger.
Tells you what to wear, what to do or how to act. Or tries frequently to keep you away from friends or family. Isolation is a form of brain-washing and manipulation. They are trying to keep you away from people who could help you.
Threatens or intimidates you in order to get their way.

How to recognise signs of an Abusive Man

Watch out for very possessive and controlling guys. They are more likely to become abusive.
Monitor his jealousy and insecurity levels. Does he overreact when you spend time with others? Does he dislike your friends for no apparent reason?
Be aware of violence or threats of violence. This is never acceptable behaviour.
Don't get taken in by the way he cries and rationalizes his behavior. He will use your sympathy to get to you. He may even try to manipulate you by making it seem like its your fault.
Notice if he tries to remove you from public places in order to abuse you.
See if he belittles you all the time. Does he ever call you names? Hurtful names that you have repeatedly begged him not to call you?
Watch how he talks to or about your parents or your friends. Is he rude or unkind?
Be aware of him trying to make you feel guilty. Such as "It was your fault that happened, and I did nothing, I just tried to keep you from hurting me"
Look for patterns. People who are abusive in relationships are often abusive in other situations. Abuse to family members such as parents or even personal abuse in the form of drugs or alcohol.
Has he ever shoved or hit you? Has he ever thrown things at you? THIS IS THE MOST OBVIOUS SIGN OF AN ABUSER.

- Credits: Wikihow

How interesting. Lol. Anyway its back to school tml for fish pudding and pbl. zzz So much stuffs to do, so little time left. I realised I haven started on alot of stuffs.
Reports, Assignments, Projects.
Oh god I'm so dead.
I hate MST.
I hate the fellow who requested for it more. wtf you assholeeeeee )):

GAH HEADACHE. bye bye

Friday, June 13

1001 | 6/13/2008 12:47:00 AM

Wow, I just realised that my previous post was himmehim's 1000TH POST.
Wa, it sure came a longggg way. Ohwell, memories.
And now those super KPO ones, dont go click on archives. And I already know who you are -.-

Sudden date to the PC Show today. Lol. I really really want the Sony W300 ): So cool la! And I asked my dad if he was willing to trade in his T50, he said no ): DAMNN. My dad's so stingy cos he doesnt want to fork out a single cent ): Ohwelllll, some kind soul, you know what to do!
My birthday is coming in a few months time. LOL!

Gah okay. Fish pudding making tml in school with travis cos Ronald's out of Sg.
I'm hungry and I'm kinda craving for the SP Noodles. I know it doesnt taste very fantastic but still.. I'm just hungry.
byebye |:

Missing you could turn from pain to pleasure, if I knew you were missing me too.
):

Wednesday, June 11

(: | 6/11/2008 09:01:00 PM

I swear I'm so irritated with 10-year-olds.
Sheesh can you believe it? 10 year olds having bfs, going out ANDDD. SHOPPING ONLINE. omggg
And i think she doesnt understand proper engrish -.-

Ohwell, don't wanna talk about it. zzz.
I'm so tired.
T3 on Sat night till dawn, Singapore flyer on Sunday Morning, T3 again on Sun afternoon till evening, Sim lim till night, Dinner. Bbq on Monday night. And I hardly had any sleep. On top of that. I had my vomits and diarrhoea :S how disgusting. The sight of rice makes me wanna puke thanks to the sickening crystal jade on Friday night -.-

Went to DoDo yesterday and Mr Lim (the big big big big big boss of Dodo) came to fetch us from sembawang mrt. How nice! Then he brought us to the company, and we had a tour and a video of Dodo. I WANT TO WORK THERE! everything's like so cool like omggg. Then he gave us 10kgs of fish paste and 1 kg of the seaplant to go PLAY with. Lol. he said PLAY, not experiment / try / do. PLAY. lol

Benson! I HOPE YOU LIKE THE CAKE AND THE SURPRISE! hahah.
Happy birthday in advance! ((((:
*Grins*

Thursday, June 5

<3 | 6/05/2008 10:58:00 PM

JESSE MCCARTNEY
"Tell Her"

I know how it feels
To wake up without her
Lying here all alone
Just thinking about her

I can't believe
Her hold on me
It's something indescribable
I know she knows
But won't you please

[Chorus:]
If you see my girl
Just tell her I miss her smile
Tell her I'm counting the minutes
Gonna see her in a little while
I know when she
Holds on to me
She's the one thing that I could never live without
Oh, oh, oh, oh
And tell her I love her

Oh yeah, just tell her I love her
The way that she moves
You know what it does to me
And when I catch her eye
I can hardly breathe

Still can't believe
Her hold on me
She's just so indescribable
I know she knows
But won't you please, please

[Chorus]

Every time that I'm around her
I just go to pieces crashing tumbling to the ground
I'm so glad I found her
I know how it feels

[Chorus]

Oh yeah, just tell her I love her

Wednesday, June 4

): | 6/04/2008 10:14:00 PM

PTN on Monday.
Pretty cool. Had lunch at Yamen Hut (they serve only SP Noodles)
And since Miss Toh was treating and 1 bowl was only $3.80, the 5 of us
Ron, Zach, Gawin, Trav and I ordered 10 bowls. Lol. Tried almost all their noodles there. heh.
After that, Miss toh treated us to yoghurt! From yoghurt place. LOL. And I had 3 flavours cos zach didnt want his so i finished it zzzz (2 cups can omg)
Pool after that. And yes Miss toh treated again. Sheesh she's damn niceeeee.

Okay, end of the happy part.

I'm feeling so troubled, so empty, so lost.
And the freaking headache is killing me.
I need some peace at home, really.

My mind feels empty
My fingers feel empty
I feel empty.
I'm lost.

Just leave me alone for awhile..
No mood........

Monday, June 2

boo | 6/02/2008 12:09:00 AM

It's the start of the holidays but I'm not gonna enjoy myself at all I swear.
SpreeFashion Bazaar
Make up lessons
PTN
Camp
Meeting
Project
MST
Interview
Assignments
Reports
GEMs Project

Ahh. ):
And i think i'm starting to get overly stressed.

1 week.