Saturday, June 30

sigh | 6/30/2007 01:03:00 PM

its disappointing isnt it. i expected too much from you too. giving you my 100% most of the times, thinking i would get back a reasonable amount. and there were many times when i get so disappointed. and i'll just forget about it. i'm human too, humans get tired, humans need rest. you probably dont even know it. but i'm telling you now. for the past week, i've been feeling so fucked up, so stressed, so tired. and i've not been sleeping well at all. headache, fever and i even felt like vomitting. you wont know this. cos you never ask, and we've been quarreling too much. sometimes i feel like you're very unreasonable. do you realise that? i dont tell you that cos i don't wanna hurt your feelings. and when i think back, i think, why cant you just be a little more reasonable? be a little more understanding.. sigh.

if only it was just like before, we would be so happy.
i wished you could stand by me. and never let me go.
this love is not like before.
it's lacking of some love.
i realise you don't show it.
do you?

Secret That Cannot Be Told

The cold coffee leaves the coaster
I hold my feelings very far back

I work hard wanting to get the past back
You can still see it as always clearly on my face

The most beautiful thing wasn't the rainy day
It was the eaves that you and I once took shelter under from the rain

The images of our memories
As I'm swinging on the swing
The dream starts to not be sweet

You say gradually let go of love
Then you will walk farther
Why go changing
The time that has already been missed

You use your fingertip
To stop me from saying goodbye
I imagine you by my side
Before I completely lose you

You say gradually let go of love
Then you will walk farther
Perhaps the lot of fate
Only let us meet

Only let us love each other
For this one season of autumn
I only discover after they float down
The fragments of this happiness
How am I going to pick them up?

Labels: both need to think about it. go reflect.

Friday, June 29

bubba | 6/29/2007 10:51:00 PM

M.I.L.K RUN this sunday! i'm supposed to be excited. i was excited. but no longer.

i realised, things have changed. i don't wanna state why.
in terms of relationship, friends, studies etc.

ohwell. it sucks): BIG TIME

Thursday, June 28

webcam | 6/28/2007 07:24:00 PM

yay i got my webcam(:

okay. my rwp grades SUCK. and i don't wanna talk about it ):

ioc lecture was zZz. i believe not many of us could absorb what she was talking about. all worrying for the ioc quiz 2. HAHA. ohwell. i hope i'll do well.

i think something is wrong with me. i don't know if i'm too stressed or what. my vision is blur. even if im wearing my specs or contacts. that sucks big time. its like. all of a sudden, it becomes so blur. and i'm having headache more frequent these days. sigh. sucks.

IM LACKING TLC.
and i miss you

Humor in the night | 6/28/2007 01:22:00 AM

YAWN YAWN.

xiupin's tag over there will make those who read it think otherwise. hahaha.
xiupin = very hairy
xiupin = my buttock
THEREFORE,
my buttock = very hairy! hahaha

okay. i know im lame. cant blame me. i've a group of very lame friends. and as xixiang named us, we're THE USUALS. hahah((:

okay. i'm supposed to be studying. hehe
i feel my freaking fever coming back. and my arms are going weak.
i don't wanna fall sick again):

Wednesday, June 27

): | 6/27/2007 07:10:00 PM

Aujourd'hui n'est pas mon jour

idontwanttotalkaboutit.

CPPB quiz today. and i was late for french. rushed there. and my legs hurt like shit. ohwellll.
couldnt fucking concentrate during french. but i guess i learnt some new stuffs. not so bad.

told a train back. wow. the train ride was so f*cking long. sheesh. longest train ride ever. but it was cool. looked out of the window. stared at the clouds, the buildings. did some reflections.

i have nice friends who stay with me when i'm upset, not like some.

i had a friend who was really nice to me.
and because of some "cheap thrill",
i ignored my friend
there i lost this very caring friend of mine.

don't ask me why. but i don't know how to start a conver with this friend.

i need TLC.

Monday, June 25

PICTURES(: | 6/25/2007 08:11:00 PM

yay. dad brought home the cd to let me see how my studio shots turned out. 2 of my favourite ones! ((:

1B24, photos have been uploaded! ((:

Sunday, June 24

YAWN | 6/24/2007 07:41:00 PM

okay boring day ): and i woke up early! LOL. studied a little. not bad not bad. heh.

just had dinner. helped lesterLEE with his blog just now. OMG. so fussy. but not as fussy as godwin. haha. SJI GUYS =FUSSY BUNCH OF PEOPLE. haha okay i've a feeling i'm gonna get scolded. LOL. ohwell. i think his lion is cute. heh.

school reopening tml! AND THAT SUCKS. boooooo )):

hungryyy | 6/24/2007 01:43:00 AM

cass is craving for chocolate and tako ):

photobucket sucks cos i cant upload the beautiful pictures taken during chalet. ASSSS

Friday, June 22

CHALET | 6/22/2007 01:48:00 PM

HELLO. i'm back from chalet. fun fun. seriously, i think all of us lost track of time cause we didnt sleep. or rather, we didnt really sleep at the right hours. hahaha.

first day, met at 5. but we had to wait for those who're late, so we set off for ecp only at 7. LOL. rented 12 bikes, 10 single, 2 double and TADA. off for our night cycling. bern and zach were on one double bike, then benson and yimin was on the other. rest of the class who went took the single bike. cheap can. $8 for the whole night. not bad. cycled ard ecp, went to bedok jetty, went to NSRCC, went to airport runway, back to bedok jetty. spent the night there, and.. i quote from xx's blog.

6am. FINALLY. cloudy day. didnt see mr sun until like 7am?
cassandra lee muimui is probably the only person who can uphold the name of zi lian queenxzxz. i actually caught her taking photos of herself and the scenery.
sometimes i really wonder where she gets the energy from.
muimui the best=P

haha. yes. i was taking pics :D i love taking pics. LOL.after that, we went to macs and duh i didnt have appetite. (read the post below)

after we returned our bikes we came back. rested and bathed. then went out to buy the bbq stuffs. $115+ for all the food. and i think we finished them all. i think so. lol.

the pork was nice
the chicken was nice
the mexican chicken was nice
the satay was nice
the prawns were nice
the vodka was BEST.

heh. yes FINALLY. after don't know how long. i think i drank like 1 half bottle of the silly vodka. half bottle of raspberry vodka and 1 bottle of greenapple vodka. i like greenapple vodka :D although it was only a pathetic 8% alcohol, my face turned so freaking red. and apparently, they said i was drunk. cant be. probably a little high only. hahaha.

i remembered having fun. i remembered the food was good. heh

pasir ris park was so cold at night. brrr.but nice nice. can see stars((: i love stars.

i think i was the one who slept the most during the 2half days. heh. lalala. i shall upload pics later((:

Thursday, June 21

NIGHT CYCLING! | 6/21/2007 12:11:00 PM

yay. 1B24 just had our night cycling. and it was a success(: who is the organiser ar? HAHHAA. bbq tonight. so yea. i'm like freaking tired la. thighs hurt and shit. ohwell, we had a few accidents...

bern injured his toe. SO BLOODY!
we lost the 2 passenger bike, had to pay like 180 for it. BUT THE PRO ME FOUND IT=D hahha. saw it by accident la. quite cool. hehe.

it was freaking scary cycling at night. more than 20 km i think. cycled from one end of ecp to the other, then to changi airport runway. but we got to turn back cos the girls were too tired. in the end we stayed at bedok jetty. wa the sunrise. NICE SIA. but i didnt manage the catch all of it cos some ~~idiotic~~ people wanted to go macs to fill their stomach. and apparently they didnt even say bye or whatever. i shall quote gawin "wa we no stomach ar?"

ohwell. overall it was fun la. so yeaa. off to bbq! pictures shall be uploaded on sat!

Wednesday, June 20

my brother is lame | 6/20/2007 01:32:00 PM

BOO. i'm bored. supposed to prepare stuffs for chalet. but im lazyy =D i always am. hhaha. watched 10 things i hate about you online. k la. not too bad. there was a part that was quite interesting. haha. i need romance and comedy. been watching too much gore and horror. hhaha.

i think gladwin is lame. he smsed me all of a sudden. asked me what i'm doing. he seldom do that. he don't even sms me la. and he asked me to go watch Fantastic 4 with him on thurs night. HAHA. how silly. i'll be bbq-ing with 1B24 then:D

oh i found pictures of us camwhoring like 1-2 years ago. LOL.

in 2006

in2005

in 2006

ohwell. i've a lame brother. i have lame friends too.

Tuesday, June 19

ESTHER RACHEL CHAN YI YING | 6/19/2007 12:29:00 PM

I REALISE ESTHER RACHEL CHAN YI YING HAS GONE MIA. stupid shitass. i've not seen her for 124254765687464878764523 YEARS. rah ):

i think daddy has abandoned me. BOOHOO

chalet's tml! excited(:

and i'll miss ahwin. HEH

Monday, June 18

xx is so sweet! | 6/18/2007 10:54:00 PM

XX SO SWEET! omg i love her(: hahaha

♥cass™ says (10:49 PM):
XX AM I THE FIRST ONE U THOUGHT OF?
travvvvvvvv ж says (10:49 PM):
i'm third
↔◕Coolzs◕↔ [DCP 1B/24] Thank you so much guys... I really really appreciate wat u all have done, and i am indeed, touched... says (10:49 PM):
NO
xi xiang says (10:49 PM):
YEAHHHH
♥cass™ says (10:49 PM):
AWWWWWW
xi xiang says (10:49 PM):
THERE IS WENWEN
♥cass™ says (10:49 PM):
XX LURBE ME!
♥cass™ says (10:49 PM):
I SAW
♥cass™ says (10:49 PM):
HAHAA
xi xiang says (10:49 PM):
I LURVE LURBE CASS TILL THE END OF THE TIME

now, how sweet can this darling friend of mine be? VERY!
i love you too xx!((:

-koped her xx's blog

Name 11 people you can think of right
OFF THE TOP OF YOUR HEAD. Don't read
the questions underneath until you
write the names of all 11 people. This
is a lot funnier if you actually
randomly list the names first. No
cheating…

1. xixiang
2. trav
3. godwin
4. benson
5. yk
6. ivy
7. jiayi
8. cheeri
9. yiying
10. rong cheng
11. gawin

DON'T LOOK AHEAD UNLESS YOU FILLED UP
THE TOP!!

HOW DID YOU MEET #4?
-1B24!

DO YOU LIKE ANYONE IN HERE ?
-like all of them. love #3 =D

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOU HADN'T MET #1?
- then i'll miss out all the fun and laughter with this darling(:

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF #2 AND # 6 WERE
GOING OUT?
-HAHAHAHHAA. they don't even know each other! hahaha

How old is #8?
- going on 17! just a week older than me:D

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF #5 CONFESSED THEY
LOVE YOU?
- OMG

WHO'S #10'S BEST FRIEND?
- sheesh. i don't know. HAHHAA. xx? HAHAHA

HAVE YOU EVER EATEN AROUND #1 ?
- eaten with her YES:D ALWAYS!

DO YOU MISS #2?
- haha. the twit guy? HHAHA. miss all of them!

WHO'S #6 DATING?
- some guy in sp bball

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF # 11?
- HORNY MOFO!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF # 9?
- I LOVE HER LOADS. she's my daddy=D

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF #4 AND #7 WERE
GOING OUT?
- ROFLUIFOS =D

WHO DOES #2 LIKE ?
- 1B24 KNOWS!

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN INSIDE #8'S HOUSE?
- nope):

WOULD YOU MARRY #3?
- HEH =D for me to know, for you to find out

DO YOU LOVE #10?
- SJI GUY! i like sji guys. haha

EVER SLEPT IN THE SAME ROOM AS ANY OF
THE NUMBERS?
- yea. yiying slept over at my hse:D

DO YOU TRUST THEM?
- yes yes:D

Sunday, June 17

HAHHA | 6/17/2007 10:36:00 PM

yk sent me smth. let's see(:

MY reaction
WALAUUUUUUU. KNS.

XX's reaction
BLOODY HELL

Ben's reaction
WAAAA

Kenny's reaction
LOL. SO CUTE!

stef's reaction
Stefanie; says (10:34 PM):
OHMYGOD
Stefanie; says (10:34 PM):
JKSHDFXHFJKHSZKJHF
Stefanie; says (10:34 PM):
WHAT THE FUCK AHHHH
Stefanie; says (10:34 PM):
SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME
Stefanie; says (10:35 PM):
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMOMG

Godwin's reaction
† godwin | •[*.*] rice bubble says (10:40 PM):
wah fuck u lah
† godwin | •[*.*] rice bubble says (10:40 PM):
scare me again

wanna see what scared us?

please click here
ENJOY!

#$%@@%$! | 6/17/2007 08:24:00 PM

okay. maid is gone. and here comes a new one. LOL. feels weird. ohwell what to do. parents' decision. ohwell, tml gonna be a boring day):

Labels: yawn

Saturday, June 16

im really upset | 6/16/2007 08:41:00 PM

those three words. i wonder how hard it is to say to your loved ones.
been to someone's friendster. i don't know. he can afford to reply to everyone's comment except mine. wow. i don't know how you feel for me.

care?
you
do
but
upset.
am
i

i really don't know. i don't want another quarrel. have fun with your friends.

missing those good old times.

Labels: im feeling insecure

Friday, June 15

ben's birthday(: | 6/15/2007 10:30:00 PM

there's nth to get jealous about, so i shall shut up and stop thinking so much.
fucking hell
i cant get it off my mind.
RAH
:'(

anyways. celebrated ben's birthday today. got a cake and stuff. my whole house was in a mess. poor me. haha. then i had this stupid headache and all i wanted to was sleep. move a lil and it hurts fucking big time.

thank god the cake was okay. wasnt as bad as i expected la. so (:

wellwell. thanks to those we came yea(:

i need to get well soon.
it's been a week.
stupid shit.

Wednesday, June 13

RAH | 6/13/2007 11:14:00 PM

BOO. my throat still hurts like shit. RAH. when i eat, drink talk. stupid thing. RAHHHH. imagine me RAH-ing until i go off tune. zzz

okay morning: went to baby's hse. AHA. watched spiderman 2 while he and his childhood friend played silly games. heh. then they started fooling ard. and i shall not explain further. haha

after that went to dad's bridal shop. and i realise someone was having his photoshoot and i was like WTF. waste my time. so xx and trav came to get some stuffs. then we waited for bern and zach too. and they joined us. then we chilled at the bridal shop till like 7+ and they went off.

throat hurts. even if im not talking it hurts. RAH.. ohwell. must be the nice chewy juniors i had today and yesterday. IT WAS YUMMY! dont believe ask xx and trav:D and muffin rocks too(:

lalala. | 6/13/2007 09:14:00 AM

The great one is bored ):

i'm nw at baby's house. having my yummy breakfast. LOL. and he and his childhood friend are like playing DOA. dots. should hear all the vulgarities they are spitting out now. hahaha.horny mofos =X

ohwell. gotta go for my studio shots again zZZ. and im feeling sick la. hopefully the pictures dont turn out too disgusting. hahaha.

alrights. food food food. toodles(:

Tuesday, June 12

MY HAIR | 6/12/2007 11:32:00 PM

BOO. i was looking at my friendster pictures and i realise how beautiful my long nice hair was. LOL. BOOHOOHOO. AND NOW I MISS IT)):

hair hair. please grow long faster. and make sure u grow straight. cos its not straight now))):

Monday, June 11

rah | 6/11/2007 06:35:00 PM

GREAT DAY SPENT WITH BABY(:

woke up so early in the morning and went to baby's hse for breakfast. then we slacked ard and went to np to get his garskin. but there was so many people and my foot was hurting and i was pmsing so we left. HA.

went to cityhall then i went to URS to get a pair of new slippers =D wee. heh. then we went to marina to watch spiderman 3. that was like my 2 nd time watching it but nvm:D before the movie we went to the aracde first. haha. =D

after the movie we went back to np to get his garskin and he went home and i went to dover.

THE LATER PART OF MY DAY (FROM DOVER UNTIL I REACH HOME) WAS JUST A WASTE OF TIME. SERIOUSLY.
------------------------------------------------------------
DARLING HAS A BLOG. LOL. SO CUTE((:

Saturday, June 9

SICK): | 6/09/2007 08:50:00 PM

BOO. i woke up with a freaking fever today. my head felt so hot la. and i had this stupid headache and my whole body was aching so badly)): felt so weak can. couldnt even walk at first. RAH. then i got up and went to measure my temp. 39.2 DEGREES! RAH RAH RAHH. felt so freaking sick la. kns. then i went back to bed and sleep awhile more. but i keep waking up. so yaa. then baby asked if we could go out. told him im sick. then he asked he can come over:D and he did. WEE. then back to sleep and finally woke up at ard 10+. slacked ard, talked to baby on msn, and waited for his arrival. hahah.

after he came, slacked ard then we went to 7-11, and he asked me to buy orange juice. i was feeling much better then. lol. got newspaper and went came home. after a while, went out to somerset. GOT MY E65! WEEE. bye NOKIA 2100((((: haha. then we went to mos burger, he got his burger and we went to yio chu kang to meet his friends and i left for home.

baby loves my phone i know:D

MY DARLING E65!

pics we took using my e65!

Labels: heart E65

Friday, June 8

LAST DAY OF SCH(: | 6/08/2007 08:48:00 PM

today's the last day of school! had excel quiz in the morning. AND THATS THE LAST QUIZ WE'RE HAVING:D there wasnt any IDEA lectures so we went to the lib to finish off the report. seriously i have no confidence in that freaking report that pissed me off.

IM FUCKING PISSED OFF WITH YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.

i dont fucking understand why u're so fucking mad

and im supposed to be happy today. ASS

Wednesday, June 6

BOO | 6/06/2007 03:21:00 PM

HELLO.

i'm pissed):

nvm.

i realised, why you're so pissed the other time.

okay i finally understand.

cass sees the light

Labels: ):

Tuesday, June 5

weeeee | 6/05/2007 10:05:00 PM

today is SO SO DAY.
got back iochem quiz 1 paper in the morning. OMG. can die. i made careless mistakes. i wanna go drop dead and die.RAH. i lost like.. 4 marks? KNS. rahhhhhhhhhhh. so pissifying. ohwell.
after chem was cppb. on the way there we saw nick. 0.O i was just thinking back, yesterday or the day before when i was so emo and down and feel like slapping some idiot person so badly, i thought of nick. i mean. those times when we worked for comat. everyone in comat. okay i miss all of them. ohwell.. whatever. during cppb someone was pissing me off and i wasnt in any mood to listen anymore. ohwell. SO GAY. or should i say. CHILDISH. and this person, in the later part of the day, pissed me off again.

after cppb we went for bio pract to check out our bacteria. WOHOO. tansoonann say my bacteria is goodddd. can see the single colonies lei. HAH.

after pract i rushed down or rather, took my time to go sim to meet my darling. heh. but i was so freaking early and i didnt want to lose my way in sim so i just waited at the busstop. wait and wait. ALMOST DIED THERE. haha. and finally he appeared and YAYNESS. fooodddd. i realise, food makes me happy. ahwin pissed me off a lil while walking to the fc so i just shut up. didnt even want to see him for that spilt sec. haha. rahhhh.

after lunch we went to np and blabla. supposed to study but i fell asleep. twice i think. too tired liao. then ah win started taking lame pictures. haha. and tata we left np at 6+. OHYA. and ahwin's friend , marcus, was "maturbating" just now. and he admitted that he's GAY. omg hahahahahha(((((:

on the way out jolene saw me. omg she's so dark now. HAHAHA =X

if you dont want me there say it
dont have to talk bad about me in front of me
i'm not dumb
i know whats going on
i can see
i think that's just so childish

i think i forgive people too easily
i forgive
few mins/hours later i'll get pissed off again
so
MIGHT AS WELL,
NOT FORGIVE RIGHT.
right
some idiot have been pissing me off big time.

i tell you. i'm fucking pissed off.

there's french and mathcad quiz tml. IM SO DEAD FOR FRENCH. AHH.

I MISS MY GIRLS | 6/05/2007 12:19:00 AM

I WANNA GO BACK TO TK. seriously, at least i've a bunch of close friends who knows how to treat u as a friend. and people who actually understands u and dont do silly things to you. seriously. its only the FIRST TERM of poly. and so many things have happened.

i dont remember my friends doing childish things to piss me off.
i dont remember them making me cry.

when i cried, at least they were there for me.
not like people who just stand and laugh at you.

GIRLS I MISS YOU ALL.

i wish you were all here now..

i'm really very disappointed by some people.

Sunday, June 3

030607(((: | 6/03/2007 11:11:00 PM

WEE. baby came to my house to study in the morning. LOL. studied till afternoon and he started fooling ard. hahaha. then we went down to city hall to slack.

GODWIN IS SUCH A PIG. he ate:
cup of instant noodles
Giant sluurrrrp
cup of ribena
TAKO
FRIED MARS BAR
1/4 of my lunch
onion rings
cup of sprite.

he is SOOOO gonna go FAT. wahhahaah.

at my hse. WITH MY SHADES. lol

at BK

at the mrt station

SLURPPPP

he's gay. ahahha

we left cityhall ard 5 and off i went to meet my best friends((:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHONG!
met up with chong sophia jiayi and cheeri to celebrate chong's birthday. ahahha. ohman. i miss them ALOT. the only person i've not seen is YIYING! where are u man. LOL. took lots lots lots of pics. ahhaa. and BY ORDER OF THE PEEPS, im supposed to post ALL THE PICS. so ya. ENJOY. hehe((:

HAHAHA. PICTURE PERFECTT!!!!

CHONG'S CAKE(:

chong and i((:

cheeri is so playful. ahhaha

SO CANDID

the two chiobu:D

SPOT JIAYI AND ME!

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