Monday, December 27
tired sia` | 12/27/2004 10:45:00 PM
wa. din touch the com yesterday. quite busy ar. plus very tired. morning wake up supa early. den go my mum shop liao. den about 11+ i have to accompany her go OG shopping. SIANZ. my mum spent close to 400 bucks. she bought 2 hangbags.. den the rest. tink she spent on under garments. haha. den walk here walk there. walk till very tired. den she say wan to take taxi go back. den i HUH. den she say. k lor. we walk back. i din heard her say so we started walkin from Chinatown to Tanjong Pagar. wa. my legs no strength liao. somemore have to help her carry her stuffs. den before reacgin i saw gt the bus stop at the traffic light. i ask my mum to run so can catch up with the bus but she don wan. den when the bus drove past us le den she start to run. -.-" den i was carrying like.. 4 bags plus my shoes very loose. den run till they almost came off..in the end, reach the bus stop the bus leave liao.. -.-""" den i was too lazy to walk liao. though its juz 2 bus stops away. WAKAKA..
den rweach the shop 2+ or 3.. if im not wrong. den did my jaychou puzzle. den eat lo. den we close the close and went to fetch my bro, his gf, and his gf's niece*Rachel*. den we went to my uncle shop there.. gib him my new specs. haha.. actually make le oso no use lah. i onli make c0z i don wan to spoil my old pair during OBS. haha,.. den my dad go my other uncle shop to "kipnap" my baBY cousin away. haha. den we din tell my uncle. lolx. until we reach home. lolx.
den when we reach home i became a babysitter.. !!!!! my cousin onli 3 years old.. den she keep running up and down.. den my other cousin come. den i have to take care of 3 girls. sainz. so tired lor. den when dinner time i have to feed the baby.. she keep running here and there. den i gib up.. let my mum feed. haha.den the three of them run threadmill.. lolx. very cute. lolx.
den they play again.. aiyo.. play all the childish games den have to follow them here and there. if not i kena scoldin by my mum.. *ABISH* den at nite i roller blade wit my bro'gf. Rachel play the skate scooter. den she say wan to play the children bke. den we took out. den she saw only got 2 wheels so she din wan to ride. so i take and ride.. haha.. so small.. my knee all scratches liao. haha.. bleeding sommore.. but nvm. fun. haha. den play play play. den my bro need go back army. so send him there. but i lazy, so i stay at home. alone. *finally* haha..
k lah.. the rest. nth much le.. i lazy liao. haha... anyway.. today oso kinda tirin.. cz i tried finishin my jay chou puzzle.. haha. Finally finish liao.. haha.. den bring home.. k lah. gtg le.. im tired.. buaiz~!
Saturday, December 25
christmas` | 12/25/2004 11:19:00 PM
arge~ fuck man. all those i juz typed was erased.. !!!!! nvm. i have a super memory. *smilez*
sianz. christmas is s0on g0ne. it came so fast. c0me and go. i haven even enj0y en0ugh nia. m0st pr0bably c0z i spent half the time cryin and tinkin of the past. ITS THE 25 OF THE MONTH. THE SADDEST DAY OF MY LIFE IN A MONTH. mayb only HE will kn0w. haiz. well, the other half of the time. i s0rt of. enj0yed a bit. thanks to my lil cousins. glenda yue yang and qimin. heex. *jie jie lurvee u guys... MUACKX*
hmmx. i was aw0ken by my mum early in the m0rning. and i was s0o tired c0z my NET FREN's fren called me at 11.59 to wish my merry christmas. -.-" i was half asleep at tt time. i din kn0w wh0 it was so i was polite enough to talk to him fer a while. since he wished mee merry christmas. hhhaa~ kinda fun tokin to him. he sia0 sia0 de. lolx. put down the phone le den call me again aft awhile. den he ask me if he can know me beta.. -.-" den i say okii lor~ den he put down the phone again. den he call me again. and ask me if he can sms me. -.-" den i say ok den he put down the phone. -.-" den i wanted to sleep liao den my phone rang AGAIN. i tot he called again den i was like "helo helo" no one answer. den i realise it was message. not phone call.. cz both the ring tone same de. hhaa~ it was tt -.-" guy lor. den sms a while den i fell asleep. hhhaa~
DEN. i was awoken up by my mum... !!den she PUSHED me off the bed.. c0z i turned and continued sleepin when she came in and call me. hhaa~ pain lei. den after everything we went to the shop. wit my maid and my 2 other bros. den had breakfast and den go to the shop. i finished my piggy jigsaw liao so i started on my jay chou de. den at 12.30 my mum wan me bring my maid go home. SIANZ. den i juz drop her at the mrt den i go my aunt hse. when i reach her hse yue yang was so happy to see me. hhaa~ -HE MISS ME- lolx. den we went to play. den we ate lunch. den play. den watch tv. den make tang yuan. den play and watch tv. den my parents came to fetch me when i was in my BEST mood of the day. den went we were reachin home. i quarrelled wit my parents. c0z she was suppose to bring me to get my ears pierced again. but she din. and my dad made a din sayin wat the ear 1 hole beri nice le. den i told him sayin tt its my ear. not his. why he bother so much. but its true ma. den reached home i was so fed up i slamed my room door.. den now ABIT bent. haha. den i blast the music till very loud. den the radio played some love songs and i started cryin.. of course. i tot of him. haiz. den i din hav the m0od to eat dinner. plus my mum wan to go orchard walk walk. !!!!!! im startin to avoid orchard now cz0z it brings back lotz of memories. haiz. indeed. it has. plus today is the day. *JEALOUS*
den nth to see. so my mum bring my other cousin , maid and ah-ma go eat supper. den my dad brought my lil cousin come. qimin!! heex. the cutest and the one tt looks most like me. haha. CUTE CUTE DE.. haha.. *BHB* den she eat alot of things ar. den we wait fer her parents come. den when we finish eatin her parents haven finish. den my dad suggested tt we bring her home while my uncle and aunt eat. so we brought her home lor. minmin in the car keep playin. haha. KIDS ARE LIDAT. SOOOO CUTE... den reach my hse she keep playin den when her parents come liao she still don wana go home. haha. until we tell her nxt week can come again den she left reluntantly.
well.. my cousins realy made my life happier.. they can really make me trouble free... wel, mayb i should tink of more happy moments... haiz. k lah.. bye~
Friday, December 24
happy n0t` | 12/24/2004 08:47:00 PM
haix. cherish what y0u have n0w. i finally kn0w the true meaning. tis christmas aint a happy one. last year's was the happiest i eva had. i din realise how much i had l0st. and of c0urse, i wan to get it back. i'll never f0rget the christmas i spent wit him...
tml the pasar malam no m0re le. i w0nt be able to see that guy again. nvm. we just d0n have the fate. seeing him, my heart really melt. i d0n0 why. perhaps like s0me say... i m b0y crazy. m i? mayb. mayb wat happen 6 mths ago made me change. haiz.
t0day's m0od aint g0od. depressed ba. keep wantin to cry bt i cant. my parents are ard. haiz.
anyway. merry christmas everyone...
Thursday, December 23
i hate myself` | 12/23/2004 11:07:00 PM
i s0o hate my bl0ody ownself. Fuck me~! haiz.why!! why cant i c0ntr0l myself? why cant i f0rget abt him!! why cant i c0ntr0l myself `en n0t go and view his fucking bl0g? seeing all th0se make me depressed. sad. angry. jealous. so what if i still lurvee him. he d0nst lurvee me anym0re. why cant i juz f0rget him. why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate y0u.. hate y0u hate y0u.. i cant wait to leave sg fer aust. staying in sg makes me feel w0rse. why am i fated to have such a miserable life? isn't it beta to die now... why do guys always say the same thing to their steads... what "love you forever".. whr is the forever!!! why muz all tis stuffs happen to me... i don care if we cant be together anymore. i wont give up... i wana prove to u..
life suxz so badly.. sch is reopening soon... wat the fuck. i din enjoy my holidays. been workin like mad..... FUCKK... what muz i always be the one listenin to my parents? they don understand me at all.. they think they did the rite thing. but its wrong.. it juz brings me misery...
no one understands me.. no one... not even myself. its a torture to continue living in tis world...
Wednesday, December 22
is it or n0t? | 12/22/2004 10:37:00 PM
When y0u like s0me0ne, will y0u keep l0oking at him/her? And try t0 get his/her attenti0n? And y0u feel like seeing him/her 24/7? And when y0u see him/her, y0u get really very very happy? haix. this questi0ns have been in my mind for... cl0se to a week le. haix. if th0se questi0ns have an answer "yes".. i guess i'll go crazy. well, it's ab0ut a guy *duh* saw him like... a week ago. And i see him everyday with0ut fail.. he w0rks part time at the pasar malam at my mum sh0p there.. kinda dumb of me to like him. c0z i d0n even kn0w his name. even his age~ *abish* anyway... he really is attracting. haha. and i have been d0ing l0ts of dumb things and spending l0ts of money jus to see him. haha. fer just 5 secs or m0re. i shall n0t elabrate c0z its bl0ody paiseh~
well, i d0n have much h0pe abt him c0z when christmas is 0ver he will n0t be w0rking there anym0re. so, yea. im trying to push all stuffs abt him to the back of my mind...
Sianz. my sms exceed s0o much man. 800+++++ lia0. cant help it. ppl just lurvee t0 chat with me. haha. *bhb* wee~ finish my piggy jigsaw puzzle le. tml im startin wit my Jay Ch0u de. *muackz* den b0ught a tube dress tt i was eyeing on fer m0nths. hhaa~lurvee it s0o muchie. heez. but my mum says i hafta wait till new year den can wear.. *BOO* i cant wait to wear it. hhaaz~
went t0 l0ok at furnitures again. and tis time. i hav a brief design of wat i want my r0om to l0ok like in the future. haha. there will be a small tv, a study table, a small couch, and the bed of my dreams. hhaaz~ and not forgetin the cupboard and l0tz of jigsaw puzzles and p0sters of my fav id0ls.. haha.. Seems t0o much fer a r0om huh. hhaaz~but i d0n care. hhaaz~ i juz wan it tt way.. =D
k lahz. wana g0 bathe lia0. buaiz~
Tuesday, December 21
s|anz` | 12/21/2004 10:25:00 PM
*abish* Im b0red~t0day.kinda sad & happy.Happy c0z i b0ught Jay Ch0u's jigsaw puzzle.Heez~g0t his picture de~*muackx* 1000 pieces s0mem0re. im g0na d0 it!hhaa~ Sad.c0z. juz n0w watched <
> den tt Lana and Sky reminded him 0f"You-noe-who" haiz. den cried l0r.haiz.budden.. tried t0 c0ntr0l my em0tions l0rx.i cant g0 0n like this 4-evA yea?it has been half a year le.haix.& im still lidat.haix..
anyway.. stupid sn0wball scared me.she was sleeping lah.. den 0verturn. nvr m0ve at all. den i keep bl0wing her she nvr wake up den i g0 & p0ke her den she bit me. -Hmphff- *SMALL BULLY*
den my mum cl0se sh0p le g0 my ah-g0ng dere.see furniture.wana change new s0fa c0z the 0ld 0ne is t0o h0rrible.den i sp0tted tis s0fa.Wa.. Fall in l0ve wit it. hhaa~ my dad likes it t0o.but it's t0o big fer my living r0om le. den saw l0ts of 0ther furniture & i decided wat kind of furniture i wana have when i gr0w up. hahaa~ lame rite? =p
den c0me h0me le l0rz. t0day my br0 b'dae. but i cant be b0thered t0 wish him happy b'dae. wh0 call him s0o bad t0 miee~
k lah.internet cha0 lagg. buaiz~
Sunday, December 19
sad...` | 12/19/2004 10:31:00 PM
haiz.. GUYS~! why do they always use the same excuse to break up huh????? fuckin hell.. i don hate u though.. im juz angry.. haiz..
yesterday went to my aunt's hse fer my grandpa and cousin's birthday.. den reached there in the afternoon.. play wit boiboi*myfavcousin*.. liwen and glenda. ahaha. play till no voice ar.. haha.. play those childish games lah.. budden.. i don mind.. cz very long nvr act childish liao. haha. den we eat steamboat fer lunch.. den play again.. den glenda liwen and me went to the supermarket buy more food fer the steamboat. boiboi wanted to go.. but he too small liao.. so my aunt don let him go..
den when we reached my aunt's hse, i cook jelly fer them to eat. heexx.. den continue playin.. den at abt 7+ we eat dinner.. steamboat agin... haha.. den continue to play and den my other cousins come.. 11 of us.. cz my 2bro and another cousin din come.. den my youngest cousin came.. 3yrs old.. den boiboi was so jealous of her cz he attention was switched to my younger cousin.. and den i play wit him lor.. cz i can understand how he feel.. haha.. den play till 10+ my stomach started to pain... den my mum say my face turn green.. den pain till 12+. den i went to the toilet and my grandma and aunties all tot i faint inside.. haha.. den reached home my stomach still very pain... cant sleep.. tis mornin still pain.. den onli now den beta.. but now headache.. haix.. sianz..
anyway.. saw my 1st stead tt day. zw.. wa.. grow taller le.. but he oso grow fat liao.haha.. den juz now saw janice*senior* wit her bf. haha... she was "sha-jiao-ing".. lolx. k lah. i shall not say more.. don wana get into trouble. haha. but im sure its her.. haha..
den juz now went to suntec celebrate my bro's b'dae.. went to the fountain and made a wish.. heex.. *secret*
k lah.. shall stop here... bye~
Friday, December 17
haiz~ | 12/17/2004 07:09:00 PM
seems like so many ppl wans me back.. WAHAHA... haiz.. tis holis have been a realllliiiii boring one.. did nth but study study study and work work work and cry cry cry and cut cut cut.. haix. cut myself of cousre. my past memories seem to come back again.. i tried to push it away.. but i cant.. haix.. but still.. i have to move on wit life.. yea? haiz.. sometimes i juz hav to keep myself busy to not tink of those bad memories.. haix.. anyway.. i hav to focus on someone now.. i cant be such a bad person.. haha.. haiz.. k lah.. dono when i'll be able to update again.. so.. Merry Christmas in advance!! bye~
