Monday, May 4

Expectations | 5/04/2009 12:34:00 AM

My mind's in a state of confusion. I really don't know what's going on. I think I expect too much, and thus I hate expectations. Expectations can really bring you down. Like alot alot. I know what I expect NEVER happens, so I hardly expect. But when I do, most of the times it's just disappointments, and more disappointments. What's it trying to tell me? That I should just stop expecting and move on?

It's like a aimless wait. I don't know what I'm waiting for, I don't know when whatever I'm waiting for will come. I can almost imagine myself standing there in darkness, expecting something to happen but hmm, that something never appears. Then yupp, people say, "then go search for it instead" What if I tried? What if I've been walking around in circles and boo I'm back to square one? Again, expectations.. Expectations, I really hate it.

Crap I'm having a horrible headache.....

I like not only to be loved, but to be told I am loved.

I miss malbas, miss nz. Maybe I should never have returned. At least, I wouldnt know what's going on, even if I knew it'll be easier to let go. Btw, malbas is the club we go to in NZ.

you look so happy, well expected.
I want to know how you feel,
I want to know what to do,
I want to know if I should go or wait,
I want to know if you're worth it,
I want to know if you are who you are,
I want to know if this is going to continue

Both expectations and memories are more than mere images founded on previous experience. - Samuel Alexander

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