Thursday, November 27

byebye | 11/27/2008 08:22:00 PM

BLOG CLOSED.
Till i feel like blogging again.
Cya.

update. | 11/27/2008 06:50:00 PM

Changed of plans for yesterday so love and I went shoppinggggg. Lol. Didnt really buy anything but I guess lovely got kinda sian yea? LOL. don't sian la okay. we go shopping again after msts:D
Anyway we went home after school then my bro was at home so we mahjonged. lol. not bad lo. I still remember how to play after so so so so soooo long. Where are my mahjong khakis? LOL. JIAYI SOPH CHERRI YIYING! A's over liao leiiiii. Hurry come play (: Anyway then off we went to bugis ( i typed bangkok initially cos i keep thinking Xx is going to bangkok soon and I wanna go tooo. LOL) Dinner at HIP was super filling. LOL. Then roamed around a little more and we went home. Tired.

My chest was hurting so damn badly today. Even right now, it's still so pain )):
Super tired today, or rather these few days. Rah. It feels like it's exploding la. Sheesh. Msts ar msts. Please be over soon <3

Okay study date with girls tml while the guys go for their suana. haha. Okay makan time. byebye (:

Tuesday, November 25

What about me | 11/25/2008 06:15:00 PM

"What About Me" - Shayne Ward

There's a little boy waitin' at the counter of the corner shop
He's been waitin' down there
Waiting half the day
We never ever see him from the top
He gets pushed around
Knocked to the ground
But he gets to his feet and he says...

What about me
It isn't fair
I've had enough now I wasnt my share
Can't you see
I wanna live
But you just take more then you give

There's a pretty girl standing at the counter of the corner shop

She's been waitin' back there
Waitin' for her dreams
Her dreams walk in and I begged 'em to stop
Well she's not too proud
To cry out loud
She runs to the street and she screams:

What about me
It isn't fair
I've had enough now I wasn't my share
Can't you see
I wanna live
But you just take more then you give

So take a step back and see the little people
They may be young
But they're the ones who make the big people big
So listen
As they whisper
What about me

Now I'm standing on the corner all the world's gone home
Nobody's changed
Nobody's been saved
And I'm feeling cold and alone
I guess I'm lucky
I smile a lot
But sometimes I wish for more
Then I go...

What about me
It isn't fair
I've had enough now I wasn't my share
Can't you see
I wanna live
But you just take more what about me
It isn't fair
I've had enough now I want my share
Can't you see
I wanna live
But you just take more
You just take more
You just take more then you give

What about me
What about me
What about me

And my chest is hurting so damn much.

Monday, November 24

Boring day | 11/24/2008 07:04:00 PM

Today's a boring day. Reports reports reports are coming in like shitz. I can't wait for holidays to come. But first there's MST to go through. SIAN. It's just next week la omg.

Waited while doing the tutorial for dee. Passed the bag. Hahah Hope you like it love! (:
And someone, please remind me to bring jw's stuffs

I don't wish to hear about you anymore.

random update | 11/24/2008 01:42:00 AM

Eventful days. Ups and downs. Shopping with winnie was great. Managed to forget about some upsetting matters. Ohwell. Then at night it was crap shit but I guess towards the morning it sort of became better. The rest of today.. Not too bad la (: I like. LOL. anyway bro and gf treated me to shin kushiya just now. LOL. freaking ex but nice la the food. I'm still feeling so full omggggg.

GAH. I don't really feel like blogging cos I'm not exactly feeling very good. I'm like damn tired now cos of the stupid reports that we have to hand in tml. I was still thinking of what to wear to sch tml then i realised, GREAT. there's pract. I hate days that have pract because I hate wearing long pants and shoes. GRR. Cargo tml it shall be. And we've got to stay back tml to finish up food chem report. that sucks, biggggg time.

Ohwell, I've having a headache right now. and this fucking chest of mine have been giving me problems. Lots of problems. even now la wthhhh.

Okay need sleep. BYEBYE.
the wind outside is so strong that it's freaking scary.

Friday, November 21

I promised I wont sigh. | 11/21/2008 07:11:00 PM

This is a fucking screwed up world with me having a screwed up life.

Ponning of lessons, jogging, sauna, steamroom, jacuzzi, hot pool, shock of my life, screwed up conversations.

Life is getting more and more meaningless.

What if I never get to live by 20?
My life's coming to an end already. My heart's failing me.

Romeo, save me
They try to tell me how I feel
This love is difficult, but it's real

Thursday, November 20

finally an update | 11/20/2008 09:50:00 PM

I stopped blogging for like 13 days (travy counted) Well people asked me why I didnt update. I didnt felt like doing so. When I'm happy and all, the next day would be so fucking screwed up and I dont feel like blogging anymore.

Anyway, just a brief update.
Celebrated birthdays, went for window shopping, lunch, dinner, work, sch, SFMA Results, expo, airport with classmates, airport with family, fox jacket, quarrels, tramatising events, stressful events, fun and memorable stuffs, dinner at sp, class chalet, night cycling.

Quite alot of stuffs happened. Teabreak at moberly's cafe. Not bad la the food. went to relax@mob and saw glo jy sam ryan and celeste. Guess I was a little disappointed but what to do. Things never go my way. NEVER. Played a short while of pool. Sucked like shit but what to do, been a long long long time since I touched that pool cue. Ohwell..

Pictures will do the talking.
In class, after photogenic's photoshoot, expo and airport.

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My fav picture (:

Zhiyong AHBENG

Unglam lor

Huiling's damn good at taking group photos. ahha

My teammates! :D Xiao Qiang and Ah Yi (:

Friday, November 7

Another sad love song | 11/07/2008 02:23:00 AM

Emo hit a high point last night. Kinda calmed down a little today but I guess there were still traces of it because people were asking me. Ohwelll.. I wished we're all grown up already. Being able to make better decisions and stuffs like that.

Last last last time we're making pudding today. Happy and not happy. Well we missed Jasmine Leong's lesson =X oops i'm sorry miss leong, didnt mean it. Well we all know you'll understand. haha.

Oh talking about miss leong, I saw her at ikea just now.

GAH. note to self: Bring money.
Okay I'm getting hungry. That's bad.
I'm tired and no one on my 24 Food Tech contact lis is online. All recharging for tml. Okay byebye.

Perhaps this is a new start.

Sunday, November 2

Sheeshhhh | 11/02/2008 10:15:00 PM

Thanks for the sabotage, once again. GRR.

Voting of SP's over and I received a call this afternoon. LOL. Then this email...

Dress Code: Casual. dress your best! pictures taken will be used during our roadshow

Girls: - Please report 10 minutes before time slot allocated at the SP Make up artist club (MAC) clubhouse.
- SP Make up artist club (MAC) clubhouse is located above food court 5: KFC/Pizza Hut (there are 2 sets of staircases which lead to a hall way where you would be able to locate thier room) = if unable to locate the room, please contact me @ 9171**** =
- Please remember to NOT come with make up as it will be provided on the day itself just before the shoot by SP MAC :D

Guys: -report at pose@moberly 10mins before actual time.

Pls think of your poses before coming! that will help us make your photoshoot faster and less uncomfortable. =) if you need help, YOUTUBE!
LOA will be provided.
if you have anymore questions feel free to msn or sms me

Sheesh, I'm actually freaking out cos...
#1: I just cut my fringe zzzz
#2: I don't know what to wear
#3: SHIT they're going to put on makeup, on me me me. SHEESH.

So I copied that email and show it to travis..

Travis says (10:16 PM):
wahhhhhh
my friend the model
hehe
CASSANDRA- MY HAIRRRRRRR says (10:16 PM):
..
LOL
sheesh
need to think of pose
Travis says (10:16 PM):
go online check!
and do poses that can hide your flaws one
like your fat arms
fat face
fat tummy
fat legs
CASSANDRA- MY HAIRRRRRRR says (10:16 PM):
TRAVIS :@
Travis says (10:17 PM):
nice hair?
ahaha
CASSANDRA- MY HAIRRRRRRR says (10:17 PM):
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Travis says (10:17 PM):
lol what happened to it anyway
CASSANDRA- MY HAIRRRRRRR says (10:17 PM):
(Censored)
ahahhaa
it's SHORT
Travis says (10:18 PM):
again?
lollllllllll
Travis says (10:19 PM):
okay the chance when you can look really good
your hair is fucked up
wasteddddd
get temp hair extensions
quick
lol
CASSANDRA- MY HAIRRRRRRR says (10:19 PM):
LOL
SHIT LA CAN I BACK OUT ):
Travis says (10:20 PM):
NOOOOOO
get the topshop voucher
hehehe

Then when I told Carlin about it..
Carlin - Melbourne Otaku..psychopathology..turning psychopath.muz burn notes and drink.silence is golden..FOCUS.. says (10:26 PM):
dun worry... u will win one..or else those who better than u.. sure is bcuz they act cute better than u only..or know how to paint their faces better...

LOL. Funny. Anyway ya. I spent my whole morning to late afternoon making pudding, then when my bro's gf came, we were talking and talking until my mum came back then they were trying to help me decide what to wear. Dang I feel so gay =S
Then my brother was hungry so he kept screaming and shouting to get us down to have dinner. After dinner we went to parkway. Though it was just some random suggestion. Ohwell...

Okay I need to go do the pudding thingy / BIA thingy / and whatever reports thats left. LOL.
Byebye.

Saturday, November 1

i hate you you and you. | 11/01/2008 05:50:00 PM

I hate this fucking place. I can't stay here for another minute. Every minute spent here = me feeling so fucked up. Seriously.
I wont recognise him as who he was to me. NO WAY. I wont respect him for he don't respect me.
Wait till I've more freedom, I swear I wont even see him at all.
That'a how much I hate him.

Down to bugis to get socks and roamed around then back home.
I'm craving for thai express. Well basically I was just staring at the food there yesterday and was starving till 11+ zz but we had phad thai for dinner so yum yum.

Came home and tada, I told my bro abt some stuffs cos I was too mad. I guess he was shocked or something I don't know so he asked my mum down to talk. Great. Please for god sake, don't say you understand when you fucking don't. It just hurts me more than anything else. You don't understand how it feels so stop saying you know you know, then try to digress. Things wont work that way. I hate him and that's that.

Sometimes, I really do need you but as usual,
things don't go the way we want it to be.