Sunday, April 26

you spin my head right round right round | 4/26/2009 11:05:00 PM

I feel like blogging but I don't know what to say or blog about. People closer to me, people who knows asked me to chill. Yup, i'm chill. like very chill so now what? What am I to do now?

This sense of upsetness, loneliness, and feeling so lost. It's so familiar. Why am I feeling it again? Where's the one who I need most right now? Where's my boy to make me smile again? You know a call from you and wow, 180 degrees change in my mood this morning. But while walking home it's another different thing cos I know you're not here...

The blisters on my sole is hurting me, just like how you did. The pain will not go away so soon, It will stay and there will be scars. But I'm not going to hate you. For that's you, I mean, you are like that I wont expect you to change for me.

Will you be my number 1?

I'm lost, very lost. Just like your msn nick when you first added me.
`lost

Perhaps I should have just stayed in NZ, perhaps I shouldnt even have returned with the mindset of everything remaining the same. Crap, if I go on blogging and thinking about it I'm going to start hating you, start hating myself.

thanks to those who tried to cheer me up (:
thankyou.

just another 4 letter word.

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