Friday, December 30

band concert! | 12/30/2005 10:34:00 AM

olala. din blog fer like 2 days. but that doesnt mean i wasnt online. i was lah. hhaaz. just too lazy to blog. =)) anyways i think nxt yr i also have have much chance to blog. so. yea. =))

hmmz. was feelingg kinda high the past 2 days actually. but then, nth to be happy abt. l0ls. its OVER.

yesterday was a busy day. hhaaz. morning went to be mum's shop. den left ard 11 to go to tm get the concert tics from sophia. den met ying at tanah merah station. afterr that we went to orchard meet ghis. ying and ghis when to cut their hair! hhaaz. don worry. I'LL UPLOAD here. hhaaz. so fun. and we took disgusting neoprints. =S

den we went to victoria concert hall. saw alot of ppl. and some LOSERS who went alone. hhaaz. *queenie im not talking abt u ar. hhaaz

apparently not alot of ppl know abt the concert.. the japs were damn good lahh. compared to them. i think our sch ar. hmmz. nvr. no comments. =))

afterr the concert, went to look fer the band ppl.. hhaz. i gave asnira and kelly a bouquet. IM SO NICE CAN! i onli gave others a STALK lorr. hhaaz.

afterr tt went to eat mrs fields at esplande. *aiya. i fergot how to spell after 2mths of not studying* hhaaz. den we took MORE pictures!!

ying washing her hair

after the wash. preparing to cut!

afterr the cut! *ying was forced to take the pic.

blowing her hair! looks scary! hhaaz

me and ghis! =))

boohoohoo. smth went wrong wit tis stupid blog. nvm. i'll upload them ALL the nxt time. =))

Tuesday, December 27

- | 12/27/2005 09:28:00 PM

don't know why. there's so much that i have to tell you. but yet, i don't know how to kai kou.. like u said. its unfair. i know its unfair to. but my decision was wrong right from the start. and i should stop lettingg this go on.

anyways. i slept like a pig today. woke up only at 1+. then when for bowling ard 2+. but there aint any lanes, so had to wait till 4. bowled haihao lah. 3rd and 5th game pulled me down. or i could hab gotten a 150 or 160 average. sianz. i need MORE trainingg.

something have been lacking in my life. but i don't know what it is. =(

somehow i cant wait for sch to reopen. i want to study. i need to study. i need to occupy myself with smth.

someone said i have no life. mayb i really don't. seriously, i don't know what i want in life. somehow, the stuffs i want have been too difficult to achieve that i give up. i give up too easily.. and those stuffs that i need to give up on.. i don give them up.. whats the prob with me?

Monday, December 26

backk from thailand` | 12/26/2005 11:38:00 PM

yo! im backk! haha. and of cos i bought stuffs fer SOME of ya. those whom i diin get anythingg.. im sry! cos im seriously broke. haha. i even need to ask my mum fer money can. well, at least i got ying's present and ghis's caps BEFORE i went broke. l0ls.

hmm. the trip was okay lahh. all i did was shopping eat sleep shopping. hhaaz. broke liao can. and i saw so many dogs! OMG. so cute can!!! and there were baby rabbits fer sale. so so so so so so cute lahh! OMG.

walked till my legs hurt. and my back aches. eat till i so full. and i even lost appettite. and felt like vomitting. gross

oh oh oh. there were cute guys and ah bengs in my hotel! haha. so cool! =)) and i saw tt acsbr bowlerr. keith. at mbk.

i need to EXeRCISE. need to go cut out the fats tt grew the past few days. l0ls. and i wana bowl. i don wanna lose touch! cant disappoint myself again like wat happened duringg stbc. RAHH.
lets not tok abt it anymore.
=))

im dead tiredd. and im having a freakingg headache. my plane was delayed fer more den an hour. wen we were abt to fly we had to be delayed fer half an hour cz of the traffic. den wen we were to land we were delayed fer 20 mins cos of the traffic AGAIN. plus the weather outside was horrible. den wen we were supposedd to land. we were delayed again cos there was smth wrong wit the the plane's wheels. cant come out or smthh. so the pilot had to fly up again.. and we finally touch the grd ard 8.30.. wen we were suppose to land ard 7+..

sianz. my bartop dancer still in shanghai bartop-dancingg in the snow. haha. i hope he doesnt see this.=))

alrights. gtg. im TIRED! *yawns*

Friday, December 23

BOO | 12/23/2005 12:51:00 AM

HELLO! afterr missingg fer so many days.. im sure u ppl MISS me! =))
haha.
well, the past few days were.. good.
did SOME soul searchingg
and realise smthh
and planned smthh
and cried over smthh
and regretted smth

AIYA. the point is.
i hab AWOKEN
=))

i hab set down my aims fer nxt yr. in my head
ahahaha
haben had the time to go jot it down somewhere...

so many things had happened
and somehow
i've been ratherr upset abt SOME thingss
but still
i wanna thank those who hab been there fer me.
=))
u noe hu u are
even though u said i can help much.
haha
my BARTOP DANCER!!
apparently he is now on the plane. FLYING to shanghai
l0ls

and piggy darlingg. =))

im goingg to bangkok!!! and in.. afew hours time i'll be on the plane.
=))

k lahh. im busyy now
l0ls.
so wanted can!
=))

Sunday, December 11

confessions! | 12/11/2005 08:09:00 PM

hhaaz. confessions doesnt mean im gona say i like someone.. but to tell those hu mistaken my piggydarlingg fer my boyfriend. let me say he fer the LAST time.

piggy darlingg is NOT my boyfriend. just a very good friend of mine. =))

am i rite piggy? l0lx.

just now i wanted to go reply ame's testi. but wen i reach friendster.. i suddenly hab tis kinda really really tired feelingg. and all of a sudden.. i just feel like sitting down and studyy.. i guess i wasted too much time liaos.

yest when i was at orchard.. i saw the countdown to 2006. 21 more days. *tt was yest* so today.. there's only 20 days left.. sheeshh man

i actually did some hw todayy. and im so contended wit myself. =))
i shall do 10 questions of amath everday and 20 of emath. if i hab the mood. haha. but i guess im in the mood to do amath more ba. i dono whyy. l0ls. mayb cos i wana pass the qualifyingg test? hmmx. nononono. i don wana pass the qualifyingg test.. i wana pass it with FLYING COLOURS. =)))

haha. im mad liaos. =)) i wana study study studyy. SOMEONE GIB ME THE MOTIVATION!!! =((

and some stuffs hab been happeningg and some ppl hab been tellingg me abt smth. OMG. really got some kinda shock.. haha.

i miss schh`

Saturday, December 10

perhaps love` <3 | 12/10/2005 10:22:00 PM

yoyoyo! =))

i just reach home and im so freakingg tiredd lah! *yawns* and my eyes hurt like shit. its been lidat fer afew days oredi. =((

anyway. went to watch perhaps love wit piggydarlingg just now. omg. the startingg was kinda boringg. i almost fell asleep can.. l0lx. den i was so freakingg cold lah. stupid aircon. den towards the endingg i cried.. haha. i nvr knew i would cry wen im watchingg a musical. aiya. actually tt part was kinda sad lahh.. the overall storyline is a sad storyy. just tt i was feelingg so cold and tiredd tt i cant really be bothered to go and understand and feel it. l0ls.. gosh. i sound like some pro. =))

oh. den b4 watchingg i went shoppingg fer presents. fer my 2 bros. haha. i guess tis is the first time i ACTUALLY bought my bros any gift. l0lx. surprisingg sia. and i saw anqi! and she gave me THAT LOOK! l0ls. she mad. =))

well, bought both of them nike tee. i cant make up my mind man! they seem to hab everythingg! l0ls. i haben bought guy's clothingg fer like so long liao. guess the last time i bought was.. 2 yrs ago? l0ls.

anyway. afterr the movie we went to walk ard orchard. wakaka. i kept showingg piggydarlingg my husband can! =)) my husband so CUTE! =))))

oh. and we saw ALOT of pigs. haha. so cute lah! =))

i like that flyingg pig in action city!!

*hint hint*

CHRISTMAS IS COMING! haha

okayy`. den afterr tt i went to meet my mum at tiong. den had dinnerr. im like so sososososososo full lah! l0ls. alrights. gtg` buaiz ppl. =))

Friday, December 9

olala` | 12/09/2005 08:50:00 PM

i don't why but i feel damn happy now. haha. oh. and i realise asnira use RAHH too. rahhrahh. copycat! hmphff. l0lx

anyways. i promised myself i must workk hard liao. no matter what i cannot drop any subjects. and i MUST get all As fer every single test nxt yr. olala.

let me be a nerd

anyways. i don hab to go fer tt STUPID bio revision liao. WAHAHA. i told my mum abt it.. den she called the centre. YAY. yay cos i don hab to go there and waste time. not becos i wana SLACK. im gona stay home and mugg like shit.

sianz ar. mummy brought me to british council fer some placement test. OLALA. 70/80. not bad fer me. hee. it was damn easy lahh. haha.

i figured out that i'll be quite busy startingg from nxt yr. lets see

mon/tue AND fri -- bowling
tue -- chem tuition
fri -- eng
emath and amath will take up 3 days.

oh goshh. nvm. i noe its fer my OWN good. mayb i should hab bio tuition as well! olala. but tt depends on my performance fer the freakingg qualifyingg test. i MUST pass. =))

im goingg mad today. haha. i dono why`

Thursday, December 8

im in a whirlpool` | 12/08/2005 09:00:00 PM

am i? well, i guess so.

rahh.

those were just rubbishh. im havingg a headache now. wth.
oh and guess what
i have tuition EVERYDAY now.
except fer monday
but afterr my amath tuitiontemporarily
i'll be freeer i guess. lols.
BUTBUTBUT
that wont last long.
cos i checkedd. i wont be free from the 19 onwards!
omg.
holidays aint holidays.
and i just realise that my onli free week, which is like. nxt week.
will be packedd too. cz i hab to finish upp all the freakingg holiday hw by then
sheeshh.

anyway. went fer some dumb bio revision class just now. the teacherr practically spend like 1 hour tokingg crapp lahh. she kept wastingg time. rahh. and she met us go backk again on sat. wth. i've been havingg tuition like. 3 days in a row liao. den tml and sat hab bio. WA SIANZ.

and tt bio teacherr is gna gib a mock test on the last 2 weeks. and some stupid freakingg chapters tt i haben LEARN
that stupid excretion, coordination and some other stupid chapters. wa biang. liddat sure fail de lorr. WATS HER PROB.

and she went thru those chapterrs tt i need help in liao. WTH. den i go fer wat. WASTE TIME ONLY CAN. rahhrahh. i rather go fer tt sissy snape's chem lessons lorr. bio was DAMN DAMN boringg.

and she keep pickingg on me can. wabiang. den she was like. cassandra
tis is a tough question. i want you to answerr that. WALAU. im not a genius can. rahhrahh

and i cant stand her armpit hair reminds miie of. SOMEONE. hahah

alrights. i needa go do my tuition hw liao. SIANZ CAN! =((

Wednesday, December 7

yay yay yay | 12/07/2005 08:21:00 PM

OHLALA. piggy darlingg is backk!! finally! =))

these few days seem so long without u uknw!! and and. everythingg seems to go wrong without youu. =((
but now that ure backk.
i believe everythingg will be backk in place. =))

well.. ame stef and ying came my hse today. mahjong wee.
lady luckk shinningg on miie. haha. keep winningg can! =))

well, i don wana tinkk abt it anymore. rahhrahh
and im goingg to be so broke can! gona watch so many movies..
chicken little
king kong
the promise
perhaps love

OMG OMG OMG. so many i wana watchh..

haiz. sianz ar sianz.

piggy darlingg hurry go home!!

so depressingg` | 12/07/2005 12:47:00 PM

so depressingg can! =((

i hate my itchy fingers and my stupid kpo eyes.. rahhrahh. idiotic me. btw. i diin surf porn or watever. don be as sickk as stupid godwin. haha`

hate me hate me hate me hate me

and yingg's IRRITATINGG me NOW. behind me. yuckks. ying u SUCK lorr. hmphff. copy cat. rahhrahh

i've made my decision! yes yes. only ying knows mayb. haha.

ghis ar! i did wat WE wanted to do liao! omg. omg omg. ur turn!! =((
see my face should noe the result le. BOOHOOHO.
but nvm. heng not too obvious. haha.

well, i guess i really need think to sort out everythingg. and really sit down and studyy le.. haiz.
i thinkk im goingg AWAY fer awhile. see when i really calm down le come backk.
so if i don blog anymore.. means im away liao. =((

im SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD SAD

ihateYOUU

stupid me` | 12/07/2005 12:18:00 AM

yes. im dumb. im stupid im an idiot im an asshole i suck i suck i suck.

i feel like choppingg off my itchy fingerrs and blindingg my freakingg eyes.

tell me all these are just my dreams and not reality.

tell me all these will be over when i wake upp

ghis wans to do wan i wanna do.

should we?

but the fear of..

hmmz. nvm. haiz

i need geniie to grant me a wish!

=((

i wishh that...

rahh.

y0uu were never meant to be mine. youu were NEVER mine in the first place.

Tuesday, December 6

thanks! | 12/06/2005 10:08:00 PM

yea. thanks yingg. for beingg there fer miie i really needed smth to cheer miie up u noe. =(( im like still sadd.. but now as sad as yest. COS i manage to look on he bright side of life =)))
and an lil encouragement from atiqah and elis cheered miie up too. thanks gals. *muacks*

and i decided not to gib myself hope. though i yearn to be loved by SOMEONE =))) l0lx. but nvm. without that. i guess i can still live on. =D

well. it has been afew days since camp ended. and i still miss it! =(( its those days when i can feel we're more bonded den we usually are. and the late nights of fun. im so gona miss it. haiz. and those boringg yet interestingg MO talk. and that night walkk. how i made alicia and elis more hyperr when they almost died. hhaaz. =))

~~rahhrahh.~~

sheesh cass. shut up wit that rahhrahh. l0lx.

but nvm. its fun. =))

well. had tuition in the morningg. and i did cedar gals amath paper. sheesh. 1 week nvr do onli my brain cant workk. die lah!! den had chem tuition at 5-8. that beng in class damn funny can. hhaaz.

RAHH.

there's smthh i really wana tell someone y0uu noe! l0lx. but i cannot. rahhrahh.

thanks! | 12/06/2005 10:08:00 PM

Monday, December 5

im havingg a headache` | 12/05/2005 11:20:00 PM

yesyes. a TERRIBLE one indeed. haiz. where are my closest frens when i need them?? where's jo where's ying where's ghis. AND MOST IMPORTANTLY. where is my piggy daringg?

~~rahhrahh~~

stop that cass. youu suckk

yes i do. =) isnt thats why i HATE ME? ~~rahhrahh~~ i suckk so muchh

my head's spinningg so muchh that i feel like knockingg it against the wall. i wann throw it away.. why am i thinkingg so muchh about tis kinda stupid problem?? i told myself tt i MUST change. wats my world becomingg too??

cass u suckk ALOT. and i mean it.

haiz. i need to chill. SERI0USLY. fer the whole day i've been lidat and my headache makes it worse. and my eyes hab been so freakingg pain can.

PIGGY DARLING!!! NI ZAI NA LI???

*cries*

leave miie alone.
just
GET LOST

Sunday, December 4

my fingerr hurts` | 12/04/2005 11:05:00 PM

BOOHOOHOO. i just realise that my injured finger is swollen! its like damn itchy lahh.. and now its red cz i keep scratchingg it. hhaaz. oh and i scanned the neoprints i took wit kat. and now im too lazy to go cut it. so its like. ONE BIG PIECE. hhaaz. and i combined the pics i took wit ghis so that i can save space in my friendster.. and add MORE PICS!

hhaaz. im mad. mayb cz someone' not online and im DAMN BORED can!! =(((

i miss y0uu` | 12/04/2005 02:03:00 PM

y0. i slept like 2+ yest coz ame and i were waitingg fer someone's msg. hhaaz. kinda dumb. budden i buay tahan liao so i went to sleep.. and i woke up at 11. den straight away had tutition till 1+. goshh. im like so guilty can. 1 week never touch my workk oredi. and camp is just an excuse. i can feel myself slowly becomingg a nerd budden.. i hab not much motivation to study. all i tinkk abt is play play play. rahhrahh *smacks my butt*

i dono why but i had tis nice and special feelingg when i talked to someone on the phone yest. hhaaz. *smiles* i wonderr wat that means. hee.

i guess i shouldnt be too happy about it.. and i shouldnt gib myself hope. hhaaz~ mayb its just my imagination.. mayb im just a good fren to that someone even though there are signs of... hmmz. mayb i shouldnt be bloggingg too muchh about it. HHAAZ.

=))

anyways. i realise that i haven had breakfast and lunch. and look at the time now. 2.11! sheesh. my stomach will go mad. but. who cares. hhaaz.

i guess afterr this entry i'll go hab lunch den start to study. esp my bio. haben really started uknw. and i hab to take the sickeningg qualifyingg test. and i don wana drop bio. amaths too. even though i don like amaths. hhaaz. nvm. i just need to study hard and study smart. =))

i cant wait fer tue!! den i can wash my hair. hhaaz. its getting so oily now tt i hab to control myself from scratchingg it. oh wells, tis is the consequence of being vain. hhaaz. nvm. i like it can liao. =))

and from tues im gona start beingg busy again. tues to thurs i hab amaths tuition everyday.. and i hab to walk 2km to my tuition teacher's hse. rahhrahh. im too lazy to wait fer the freakingg bus. hhaaz. anyway walkking's good. can exercise!! =))

this may be the second mth of holidays but its not a time to enjoy fer miie. rahh. im gettingg more and more busy. i guess i hab to draw up a schedule / timetable soon. if not i'll go crazy.

alrights. off fer lunch!

remm to watch star awards tonight!!! =)))

Saturday, December 3

masters! | 12/03/2005 05:25:00 PM

hello. im backk~ and surprisely i can use the interent at home at tis time. 5.30.. somehow my bro reset the internet and he fergt to put the firewall. or he cant be bothered oredi. l0lx.

im so so so tired.. =( and im so bloody freakingg pissed off wit someone. alrights. not exactly pissed off. just upset i suppose. and mayb kat's rite. im thinking too much. but i guess thats just me. i have to get rid of this freakingg problem with miie. boohoohoo

for the past few days i've been thinkingg about lots of stuffs. stuffs that can date backk to 2 years ago.. and how i actually regretted doingg/not doing so many things. i just felt like a big big dumbo.and i feel like bowlingg myself down the bowlingg lane. rahh`

recently i realise that there's this person who reminds miie of someone. and this person is a special person. to me mayb. i dono how he feels though. rahhh. he has provided miie with so muchh fun. and i believe thats just one sided yea. and i told myself im not suppose to think of all these afterr i made my decision to end that relationship of jcoaesys. haiz`

i haben had the time to really sit down and think of what i've done the past few mths.. and it seems like i've been wastingg my precious time away.. instead of studyingg, i play and play. and look. now i hab so little time to get ready fer the qualifyingg tests i hab to take at the beginningg of the year. but piggy darling hab been supportingg miie all alongg. very nice of ya.. *huggs*

if given a chance.. i would really wishh that i can sit down and cry. cry out all my frustrations, unhappiness, troubles and problems.. i just wishh i can be as trouble-free as the beginningg.

this past year, so much things happened to my life and i realised that i hab changed so muchh. so muchh tt i cant recognise myself.

sometimes i just feel like stoppingg all conections from tis world so tt i can be left alone.. i wishh tt someone would be out there. beingg there fer miie when i need someone.. and how i wishh tt someone will be ......

but nvm. guess we'll be happier liddat. i suppose.

anyway. some happier stuffs to blog about. went to support fer the masters today! and guess hu i saw? =)))) p0lar bear! wee. gosh. he slim down so muchh lah! and lion grew erm. BIGGER! guess they transfered their fats. hhaaz. oh and colin was there too. he diin bowl tt well.. abit disappointingg. but nvm. hhaaz. i don really care so muchh abt him now..

the others bowled soso lahh. and thank goodness i diin bowl. can imagine how tiredd i'll be. but when i reached there ame and azyan was like. wasted tt i din come earlier or smth lidat. cz they were lookingg fer reserves. wth. im number one reserve!! RAHHRAHH. nvm`

den saw lots of other ppl.. kinda fun i guess. but i was supa tiredd wen the thingy end.. den kat and i headed to ps fer lunch. den took some neoprints and went home. i was damn tiredd lahh!! rahh`

alrights. enough fer today.. and im off lookingg fer new template fer my bloggie` =))

Friday, December 2

hair!!! | 12/02/2005 10:40:00 PM

i went to rebond my hair!!
and it diin make MUCH difference though. l0lx. nvm. happy can liao. =))

but i cant wash my hair! boohoohoo.
im gona stinkk like a smelly pig! hhaaz.
tts why im planning not to go out
alrights. mayb tml go support at the masters. den i'll be stayingg at home. to STUDY.
=))

i haben been studyingg u noe!!
rahhrahh

Thursday, December 1

camp` | 12/01/2005 10:22:00 PM

BOO

im backk from camp. hhaa. and im so tired can!! rahhrahh

okay. lets see~

on the first day.. everyone arrived in schh.. and apparently we're all excited lah! and atiqah brought her bear!!

=))

den we set of fer safra resort. =)) went to the bowlingg alley and we had tis MO talk in the karaoke rooms.. kinda fun lah. hahaa. but i was damn hungry wen tt thingy ended. den we checked into our rooms at ard 2 plus i tinkk. and we were split up into two groups.

KARMA rocks!

den we had to play tis stupid checkers. human checkers to be correct. and it reminded miie of harry potter. hhaaz. so cartoon can! and we were not suppose to touch the lines..but my stupid bug fat body keep touchingg it! l0lx. in the end the light houses won.. and they had cheese fer their prize. hhaaz. and afterr tt everyone was super itchy lahh! cant stand it so i went fer a quick shower during break time. the waterr was samn small.. and COLD! =S

den we had dinner at SIX kinda early fer miie though. den we had to go prepare ourselves fer the night walk/ hunt. watever its called.. we walked from changi village that area all the way back to the resort.. 16 km! thats like madness lahh. but i tinkk i went a little crazy.. i was super hyper ALL THE WAY CAN. i dono why.. cz everyone was dying liao. hahaz

den we reach our resort late lah. but sheryl ordered macs. the macflurry was yummy! =)) and i got to bathe only at 1+ can! and i cant really get to sleep lahh. the aircon was so freakingg cold i had blocked nose.. and azyan was sleepingg like a prawn cz she diin wan my jacket to cover.. i was just being nice!! =))

den the second day. we had tis terroist game lahh. had to find out where the terrorist went to bomb.. kinda stupid. l0lz.. den we had lunch..
den we had the war game!! and i took pic

of the battle field! and the lighthouses were gross can! they put milo powder, detergent, biscuit, and many many more things in their waterbombs lah. GROSS!! but karma won!! =)) and afterr tt game we rushed into the toilet to get washed up!

and went everyone was bathingg i MOPPED the floor can! and azyan sat outside while the instructors made MORE water bombs to bomb us. but we the karma are smart freaks and we locked them out!! the lighthouses gt wet!! hhaaz. =))

but we got very wet and dirty t0o!! yuckks. and i smell of detergent milo and biscuit. damn gross can!

and stef elis sheryl and andrea played brigde everynite and i wasnt allowed to sleep cz i was watchingg them play. boohoohoo. so tired! *yawnz*

den tt nite we were tokingg on the phone was genniee. hhaaz. damn funy lahh`

den the third day..

we diin really do much.. just had the sittingg game.. and my whole body was achingg can!! den wen they released us.. atiqah kat elis and i went to the pool room fer pool.. elis was damn busy lahh! keep tokingg on the phone wit elton. l0lx.

den we went backk to the bungal0w at 4+ i tinkk, and i helped them start PART of the fire. and i burned my fingerr!! boohoohoo

rahhrahh. den some of us stayed over.. we went to airprt fer supperr and played mahjongg thru the nite! so tiredd lahh!! but we slpt at 6+.. and woke up at 8.. den we packed and booked out.. den HOME SWEET HOME!

i reached home at ard 11.. den slept till 7! im so tired!! and tml i'll be goingg to rebond my hair. =))

and im surprised so many ppl miss miie lah! HHAAHA. and ghis diin noe WHERE i went. l0lx. i went MIA! l0lx. rahhrahh. lame`

im too lazy to blog more. hhaaz`